Chapter 1

It's graduation day.

I have been waiting for this day for two years. I had to take a semester off of school to put myself back together. That tends to happen when your fiance freakishly dies due to a roadside bomb in Iraq.

Remind me to never date someone in the Army.

While he was away making me proud...I was being a student and a wedding planner. He was due to come back mid April sometime and we were going to get married in June after I graduated in May.

I remember that day so well. I play it back in my head constantly. It was the morning of May 5th. I was cleaning my apartment with my roommates before all of our family members and friends and boyfriends came over. There was a knock at our front door and Tawny answered it. She ran into the kitchen with a look on her face that I can't even describe.

She said, "Erin, it's for you."

Her voice sounded so small, and that's not normal for her.

I walked to the door and opened it. I saw two men standing in uniforms and I just knew.

I don't think I've ever been the same since that day. None of us have.

I thought...I'm never going to be able to love anyone again. He was my best friend and my soulmate. What does one do after they lose their person?

I've pretty much bubble wrapped my heart. Actually, you'll need surgical tools to get to my heart now.

Well, it's taken me two years to pull everything together, seems like it affected my best friends the same way. We're all graduating together.

We've known each other since first day our freshman year of college, and we've been inseparable. Well, Alisa and I have known each other since we were little and same with Tawny and Erica. We all kind of just mesh together the way best friends should.

We were all planning on living together in New York City, that was before Shane died. I decided that I needed to get away...completely, even if I had to leave my friends behind.

Thank goodness for a daddy who's got connections. I got a job in London at a public relations firm.

I leave in three days.

I've always wanted to go to London.

I guess we'll see what adventures await me there.