the real me
my life wasnt happy like everyone thought,, yes its true that i can have everything i want. well since im 5 years old im longing for my love of my parents. my mother is always buzy about her work, while my father, i dont have one, i never met him
im always wondering what my father looks like, wondering if my life would be happy with him. even though im living with my mother eversince im born i dont know anything about her, and i bet she absolutly know nothing about me.
when im still young i dont really care if i dont have a father and i dont care if my mother is always buzy. but as time past, i realize how important a family is, i realize that i dont have a normal family.
when i turn 10 i realize that my life is so sad, that time i kept thinking that no one loves me and im alone. i hate everything about family, i hate tv ads about family, it makes me more sad everytime i saw happy families.
well my mother is always working thats why our food is always delicious, but i dont want it, coz im always eating alone. and i also hate family activities, well as i said i dont have family.
as time past, i learn how to pretend, im always happy, but deep inside sadness is killing me, im not showing my real emotion coz i dont want them to feel pity to me.
when i turn highschool, i felt little happiness because there are some people was in the same situation. but still i felt alone, i felt whimper coz my classmates have a wonderful wonder, not like me.
you know everytime im tried to open up with my mother she just said "so what". i can feel that shes trying to pushed me away. i dont want to look stupid so i let i just let her do whatever she want.
my smile and laughter are always fake until one day, the day i watched alice academy, everything about me change, before all my smiles are fake but know i learn to smile truly. i always feel alone but now i dont feel alone anymore i always know that alice academy is alwys there for me.
alice academy is my light that guides me to the darkness that i was in. they show me how wonderful life is. they sweep away all the sadness in me. thats why i dont kow what might happen to life again without them..
its just a summary, there still a next chapter describing how life is unfair for me before i watch alice academy plz stand by and reviews,
im not writing these b'coz i want u 2 feel pity for me all i want is to share my life with u, coz i dont to hide it, i know u can understand me, im not alone right?