Summary – "...I had to see you again, even if it was just from afar. I never thought that it would be this far." When you put all your hopes and dreams into just one more encounter with that special someone, and look forward every single moment for that day to come...it could be your greatest dreams come true, or completely destroy you.

Disclaimer – Ah…a girl can only dream, eh? XD

Author's Note – Hey hey! Before anyone hurts me, NO, I haven't stopped writing The Day the Dream Ended…I just had this idea pop into my head one day, when I was reading something, and I just wanted to get it down before it all vanishes into thin air :P This is my first attempt at a one-shot…so hopefully you'll like it! Try to guess whose POV its from, k?

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Silent Tears

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The months came and went, and the years flew by. There hasn't been a day when I haven't thought about you…I'd never forget you. I even tried to, at one point…but I just couldn't. We had made our promise, after all, and I always keep my promises.

I tried so hard to get to you…I tried many times, and failed many times. I suffered; I agonized…I'd missed you so much. But no magic could keep me away from you forever…I had to see you again, even if it was just from afar.

I never thought that it would be this far.

They say that people change when time passes, and that sometimes we forget things—even things that were once so important to us. But was it not the wise old Granny-Zeniiba that had said that people never actually completely forget, and that it just takes time to remember?

Well, she omitted to mention that time can also help people forget.

I had heard once that the only reason why we forget is because we want to…that some inner sense beyond our reach and knowledge can decipher this and grant us our unspoken desire of erasing certain things from our memories. Certain things…or certain people.

Is that what happened? Did you wish to forget? Forget about the blissful times, however short, we had spent together? Forget our special moments which I so cherish, when we took to the sky and cast all our worries and differences aside? Did you wish to forget the promise that I had made you…or the one that you had made me?

Did you wish to forget about me?

I'm watching you now from afar…my shock at seeing you like this had halted my steps and made my heart go numb. My excitement at seeing you again beaten out of existence at the sight of the shiny gold band on your left hand, and the sight of your familiarly beautiful and gentle form dangerously close with that of another—and the sight of the two of you kissing passionately under the clear night sky. Our night sky.

It hurts. Unbearably so.

Perhaps I should have tried harder to break the spells that bound me from coming to you. However hard and painful it would have been, if I had succeed in getting to you sooner…it would have all been worth it—you are worth everything to me…did you know that?

I never got to tell you…just how I feel about you.

Perhaps I should have kept in mind more carefully that our time passes differently from one another. I should have known that time passes differently for humans and spirits.

Just why you were and always will be so important to me…

Perhaps if I had realized sooner…then I would not have to be killed twice by the pain of being separated from you…the pain of watching you leave and giving you my blessings, when all I'd ever wanted was to be that blessing. Be the one to protect you, to share happiness with you…to share my whole life with you.

I realize it now…a little too late.

I am hiding now in the shadows, watching you gaze lovingly into the eyes of another…with that same gaze of which you had once used to look upon me. Did it mean anything to you then? It did to me. A lot. I close my eyes in pain, my head started to turn slowly away in attempt to block out this scurrility.

I love you.

A solitary tear slid down my cheek in one liquid-smooth motion, gently and quietly…unnoticed by myself, and unseen by you. You who are and has always been my purpose, my very life, my only love…you who I weep for…alone…because of that unshakable feeling I feel for you, from the bottom of my heart. That feeling which I had felt when I first met you…when I first fell in love with you.

And I always will.

The flickering of the thousand stars in the clear night sky; the gentle moonlight illuminating your tender features; the look in your eyes as they glowed with unmistakable love…

More tears slid down quietly, one after another. My heart feels as if it is being stabbed by a knife with every breath I take…the pain of never having you by my side again, too unbearable to comprehend. But that look in your eyes, at this very moment…

And that's why I will go, and leave you in peace now…sayonara, my love.

Smiling a sad smile as I watched you from afar, my eyes burning with fresh tears of my love for you…I took one last long gaze at you, memorizing all of your details and engraving them into a picture that I will always keep in my heart.

I will always love you and you alone…that is my promise to you. It had always been a promise.

I turned once again towards the cold moon, and slid silently and unnoticed into the night, a frail silvery line flying back to the unknown and the nothingness

A promise I will keep unto eternity.

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Well…that's it! What do you think?? With so many "happy-go-sappy" Spirited Away fics I've been seeing lately, I just thought mebbe it's time for something angsty…could be just a mood, I guess. Was it really obvious that it was from Haku's POV from the start?? When I wrote it, I tried to leave out any specifics until the end, so that it could work both ways…because it might've, ya neva know n.n

As a sidenote, I just wanna mention that all the lines in italics are one continuation of Haku's thoughts (or Chihiro's…whichever way you wanna see this)…somehow they just sorta worked their own way into the whole setting. And hey, they fit in alrite, duntcha think??

Hopefully none of you will wanna murder me after you read this…I really would like to live past my 18th birthday, if you'll all lemme XD Hehehe…but as long as ya keep the pain to a minimal, pls review and tell me what you think, K?? And while you're at it…read my other fic too!

Until next time then!

Aqua Sunshine XD