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xx J.M xx1. The Beach
The lump in my throat gradually got bigger, the more my car disappeared into the thick forests that surrounded the small—practically non-existent—town of La Push, the place I've been successfully avoiding for the past 3 years. Except now.
Every thing reminded me of her. Mum. A simple leaf could set me off into a crying spasm. But with a lot of effort I was able to hold the flood gates back from flooding my cheeks.
I had always managed to come up with an excuse from coming back here. Back home. But this time I had nothing, so when my dad called suggesting I come back for a visit; I agreed. I had just graduated early form college so I had no where else to go. No choice.
Sure I was happy to see Jacob and Billy. Brother and father. I loved them both so much, but sometimes that wasn't enough to stop the overwhelming pain.
After a few more minutes of driving around, trying—and failing miserably— to find there house that dad had said was 'hidden in the forest' I finally found the driveways opening by the edge of the gravel road.
A sudden pain lurched in my stomach as I surveyed the house I grew up in. exactly the same. It was like she never left. Like she would be inside right now tapping her fingernails impatiently against the mahogany table that she inherited from her parents. Waiting for my arrival.
Rachel. The little voice in my head scolded. She gone. Dead. Shes not coming back.
I held back the sob I felt clawing up my throat as I turned off the car and slowly unbuckled my seat belt. Freezing halfway when the front door slammed open, revealing someone I missed more than anybody else.
Jacob.
His full lips were stretched across his face in a brilliant smile that lit up his face. He was glowing. I smiled back, but I could feel that it didn't reach my eyes in the same brightness that he expressed.
"Rachel!" he called, holding up his arm in a wave as he strolled over to were I was standing by my car. When he reached me he grabbed me around the waist and spun me around, hugging me close "I missed you so much." He mumbled against my neck.
"Missed you to," I replied as I ruffled his dark, cropped hair, "where's dad?"
Jacob laughed and rolled his eyes. "His out shopping, you know for food."
"Food?" I scoffed, "who shops for food?"
"Shut up," he smiled, "you know what I mean."
I craned my neck up to look at his expression, and that's when I realized how big he'd gotten.
"Jeez, Jake how tall are you?" I asked, realizing that he was about a foot taller than me. "And look at those muscles! Have you been working out?" I asked, reaching over and squeezing his bicep.
"Something like that." I heard him mutter, so low that I couldn't be sure enough that that's what he had said. His eyes had taken a distracted haze as he started intently into the thick forests edge. Just then a howl shattered the silence of there little house.
I shivered as I also scanned the forests "Jake?"
He looked back down at me, frowning slightly. "How bout you go inside and get comfortable while I go check something out?" he looked back at the forest seeming uneasy, "I'll be back in a minute."
"Okay but Jake—"
"Tonight Rach," he looked pained, "we'll talk tonight."
"fine." I sighed; he smiled at me then bounded off into the forest, disappearing into the thick shrub.
After Jacob left I managed to haul my bags from my boot to my room, which was—sadly—upstairs successfully not breaking a bone. Yet anyway. By the time dad came back I had already unpacked and had dinner cooking. Spaghetti. I remembered from my childhood that it was dad's favorite. He had hugged me tight, yet awkward since he was still in his wheelchair, and had thanked me for cooking him and Jake dinner. But I didn't mind. It kept my mind busy from unwanted thoughts and memories.
"So how was college?" he asked as I joined him on the couch, while the spaghetti was boiling. He looked over at me with a slightly pained face but he covered it well.
"Great."
He looked at me expectantly, obviously waiting for more.
I sighed, "I learnt a lot, the teachers were great" lie "the campus was beautiful" half lie "and every one was lovely" biggest lie yet.
He smiled, pleased "that sounds great Rach. I'm happy for you." I smiled tightly back. "Your mum would be proud of you honey, I know I am."
I stiffened. Not happy of the direction this conversation was taking.
"I'm going to go…..check on dinner." I mumbled as I quickly scurried off into the kitchen. I heard him sigh as he turned on the TV.
While I was serving dinner later on, I heard the front door open and Jake walked in. looking exhausted.
"Jake?" I asked, he looked over at me his eyes glazed over. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, look can you out mine in the fridge or something?" he mumbled, scratching him neck.
"Um…sure"
"Thanks" he came over and kissed my cheek, "I'm gonna go get some shut eye."
"ok." He smiled before heading up the stairs, when I heard his door close softly I picked up mine and dads plates and walked back into the lounge room and handed his to him.
"Thanks honey." He smiled up at me warmly, patting my hand.
I still didn't know if I was regretting coming home. But so far it hasn't been so bad.
I woke up the next morning, rain pounding against the window; which didn't surprise me really. Of course it would be raining. I surveyed the room and sighed, it was still the same except for the bed and the new closet. But the walls were still a light shade of pink that Rebecca and I had picked when we were younger. I missed Rebecca but I knew she was happy in Hawaii with her hunky surfer boyfriend. When I finally got out of bed and dressed into simple jeans and a plain navy blue t-shirt I heard dad already up, his wheelchair squeaking loudly from down stairs.
"Morning dad." I said, kissing his forehead. He smiled up at me as I pulled my hair into a messy bun.
"I made breakfast." He pointed to the kitchen were a plate of golden pancakes sat on the bench with a jug of orange juice placed beside it.
I smiled, "where's Jake?" I asked "normally he would have beaten me to the food."
He looked away "he's out with some friends." There was a stubborn edge in his voice. One I didn't like, but I decided to let it go. After breakfast I watched TV with him for a little bit before getting bored and saying I was going to go for a walk. It had stopped raining and I could see little beams of light slowly poking there way through the dense fog that hung over La Push like a rubber glove.
"Don't go to far okay?" I heard my dad yell from the living room as I opened the door, pulling on my coat.
"Kay." I called back, softly shutting the door behind me.
After a while of walking through the to-green forests I finally came to an opening in the trees. My excitement grew when I saw waves crashing against an invisible shore line. La Push's First Beach. I loved this place when I was younger; I came here all the time with my mum. I froze, the lump crawling its way up my throat again. All these memories suddenly crushing my chest, my breathe was coming out in short gasps. Before I was bombarded by more unwanted memories I quickly turned on my heel, only to be stopped by someone calling out my name.
"Rachel? Rachel Black?"
I turned on my heel to find a group of boys looking back at me, smiling brightly. It took me only a minute to realize who they were; I felt my own smile stretch across my face.
"Oh my god!" I laughed as I started to walk over to them, "Quill? Embry? I can't believe it!"
"Rach, looking good." Laughed Embry as he picked me up and crushed me against his chest.
"Cant. Breathe." I gasped. Embry laughed and gently put me back on my feet, I was on the ground for a minute before I was pulled into another bone crushing hug. This time from Quill. When he finally let me go I realized that two more guys had joined us. Oddly enough they all looked the same. Russet skin, dark—almost black—hair cropped short and they all had the same large build.
"I haven't seen you guys in years," I smiled "you're so tall now."
Embry smiled and patted my head, "and you're still as short as ever."
"Hey!" I whacked him across his arm, ignoring the sudden throb of pain. "5' 6 is not short."
"It is to us." Smirked one of the guys that had just joined us.
"We can't all be freakishly tall you know." I smiled at him.
"Freakishly tall is in. it's sexy." Laughed Embry. I rolled my eyes at him.
"Oh, Rachel, this is Jared," Quill gestured to the guy who had talked before. I smiled at him. "And this is Paul," I looked up and met the eyes of the man to the left of Embry, and suddenly the whole world seemed to freeze. I was lost in the depths of his dark eyes, his eyebrows slanting downwards, creasing his brow as he studied me intently. His dark hair was cropped short like the others, but to me his was sexier, more hansom with its little flick at the front. His teeth were pearl white as he smiled down at me; his face was glowing with affection.
"Holy shit." I heard Embry mutter beside me, breaking me out of my haze. I broke away from Paul's gaze and looked around at the others, who were all looking at Paul with shocked mixed with slightly pissed expressions.
"Uh….Rachel, we have to go," Quill said quickly, grabbing Paul—who was still staring at me— by the bicep and tugging him away from were I was rooted to the spot staring after them as they hurried off down the beach, towards the forest.
Only four words ran through my mind at that moment.
What the fucking hell?
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