I Want to Believe in Us
Hey guys! I'm super happy with the reviews in all my stories, that's why I keep writing, I hope you enjoy this new one, is set before IWTB and straight til Season 11, I like to imagine the MSR dynamic being together, more realistic this time, hope you enjoy it, please leave me your comments! I'm also on Instagram and Tumblr as sculdership xoxo
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Chapter 1: Hoping for a new start
Indianapolis
7:14 am
Scully wakes up and Mulder is not at her side, but his essence is still in the pillow next to her, they have been running away for too long, when she finally feels that she is getting used to a place they should leave, Skinner has been their guardian angel, but she is already tired, just like Mulder, many of their arguments have been because he pretends that she must leave him and let him run alone, she knows that he is only trying to protect her, but she doesn't plan to leave him, not after so many years following him with closed eyes, believing in his truth, she won't do it even if he forces her.
The door of the small apartment opens and she wields her gun holding it from the night table, she can hear footsteps approaching the room and she points towards the door with the gun falling on her knees on the bed.
Mulder raises his hands seeing her point the gun to his head 'Hold your horses Scully' she scares lowering her weapon quickly to avoid pointing him 'Jesus Mulder!' she sighs in relief and he runs to the bed to hug her 'I'm sorry beautiful, please forgive me' he hugs her tighter trying to feel himself save in her arms
She tries to make him feel a little less guilty 'It's ok, just remember announce yourself, otherwise I will have a heart attack soon' she says putting her hands on his chest trying to get calm.
He looks into her eyes and pulls her towards him kissing her hard, she puts her hands over his neck and corresponds to his kiss rubbing her tongue with his lower lip and sucking hard. When they broke the kiss they look at each other and smile 'Where have you been Mulder?'
He kiss her neck and then looks at her again 'I went for our breakfast and I took the opportunity to talk with Skinner' She looks at him with interest, the fact that he was calling Skinner means there's news for them 'And what did he say?' she asks expectant.
He looks away from her trying not to worry her 'We must leave tomorrow, but we will be on our own' she pulls back a little and raises her voice with fear 'What?'
He sighs understanding her reaction but then he looks at her again and a smile begins to grow on his lips 'We're free Scully, well you at least, but I can follow you and stay with you going unnoticed'
She frowns trying to understand what he is telling her, but fails to understand, she pulls away from his embrace and sits cross legged on the bed as she looks at him 'I'm not following you Mulder'.
He remains standing looking at her, he knows this will not be easy for her, but he is ready for give this step and must find a way to convince her, but with her things are always slow
'Scully! You can go back to work, you've been deleted from the system, you're free' She looks at him with dismay, that means she can have a life again, not be away from her family, but 'Me? But what about you?' she says with concerned eyes
And there's the million dollar question, the one he knew she would do, although he really hoped she had not done it, he should look very confident now and convince her that everything will be fine, he approaches her and puts his hand on her cheek trying to improve the situation 'I will be with you, we must find a house'.
She doesn't seem convinced and pulls his hand away from her a little upset, moving more towards the center of the bed, she wants to feel happy but can't be, although she knows that things will never be normal between them, she dreams that someday they can achieve it 'Hold on Mulder, what will happen to you? You can not keep fleeing forever, you can not stay away socially forever, That's not a life, I don't understand' He sighs and sits on the edge of the bed watching her.
'I know you do not want me to be apart from you, this is the most I can do now, they will continue to persecute me who knows for how much longer and there is nothing that Skinner can do about it'
She looks at him sadly and approaches him on her knees to hug him from behind leaning her chest on his back and crossing her arms over his chest 'I'm sorry Mulder'
He sighs and kisses her hands with tenderness 'Hey! I'm grateful to have you with me, otherwise I'd be crazy'. She kisses his hair and then his neck, he closes his eyes feeling her lips on his skin, they remain silent for a while until she speaks again 'We must find a way to get you out of the system, it's an injustice Mulder' he smiles sadly, she is right but what's new about that, justice isn't something they know, not after all the past events on their lives, all they have lost, he kisses her hands again opening his eyes 'We already know a lot about Injustice Scully, I think it's not worth talking about it now'
She sighs understanding his words, she knows what he's thinking and now she feels guilty by making him feel sad 'You're right, I'm sorry' she says kissing the back of his neck and then leaning forward to kiss his cheek, then draws him to the bed and lies down with him laying her head on his chest.
She tries to light up the situation by changing the subject a bit and looking up at his face 'So, where will we go now?' he looks down and smiles a little, she feels her heart skip with joy as she watches his eyes shine as he thinks about the future
'What do you want? This will be our house, not just a place for a couple of months, this place has to be all you ever dreamt about Scully' he says caressing her cheek with the back of his hand
She looks down shyly and blushes a little seeing how important it is for him to make her happy 'Well, we should look for a rural place, away from the city, so you can go unnoticed and nobody will ask questions'
He hugs her pulling her closer to him putting his hand on her waist and kissing her forehead 'Well, I'm sure we'll find a cozy place, that you can decorate and where I can continue to write my conspiracy theories'
She laughs and then she raises her head to look at him, he kisses her on the forehead again and then closes his eyes, she looks at him with concern, she knows he needs to be in motion, he needs to investigate, he needs to do things otherwise he will go crazy; and this is not a good idea, the fact that she can start a normal life makes her happy, but she can't stop worrying about him, being at his side gives her happiness but he is sacrificing his life for her by staying hidden in a house.
She looks into his eyes and whispers 'Mulder, are you sure about this?' He opens his eyes and looks at her 'about what Scully?' She makes small strokes with her finger on his chest trying not to look nervous although he knows she is more nervous than ever
'I know you Mulder, I know this situation is complicated, and I'm afraid that you will come to hate being locked up in a house all day while I go back to work, and eventually hate me for that.
He looks at her with a smile of understanding and with eyes full of tenderness, taking her hand between his and bringing it to his lips to kiss it 'I'll have you with me Scully that's all that matters to me, and don't ever say I will hate you, because I can't even think about it, ok?' she nods a little blushed and turns to lean on one of her elbows putting her other hand on his chest and bending to kiss him 'Thank you Mulder'
He smiles and puts a strand of hair behind her ear 'Thank you Scully, for staying with me, follow me and believe in me' She releases her support and leans on his chest again, feeling his heartbeat next to hers. He caresses her hair and kisses her forehead feeling her sigh with pain 'Alright, let's eat breakfast before it gets colder, ok?' she looks up and kiss him again. 'Ok' she says smiling to him and moving away from him slowly to sit on the bed, he also sits down and gets out of bed bringing the bag he left on the night table and putting it on the bed, she laughs softly and takes the breakfast from the bag to share it with Mulder.