Disclaimer: *sighs* Look, if I owned DGM, it would have more yaoi and my friend would have stolen it a long time ago.
A/N: Finally, after a long hiatus, I have returned. I was challenged to write this by a good friend, Elementalist (check out her fic "The Black Joker" because it's awesome!). Also, yes, it does contain spoilers so consider yourselves warned. Please review (no flames please!).
I remember the day I first met him. It was October tenth, right after my encounter with the Noah, Road Kamelot. The first thing I saw—aside from Komui standing over me—was Lavi, standing in the doorway smiling as he introduced himself. That smile, it made my heart flutter—it made me happy. I think this was the first time I realized how I felt about him.
Later, while outside playing in the snow, we talked…he called me "bean sprout". Stupid Kanda, saying that around him…but, somehow, it didn't sound like that much of an insult when Lavi said it. Walking around without the use of my akuma-sensing eye, an akuma snuck up on me…how could I have been so careless?
He saved me.
After that, killing the akuma became a bit of a competition for us. I killed thirty or so; he killed thirty-seven. Even though it wasn't meant to be, it was kind of fun. Returning to the hospital via giant hammer, on the other hand, was not fun…especially not crashing or landing on Bookman. Giant hammer is definitely not one of my favorite ways to travel, but at least I was with Lavi.
When Tyki almost killed me, the only thing I could think of was never seeing Lavi's face again. He is the reason why I didn't die, though everyone tells me that it has to do with my Innocence protecting me; I know that I lived because I couldn't bear the idea of never seeing him again.
Seeing him again in Edo…I don't remember ever feeling happier. Knowing that he was alive and being reunited…who could ask for more than to see the one you love alive and well?
On the Ark, fighting against him to save him…I hated every second of it. Knowing that the one I love isn't even himself anymore and that I have to fight him in order to save him…
Thankfully, after fighting him for a little while, my Lavi—the real Lavi and not his past persona—regained control and stabbed Road, destroying the dream world she had created and trapped him in. Master Cross showed up and helped us defeat Tyki, which was good because Tyki was too powerful for us; he then sent me and Timcampy to a room containing a piano with orders to stop the downloading of the Ark. With Timcampy projecting music, I played the piano, restoring the Ark and reviving my fallen friends.
Being reunited with my friends and escaping the Ark, alive and with Lavi, it wouldn't be possible for a better day, even if Master was there.
Returning home to the Black Order, Master told me why it was I could operate the Ark. The memories of the fourteenth Noah—the one who betrayed the Noah and was killed by the Earl—are inside me and will eat away at me until I kill the one I love and become the fourteenth.
My mind instantly went to Lavi. If that was true—and chances are it was because Master had no reason to lie to me about something like that—then Lavi's life would be in danger any time we're together. How could I be near him, knowing that eventually I would kill him? When the day came, how would I be able to live with myself, knowing that I killed the one I loved?
Later that night, I sat in my room on the floor by my bed, remembering when I first met Lavi and everything thing we've been through since. If I stayed with him, I'd kill him; if I didn't stay with him…I'd die without him.
Am I really so selfish that I would stay with him, even if it meant that he'd die? Would I stay with him for no other reason than because I couldn't imagine life without him even though that's what would eventually happen if we're together?
"What's on your mind, Allen?" I turned and looked at Lavi, leaning in the doorway—much the way he did when we first met. "Still thinking 'bout what Cross said?"
I didn't answer; he walked over and sat beside me. We sat together in silence for awhile before I said, "Lavi, I don't know what to do."
"Then we stay together."
"But you heard him! He said that I would kill—" His lips collided with mine, cutting off my sentence. My eyes widened, shocked at the suddenness of the kiss. After the kiss, he allowed me to lean against him. Finally, after I found my voice, I asked,
"So we stay together?"
"Until the end."