When the darkness calls me,...
My secret sadness I hide inside...
whispers dark thoughts and pain-filled words...
The seduction of bitter wallowing calls...
It reaches out and embraces me...
It feels like I'm dying inside...
No one seems to notice...
My mask of normality never slips...
No one ever sees the real me...
No one tries to peer into my soul...
Not worth their time...
The hunger to be needed, wanted...
burns…it scars my soul...
Not loved...
Not needed....
Why do I stay?...
Why do I fight another day?..
Everyday is exactly the same...
I feel myself slipping away...
Only the shell remains...
Hollow inside...
All that was me ebbed away...
as my pain swallowed me whole...
and I find I can't even cry any more...
For when the darkness calls me...
I'm already gone inside...