I'm doing an excercise. I put on a song on my ipod, listen to it and write what comes to me. This one was to "It Ends Tonight" by All American Rejects.

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight, it ends tonight

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight, it ends tonight

[It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects]

I am done. She keeps breaking my heart and I know I can't keep fighting. There is no point. She chose him and he doesn't want me to see her. I guess I can't convince her. I've tried to explain myself to her countless times but she won't accept what I know she feels.

I want her so bad. Hell, I need her. I hate myself for punishing myself like this. I wish I didn't need her.

"Jake. We need to talk."

I was so engrossed in what I was thinking I didn't hear her approach me. I thought I was alone on the beach.

"Don't Bella."

"Please, you are my best friend," she whispered as she started crying.

"It hurts too damn much," I barely got out.

"Please…I never wanted to hurt you."

"It's so hard to be mad at you," I told her.

"Jake, I do love you…"

"But you love him more. I know."

Why was she so hell-bent on hurting me?

"I can't help the way I feel, Jake," she said as she sat down next to me.

"I know."

And the crazy thing was I did know. I can't help the way I feel about her. So, in a way, I understood. But just because I understood doesn't mean it was any easier to me.

"I told him yes," she said quietly after a few minutes of silence.

"You're getting married. That's fucking awesome," I told her, bitterness coating my words.

"Jake…I want you to come. Be my beset man…you know?"

"Why would you seriously ask me to do that?" I yelled, getting angrier and angrier.

"You once told me that you would always be on my side. Well, I need you for this Jake."

I got up immediately. I was beyond pissed.

"I'm sorry…but it's time I am on my own side. I can't do this anymore."

"This is killing me just as much as it's killing you," she had the audacity to say as she got up to stand behind me.

"No it's not! Now I have fucking heard it all! God, Bella, you are going to be my enemy soon. Do you really think I can go to your mock funeral with you Dad? Pretending to mourn you when I want to kill you? Do you think I will be alright when your natural lavender and other indescribable smell that make you Bella is gone and replaced with the stench of the walking dead? Do you really think I will survive when your heart stops beating? I can't be here for that!"

She was openly crying after my mini tirade. I felt bad but for once I wanted her to feel something over me. I wanted her to know that I wasn't always going to be there.

And yes, I felt bad, but I was sick with grief over losing her to the bloodsucker. Especially after everything he had done. He had completely broken her. She was a zombie. I put her back together. I took the time and I fell in love with her. Charlie said she was back to herself almost. He also said he liked how she was when she was with me. That she didn't act like her true self when she was with the leech. Except he didn't exactly use the world leech.

"Don't leave me."

That killed me. I once promised her that I would never leave her. But, she had who she really wanted and he was marrying her.

"Damnit Bells! This has to end!"

"You called me Bells," she said as she stopped crying.

I cringed at that. I was trying so hard not to call her by that nickname.

"The whole time you've said Bella but that was Bells," and she wrapped her arms around me from behind.

I relaxed into her embrace. I can't do this. I have to be strong but she's the girl I'm completely in love with.

"See Jake. It's us. You don't have to leave me," she said into my back.

"Bella…after the wedding you will be leaving me…"

"I…I…wish I didn't have to…"

I groaned because she really had a way of getting to me.

"You want to be with him…I guess that's just the way it has to be…"

"I had to get Rosalie to bring me here," she said out of no where.

"Who?"

"The blond…"

"Why?"

"Edward killed my truck. Rosalie dropped me off at the treaty line and Seth picked me up."

"Why did you go through all the trouble…? And why did your bloodsucking-"

"I had to see you! Can't you see Jake…I need you in my life."

"See, that's the thing…you said 'life' and that means being alive…soon you won't be…"

"I wish there was no such thing as vampires and werewolves and we were all human…"

"I would still be in love with you and he would still be…it wouldn't change much, Bella."

"No, Jake…he would've already died. It would be just you and me."

I knew she was right and the alternative life she was describing sounded so good it nearly broke my heart all over again.

"Don't. Do you know how much that kills me?"

"And it kills me every minute you hate me. Every minute Edward tells me you are not safe and I am not allowed to see you."

I rolled my eyes when she said 'not allowed.' What kind of boyfriend forbids his girlfriend from seeing who she wants?

"Do you hear yourself? Not allowed? That's insane!"

"I know."

"So, why do you put up with it?"

"They do so much for me…I don't want to be a burden or make them leave me again."

"Ridiculous Bella…"

"But…I went against him today."

"Why did…the blond one help?"

"She wants me to stay human."

I finally turned towards her and she dropped her arms from me. I immediately missed her.

"We all do, Bells. The pack loves you like a little sister. Charlie is going to be devastated. So will Renee. What about Angela? And I would…I will…God."

"I know. It's what I have to deal with every day. It hurts so much."

"Then don't do it. Stay with me. Stay human."

"I'm sorry, Jake. I'm marrying Edward."

I backed away and phased. I ran and I didn't look back.

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