Aliquam nunc arcus et ultimo, ut omnia alia se.
Undecim hora est iam, adeo insigne est quod Duodecim.
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Vestis homo...bonum nocte.
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There's an old saying that is often spoken of some people.
"The good die young."
Can that be said of me?
I've saved people, yes. I've saved many, many lives; all of them a small victory in spite of a much, much larger defeat.
And yet...
There is so much I have not done. So much, so, so much left for me to do. How can I leave now? How can abandon them all now? I've left them before. I'm leaving them again.
No.
I am not leaving them.
I will always be with them all; I will always be with you.
I've had many faces, many lives. But out of them all...for this one, I hope I can be forgiven.
Can I be forgiven?
I hope I can be.
I know I will be.
Forgiven.
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And now it's time for one last bow, like all your other selves.
Eleven's hour is over now, the clock is striking Twelve's.
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Raggedy Man...good night.
You know, last night was actually pretty rough on me.
I've been dealing with many things throughout the years, and through them all, Doctor Who has gotten me through all of it. The Eleventh Doctor has saved my life, literally. I have nothing but gratitude for this show, and for the actor who played the Doctor for so long. Matt Smith is a wonderful actor; and even though he is no longer on Doctor Who, to me, he will always be the Doctor. So, I thought that if I were to write a letter to him, because I've always wanted to but never knew how, until now, I'd write it here...
Dear Matt Smith,
I know you don't know me, and I know you probably never will. You probably see this kind of stuff all the time. But I just really want to let you know something, and whether you're reading this or not, I'm putting it out there anyways. I want to thank you. I've been in and out of depression for many years now...even before you started playing the Doctor. This show has always been special to me. But when you came in...it changed. It became almost magical to me. And I think that magic has saved my life on so many occasions. I think you have saved my life.
Every weekend I would sit down in front of the television and watch the newest episode, and that night I would go to my room and pretend I were the Doctor's companion, pretend I was there next to him- next to you. I know it sounds really silly...but you have saved my life. You are the Doctor who has saved me. And to me you always will be the Doctor, bow-tie or no bow-tie, fez or no fez. And I just want to thank you for everything. Thank you for being the Doctor, thank you for becoming my hero.