AN: After watching 100th ep I decided to write a one shot from Brennan and Booth's point of view…..here it is hope you enjoy.
Brennan-
I think I messed up tonight. I really hurt Booth when I didn't return his feelings. He took me by surprise and I wasn't ready. Now I'm afraid I may have ruined any chance we had. As much as I want to be able give my metaphorical heart to Booth, I can't. I'm not good enough for him. He deserves someone who isn't as emotionally distant as me. I will never be a gambler and he deserves a woman who can be.
Telling Sweets we weren't in love was a lie because we are in love. I just can't bring myself to admit that so much of my happiness depends on Booth's happiness and well being. If anything were to happen to him and we had been together I don't think I would be able to go on with my life.
Booth tried so hard to get me to understand. It broke my heart knowing I had let him down. That is exactly why he needed protecting from me. I've hurt him too much already and Booth doesn't deserve any more pain in his life.
At least we will continue to work together because even we aren't together I still need him around. When he mentioned moving on my heart broke even more. The thought of him being with someone else is a little unsettling. I want to be the one to love him years from now, but I don't know how.
I hope booth won't hate me for what I did.
Booth-
I think I should have listened to Gordon-Gordon when he told me to let Bones come to her own conclusion. The second I kissed her I knew she wasn't ready. I could tell that really did want to believe everything I was telling her. As I stood there watching tear fill her beautiful eyes I knew I had messed up. I had made her cry.
After what Sweets said I just couldn't wait any longer. I had to make the move. I don't want to spend to spend the rest of my life waiting for someone who will never be there. That's why I told her I had to move on. Although I don't think I will ever find anyone who can hold a candle to Bones, I have to try.
I know she didn't want to hurt me and she regretted what she did but I am a little disappointed. She doesn't think she can change, but she has changed so much In the 6 years I have known her. I just hope one day she will realize that she has changed and that she doesn't need to protect me from herself.
I loved her when I first met her, I love her now, and I have no doubt that I will love her in the future and that I have to settle for second best. I can still see her everyday and I can find someone who loves me and whom I love.
I hope Bones doesn't hate me for trying to move on.
Well I hope you liked it. I tried to keep it in character. Also I know I have kind of neglected my other story and I promise I will update as soon as I have some inspiration. Anyway please review