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Title: I Can't Go There

Genre: Tragedy/Angst

Rating: T

Pairing: Kate/Tony

Series: Country Songfic

Summary: Post Twilight. Established relationship. Tate. Tony has memories of his life with Kate. Based on Kenny Chesney's song I can't go there. Tony's POV

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I can't stop thinking of you. You are every where I go. You're at work, home, in the car. I can't get you out of my head. You show up when I close my eyes. You're at the diner where we went for coffee and pie. You won't leave. At times, I don't want you to. You're all I have left and you aren't even here.

I can't sleep at night. I lay on the couch, trying to watch TV. I can't even comprehend what is on the screen. I don't even go up to the bedroom anymore. There's no point.

I can't travel. I can't go to Frisco. You're in the cable car. You're on the bay. I can't go to any party. Any festivity at all. The weather and seasons get to me. The chapel we got married in is on my way home. I take a twenty minute detour to avoid it. I've taken down our wedding pictures. I can't look at them with out throwing up.

The only thing that keeps me moving is the thought that we'll be together again.

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I Can't Go There by Kenny Chesney

You know that restaurant on highway 1
With the key lime pie that song the sand and the sun
Where we ran in our bare feet
Built a castle on the beach
Just the wind, the rocks, the waves and you and me
I can't go there
Cuz that's just too much us
I can't go there
I still feel your touch
There's places in my heart and here that feel as empty
as our bed
So most nights I don't even walk upstairs
Cuz I can't go there

Remember San Francisco on that cable car
Our reflection in the window of that store
How we danced the night away
With the lights out on the bay
Then wound up in a blanket on the floor I can't go there
Cuz Frisco's too much us
I can't go there
I still feel your touch
Now there's places in my heart and here that
still feel as empty as our bed
So most nights I don't even walk upstairs
Cuz I can't go there

If it was only Florida or California
Maybe I could let myself move on
But its everywhere we've been
And everywhere I turn
I can't love again
Cuz I've learned

That I can't go there
Its somethin I can't do
I can't go there
I'll run into you
I can't go there When the sun shines, when it rains
Christmas parties, football games

I can't go there

Winter, summer, fall or spring
I see you in everything

I can't go there..
It's too much us
I can't go there