My name is Lyra. I was born to Han and Leia, however, I was not their first child. They had a son named Ben, my older brother.

He was sent off to Luke, our uncle on mother's side, the last Jedi. I was devastated when I found out he was leaving for awhile. He left at the age of twelve when I was four. He promised he would be back. However, not all promises are kept.

Father left only a year later with his giant hairball that he called his friend. That left only mother and me. It'd been two years without my brother who I loved so much when I decided to leave. I was only six when I made the decision.

I had only been gone a few months when the first accident happened. A man attempted to do something very nasty to me and I snapped. The fear, anger, and hatred towards him and his intentions awoke something inside of me. He was suddenly grabbing his neck, clawing for breathe that some unknown force took from him. I only realized that I had been the one controlling the force choking him after he lie dead on the ground in front of my feet. I decided then that no one would hurt or try to hurt me ever again without paying a price.

Around a month after that, a weird creature came to me and took me in. Her name was Maz. She took me to Takodana which is quite a beautiful place. A few days after we arrived on the planet, she saw me levitating a few of her items out of boredom. She taught me how to better control it. I never actually thanked her. So, I stayed there in her little castle like thing for almost two years. Then came the night when I heard a specific conversation.

To this day, I don't know who she was speaking to, but they were discussing me and my father, Han. She was speaking of how she was going to take me back to my parents soon. I didn't want to go back to them. Not after everything they did.

My father had abandoned mother and I after they sent Ben off. He was my best friend and they took him from me. It was mother's decision that sent him off and because he wasn't home, father left. They ruined our family.

So after hearing the conversation, I left again. I managed to 'charm' some guy into flying me to Jakku. It's what I call the little mind trick that makes people do what I ask of them when looking into their eyes.

On Jakku, all I really did was wander around because I didn't want to stay in one place the entire time. Whenever I needed something, I'd ask nicely first and if they didn't comply, I charmed them. Nobody ever questioned my being, and I quite enjoyed that. Jakku seemed the perfect place to disappear.

About a year after arriving, I was still wandering around the sweltering planet when the second accident happened. I was just passing through another village like all the others. Everything was as always, I restocked on supplies. It was when I was on the outskirts of the town when I passed an isolated hut.

A girl was sitting on the ground in front of it. When she saw me passing by, she got up and went into the hut. I simply continued on past the small home, but about a minute later, a man came up behind me.

Thinking back to the other man that tried kidnapping me for reasons, I used the force to choke him. After he was dead, my eyes widened and I felt the guilt over what I had just done.

When I looked up from him, I saw the girl. She was frozen in place with tears in her wide eyes. Then she ran back into the hut screaming. I too was then stuck in place. Do I apologise or do I just leave?

A few moments later the girl reappeared, though that time with a woman. When her eyes landed on the man, they widened in shock, but then she became angry. She ducked back inside their home and in seconds emerged with a blaster in her hands.

The girl was begging the woman not to harm me but she was too focused on me. I didn't have any time to move as she pulled the trigger releasing the blast. Out of instinct, I ducked, clamping my eyes shut and sticking my hands out as if it might stop it from coming towards me.

When I didn't hear anything pass me, I opened my eyes. They immediately widened in shock, for in front of me only about a foot away was the blast from the blaster, frozen in the air between the blaster and me.

The shock of what just happened quickly turned to anger. She tried to kill me. So I used the force to turn the blaster around so that if I released it, it would hit her. And that's exactly what I did.

That time, I didn't feel as much guilt as I probably should have. The woman crumpled to the ground beside the girl, and then I did feel guilt. I took away her family. Thinking that no one would believe her about the accident, I turned around in the direction I was originally heading and ran.

I ran for as long as my legs could take me, and thankfully that was another village. I managed to find a pilot and I didn't even ask before charming him into taking me to another planet. I wandered around there too for about three years before I asked the same pilot to take me back to Jakku.

So that's where I am now, on the unbelievably sandy and untouched, desert of a planet once again. I'm here for two reasons though. The first being that I don't want to be found and the second reason is that I want to apologise to that girl for killing her parents.