Epov
I put on a jacket and started towards the door. Alice stopped me. Where might you be going? Oh, please don't beat yourself up over it. I'd ask you to bring me but you won't be talking to Bella. I ignored her and continued out the door. I zipped up the jacket. I didn't need it but it would be suspicious not to wear a jacket at forty degrees out. I got in the Volvo and sped out of the drive way already going 90 miles per hour. My face was scrunched up in anger and frustration. I was having an argument with myself, again. It was getting common now a day.
I shouldn't be risking getting near Bella. I owed my family that at least. But I couldn't leave her. She was the most beautiful, strange, intelligent creature I'd ever met. She was also the one in the most danger. Within five minutes she was likely to crack her skull open falling. I winced at the image. That's why I was fallowing her. To protect her, a poor excuse.
I was going to the beach. Not First Beach of course, all I needed was to break the treaty and have this become oh so more dangerous. I parked at the opposite end of the parking lot from Bella. No need to make her think I was a stalker. Actually that was a pretty good description of what I was doing. Stalking her.
I saw her sitting on the rocks by the water. Tears freely ran down her face. She made no move to brush them away. I longed to do it for her. To ask her what was wrong, to comfort her. I resisted the impulse. One wrong move, one touch could end everything, and end her. I did walk closer though. To see her better. Maybe to understand why she was crying.
I heard crunching of seashells und my feet as I walked. A small pink shell caught my eye. It reminded me of her. Small, beautiful, unique. I went to pick it up, to give it to her. It shattered at a slight touch of my hand. It reminded me so much more of her now. I could so easily break her, like I had broken it. I turned to watch her again. She was no longer crying, but walking closer to the water.
The waves crashed over her feet dampening her jeans. She didn't appear bothered by the water. She turned and when she saw me she looked shocked. Then she looked embarrassed, a pool of blood under her soft translucent skin. It made my mouth water just looking at it. But I pushed the monster deeper within. I walked down the beach, pretending for her sake that I had not seen her.
I smiled in spite of myself. Why would she look embarrassed that I saw her unless-? I put that thought out of my head. I knew it was impossible. Evan if it was true, I couldn't do that to her. She deserved so much better.