Title: "Eien no Sayonara"
Author: LegolasLover2003 aka Ashley
Category: Movie - "Moon Child"
Genre: Drama
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own any rights to "Moon Child". In fact, Gackt wrote it so I definitely don't own it. I just adore that movie... and Gackt. I am in no way affiliated with "Moon Child", Gackt, HYDE, or anything like that. I just have fun writing fanfiction, hehe.
NOTE: There is a HUGE Author's Note that will come at the end of the last chapter. This story has 5 parts. Currently, Parts I - III are finished, but will be updated in turn. Also, I tried my new way of translating things at the end of the sentence, but left the massive translation section at the end as well.
永遠のさよなら
Eien no Sayonara
A
Moon Child
Fanfiction
INTRO
I never wanted to lose you.
There was no one else to turn to.
You were always there for me.
Always by my side;
Through the days we slept
And the nights we played…
Now…
I am afraid to look…
For you are no longer there…
If only rain had fallen that morning,
Then you would still be here today...
With me…
PART I
Sho frowned, his fingers gingerly tracing the outline of the drapes. He knew even before Kei asked… just what the weather would bring.
But his friend asked all the same…
"Soto wa?" {[( How is it outside? )]}
Without hesitation, Sho carefully opened the blue curtains, looking out at the sunny clear morning beyond the window.
"Ii tenki dai yo…" {[( The weather is good. )]}
Sighing, Kei closed his eyes.
He turned his head away from Sho and the direction of the window. "Sou ka?" the vampire whispered before opening his eyes again. "Perfect for Yi-Che's big day." {[( Really? )]}
Closing his eyes once more, Kei stood and, hands in his black pant pockets, moved quickly across the apartment. Sho could only catch quick glimpses of the man, knowing how much the day had meant to the five friends.
Yi-Che had wanted Kei there above anyone else.
Moving around and behind Sho, Kei came to stand beside the bed. He was slouching slightly, his entire body giving off his bitter disappointment.
"Na, Kei?" Sho whispered, hands in his own leather pant pockets. The young man was leaning against a white support column of the apartment, though he was trying everything to keep Kei from seeing his face.
Kei glanced over his shoulder slightly, watching as Sho moved to sit down on a small table, his back to him. "Huh?"
For a long moment, Sho said nothing. He turned his blue gaze to the side, watching the vampire for a moment. For a long time, Sho watched his friend through the prison-like bars of hanging lamps. It was the only thing that separated the two men. That, and the column which Sho was using as a backrest for now. The young man sat down on the small table, bridging his hands in front of him and resting his elbows on his knees.
Carefully, he spoke; "You don't drink blood these days."
"It's none of your business." Kei responded, his body sideways to Sho's vision.
The vampire could feel it, his own weakness, his lethargy…
Blue eyes focus on the hands in front of him and Sho tried to find the strength to continue their suddenly tense conversation.
"But," the young man began again, gaze falling on Kei once again. "You're so weak."
Enraged, Kei turned around, glaring at his friend. "Should I drink yours?" he asked harshly.
The vampire plopped down onto the edge of the bed, frustration tinting every movement, every muscle twitch, every word he spoke. He removed his hands from his pockets, sighing as if in a tired haze. Looking up, eyes focusing on the light from the prison-like lamps in front of him, Kei ran his thumbnail over his bottom lip, as if trying desperately to stop the thirsting touch which those lips craved.
"I live by draining the lives of others." He whispered, his teeth softly grazing the thumbnail before his lips. "Do you know what that's like?"
Kei smirked slightly, sadly, as if sharing some private joke with himself. He arched an eyebrow, eyes still trained on the light from the lamps. "That's my entire life…"
The vampire's thumb had stopped moving, as he closed his eyes, seeming to revel in a moment of exquisite bliss.
But when those eyes opened once more, full of fury and rage at himself… "Sometimes I can't bear it." Kei replied darkly, biting down on his thumb as if to keep himself from seeking out some way to vent out his sudden rage.
From his table seat, Sho said nothing.
"So…" Kei continued, obviously still angry. "I go without." He smirked again, his right elbow bending, hand turning up to reveal his palm at face level. "Marude daieto…" Slowly, the fingers of Kei's right hand curl in toward his palm. He stares at them for a long moment, before sighing and dropping his arm. Closing his eyes, the vampire shrugs slightly and pulls both of his arms back just enough to take his weight and lean back on the bed. {[( Just like a diet… )]}
"Now…" he whispered, sadness creeping into his voice. "I'm having fun with you all…" Kei closed his eyes, seeing memories of smiling faces and laughing voices.
Anger took hold once more and he stood quickly, glaring at nothing, his body language the vent for his sudden rage.
"But it's not real." The vampire quickly said, pushing forward from the bed to grasp the lamp bars separating himself from his best friend.
He tilted his head forward, resting his seemingly feverish skin against the cool metal.
Still, Sho said nothing, his blue gaze fixed on the wall in front of him, hands in his lap.
Kei's body however, simply couldn't remain fixed.
It was as if he writhed in agony, standing there, almost all of his weight taken by his hands. "You're all growing up. I'll be left behind…" Kei sighed deeply, casting his gaze up to the lamp light above him. "Sho… one day… you'll die."
Blinking, Sho took in a quick breath. Tears were threatening to spill from his soft blue gaze.
"But I'll keep living." Kei continued on, oblivious to his friend's anguish. He shook the lamp bars angrily, glaring over at young man. "You think that's fun?!"
A single tear, unbidden, slipped from Sho's right eye. He couldn't hold it back anymore… the emotional strain had simply become too much.
Sighing, Kei released the bars. He looked down, taking a moment to collect himself before moving away from the lamps and around the stone column supporting his friend.
Head tilted to stare up at the ceiling, an ill-fated attempt at keeping his tears at bay, Sho cried. Tears rolled silently down his cheeks, down the very edge of his jaw before leaving tracks on his neck. Even when Kei is standing before him, Sho refused to look at the vampire.
It simply hurt too much.
Gently, Kei reached out his pale left hand, tracing the tear tracks on his friend's right cheek. "Naku youji da na, Sho…" he whispered. {[( Sho, you crybaby. )]}
Sho blinked a few times, trying to get control of the emotions raging through him. Seeing however, how futile the gesture was, Kei broke his gaze with the young man and simply put an arm around him. Accepting the invitation, Sho allowed his head to rest lightly against the vampire's lower chest as he tried desperately to stop crying. As the young man moved, so did Kei, the vampire entangling his fingers in the hair at the top of Sho's head. This however, only served to bring on another round of tears from the young man in his arms.
Softly, Kei whispered, his lips just barely grazing Sho's hair. "Just like when you were a kid." He tousled the hair in his grasp gently.
They remained like that for a few moments, Kei allowing Sho to gather his composure and Sho giving Kei time to collect his own thoughts. After a time, the vampire's right hand moved to rest on his friend's left shoulder, gently pushing him up and back until Sho leaned once more on the white column.
"Sa…" the vampire spoke, trying to get his friend's attention, his gaze on the young man. {[( So… )]}
Sho looked up, swallowing the tears that he had yet to cry… but he didn't make eye contact with Kei.
"Itte kure." Kei continued. "Minna ga shimpaisuru." {[( Go have a good time. )]} {[( They'll be worried. )]}
Taking a quick breath, Sho almost looked to the vampire before him. But he blinked instead and kept his gaze away.
"Ah…" {[( Sure… )]}
Sho moved to stand, truly wanting to get away from the conversation, from the conflicting emotions surrounding the two friends, and the sheer grief he felt in his heart. As he attempted to push past Kei however, the vampire reached out, taking hold of the young man's arm gently.
"Gomen." Kei whispered, his grey eyes searching for some sort of sign from the other man. {[( I'm Sorry. )]}
But Sho wouldn't look at him, couldn't look at him. If he did… well, the man feared he would start crying again.
"Sho?"
Angrily, Sho jerked his arm from Kei's grasp. "Wakatta yo!" He stated quickly before grabbing his long coat and heading for the door. {[( I know! )]}
Kei nearly collapsed against the white column, his grey eyes betraying the hurt he felt, and the guilt he bared for his harsh words earlier. He was about to turn away, to simply crawl into bed and try to forget everything.
But Sho's soft voice from the doorway made him pause. "If it rains… I'll keep an eye out for you."
After the click of the door being locked, after Sho had left the building entirely, only then did Kei move once more. The vampire stood near the window, out of the sun's direct light, and watched the soft white clouds overhead.
Standing there… Kei prayed it would rain…
Save your smile for me
Even though when you cry for me
Remember me and love me always
Love and smile for me
Hold onto all that we had
Remembering and loving again
つつく – Tsuzuku
TRANSLATIONS:
TITLE:
Eien no Sayonara = Eternal Farewell
INTRO:
N/A
PART I:
Sota wa = How is it outside?
Ii tenki dai yo = The weather is good.
Sou ka = Really?
Na = (Used to get Kei's attention)
Marude daieto = Just like a diet.
Naku youji da na, Sho = Sho, you crybaby.
Sa… = So…
Itte kure. = Go have a good time (how the DVD translated it)
Minna ga shimpaisuru. = They'll be worried.
Ah = Sure (basically agreeing with Kei)
Gomen = I'm Sorry
Wakatta yo = I know
END:
Tsuzuku = To be continued
TRANSLATION NOTES:
-Names are spelled like they are spelled on the English "Moon Child" DVD; Sho, Kei, Toshi, Yi-che, and Son. Forgive me if you're used to a different spelling.
-When Kei asks "Sota wa?", the DVD translates it as "How is it?". I translated it as "How is it outside?" because "Sota" means "Outside" and so Kei was asking about the weather without using the word "Tenki".
-When Kei says "Marude Daieto", the DVD translates it as "A Starvation Diet". I however, translated it as, "Just like a diet" because it sounded better.
CENTERED TEXT / LYRIC NOTES:
-The portion in the Introduction was written by me. Please, no stealing it!
-The lyrics used after Part I, are from the Gackt song, "12gatsu no Love Song". They are from the English version (not the Korean, Chinese, or Japanese version). Lyrics were typed up by me from listening to the song.
DvD SCENE VS FANFIC CONTENT NOTES:
-In Part I, after Sho says "Ah…" is where the DvD scene actually ended and I put in my own ending (or furthering) for the scene after that point.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
-I hope you enjoyed this first Part. Please read and review!