MY ANGEL WENT MISSING
CHAPTER 1-LAST SIGN
Oh. How I loved waking up in his cold arms. But this morning, they were not there. I looked around my room.
" Where is he? Why isn't he here?"
Thats when I saw the note. It was written in his elegant script.
Bella,
I have to leave. I cannot tell you why. Nor can my family.
They have as much knowledge of this as you do.
I am so sorry , my love. It kills me to leave you.
But you will find out, eventually. But, if I never see
you again, Just know that I love you.
Forever & Always , Edward
The same hole that ripped through me when he left me a year ago, trying to protect me,started to tear me apart.
I quickly wrote a note to Charlie.
Charlie, I have left early to go to Seattle , to buy some new clothes.
I know this is spur of the moment, but do not worry. I will be back by dark.
Bella
I did this because it was only 3:24 in the morning. I quietly snuck out of my window, just as he had
done so many nights.
"Stop it Bella. Don't think about it. About HIM."
I drove quickly to their house. To find it empty. Not of their possessions, just of them. Which,
they, well, he was actually the only thing that mattered when thinking about being whole or empty.
I started to come undone. Where did they go? He said that his family didn't know where he went,
so where are they? Maybe they're searching for him. Maybe they've left.
Of course! I only mattered when Edward was here. Now that he was gone, they probably moved
to another stare. Another town. But i thought they all saw me as family? Where is my
big brother Emmett? My sister Rose? My best friend Alice? My mom and dad, Esme and
Carlisle? My friend and brother Jasper?
I couldn't take this. Not again-not all alone.
I slowly sunk to the floor. I screamed. I cried. Then, I became numb. Not the numb I felt the first time
he left me. This numb didn;t relieve the pain. It only stranggled and agonized it.
Then, finally , after what seemed years, I felt the darkness coming. I welcomed it.
It wouldn't take away the pain, but it made it more manageable.
"What are we going to do?" I reconized this voice as Alice's. Wait? I thought they left?
"I honostly don't know, Alice." said Carlisle, who sounded very worried, not like his
usual, calm self.
I tried to say something, and failed, the darkness not letting go of me yet.
But, apparentally, they heard me, because then, Esme said,
"Bella, honey, can you hear me?"
I slowly sat up. I blinked a few times and Carlisle asked me.
"Bella, are you alright? When we found you , you were screaming and shaking. You were
barely breathing. I had to sedate you."
I thought about what he said, trying to remember them finding me. Then , slowly, I
remembered the concerned voices, the shaking, the needle, the pain slowly going
away. Oh. How I hated for them to see me like that.
"Bella?"
"Oh sorry, Carlisle, I was just trying to remember what happened. I'm sorry
that you all had to see me like that."
I looked around the room and saw everyone, except him, staring at me with concern.
I put my head in my hands and started to hyperventilate.
"Bella, Bella! I need you to calm down - Jasper, will you please try to help her?"
I suddenly felt a wave of relief and calmness take over me.
After I finally calmed myself enough to speak, I asked Carlisle, "Wh-Where di h-he go?"
He sighed and said, " We don't know. We only know that he left, because when we found
you, you were screaming "He's gone. He's gone!" And then, Alice saw the note
he left you lying on the floor. That;s all we know. We were actually hoping you
knew more. You see, we were all on a hunting trip, when Alice had a vision of you
here. You know-screaming. I'm sorry we have no information for you."
He gave me an apologetic smile. They all did.
All I could mutter was "oh."
Then, I went completely silent. I wasn't hyperventilating, I wasn't crying, I wasn't
even numb. I just. Was......This probably scared them the most.
I heard them all saying things like, "Bella?" , "Bella , are you ok?" , "Bella, can you
hear me?"
But, I just couldn't unfreeze myself. I just sat, staring into space.
Thinking, "he's gone he's gone he's gone he's gone"
I heard Carlisle say, "Lets give her some space. But I want someone in here with
her at ALL times, untill she comes out of this, this . shock.
Alice was the one who stayed.
After a while, time didn't matter to me anymore, I looked up at Alice.
She was staring into space. She was having a vision!!!
"Alice!!" I practically screamed, "Are you having a vision? What do you see?"
She looked up at me and stuttered, trying to find words.
"Uh. I . uh. saw nothing. It wasn't a vision. "
"Alice, I know that look, and I know you just had a vision. Why won't you tell me
what you saw? Aliccceee! please. tell . me . what. you . saw.
" I . You. You don't want. No, you don't need to know.
"Alice! Tell me what you saw!!!"
"No, Bella. I won't tell you. "
I sat there for a minute. Then quickly, as quickly as a clumsy human could,
got up and told Alice, "I will be back in one sec."
I went to Emmett's bathroom. I couldn't handle going to his.
I swiftly picked up the razor, and put it to my wrist.