She's Out of My Life
Zane's POV:
She's Out Of My Life
And I Don't Know Whether To Laugh Or Cry
I Don't Know Whether To Live Or Die
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life
She's out of my life. By my own fault. I will never forgive myself for letting Sophie kiss me. I was so naive to think Rikki wouldn't find out. I should've guessed she'd be there to support Will. I should've known that even though she left after his record he would've seen Sophie kiss me and would've told Rikki. It's too late now, though. She left. Rikki's gone and it's all because of me. And what's worse I can't stop my feelings for her. I can't order my heard not to beat for her. That smile she gave me when I asked if she was joking about asking anyone else except me gives me hope that eventually we might get back together. Dumb, I know, but still the truth.
It's Out Of My Hands
To Think For Two Years She Was Here
And I Took Her For Granted I Was So Cavalier
Now The Way That It Stands
She's Out Of My Hands
I fell for her ever since the first time I saw her, but I never properly expressed my love her. I've been going out two years with the most amazing girl a guy could ask for. And I blew it away just like that. I behaved like a jerk and now she's gone. But I'm not the only one who changed. She changed too. And I'm not sure if I like it...
So I've Learned That Love's Not Possession
And I've Learned That Love Won't Wait
Now I've Learned That Love Needs Expression
But I Learned Too Late...
Love is not a possession and one of my biggest mistakes was not realizing it. Maybe I should've said or done something to let her know how much I love her. Maybe she waited so much for a sign from me that she got tired and left. And now it's too late to get her back. It's too late for anything.
She's Out Of My Life
Damned Indecision And Cursed Pride
Kept My Love For Her Locked Deep Inside
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life
My pride was one of the things she hated in me. I was considering myself to be a big deal and she couldn't stand it. In the very beginning when we started dating I held back my pride. But too soon I felt tired of doing it and I let it swallow me again. I kept my love for her deep in my heart and not showing how much I loved her and not caring just pushed her away further. Until she just walked away. Now she's out of my life and I feel like I've been stabbed numerous times right in the heart. But I know the pain will go away. Maybe not now, or tomorrow, or the next week, but one day it won't hurt anymore and she'll be just an angelic vision from my past, just a beautiful memory. And then I'll be free.
Free to live and laugh and love again.
Because there're no happy endings, but there is always tomorrow.
Always.