A/N: Wow. I can't believe how many people asked for a sequel! I feel so loved... ::sniff:: Anyway, this is the sequel to my story "The Heart of An Emperor". You can probably read this without reading that first, but it's much better if you do. Sephiroth no Miko, this is for you! Thanks for bugging me to write this! As always, it's a Ken x Yolei. Though it doesn't seem like that at first...
Disclaimer: I own only the fic. Not Digimon. (Darn it!)
Shape of my Heart Part One: Pain
"So if these two angles are congruent, then the sides are congruent, and we can substitute line segment AB for DE..."
Yolei's eyes half-closed as her geometry teacher droned on and on. Normally she liked math class, but this was the third time that the teacher had explained the same problem, and she was so bored she couldn't think straight. Not that I could think straight anyway...
The thoughts arose unbidden to her mind again. She tried to squelch them, but it was as useless as the countless other times she had tried to do the same thing. Of three days ago in the Digital World. Last Friday, when she ran back into the school to meet a certain person, when she had only left that certain person's dungeons a few short hours ago.
Ken Ichijouji.
Geometry completely left her mind as visions of the Digimon Emperor came in. You kissed him, her mind screamed at her. You kissed him, and then you came back and he kissed you. What is wrong with you?! That he had kissed her back...that was what amazed her the most. Even though she had wanted him to, so much, in the back of her mind - or the front, really- was the knowledge that she could never crack Ken's armor. I guess I was wrong on that one.
She couldn't recall the rest of the day very clearly. She and Ken had both seemed to be in a daze, completely disbelieving of what had just happened. They had somehow ended up at the edge of a lake, where they had sat together in silence - silence, because no words needed to be said. Or that was what it seemed like, anyway.
We should have talked
, she thought for the thousandth time. We should have talked and figured out what we were going to do about this. The others can't find out. They just can't! But no. She had only sat in Ken's arms for what seemed like hours, until she said she had to go because the others would start to get worried. Ken had only nodded. He had not said one word since they kissed.That kiss…
A shudder passed through her body. If nothing else, he is a wonderful kisser. She smiled dreamily as she fell into her own private dream world, where nothing existed but she and Ken. She couldn't wait until that afternoon, when she would finally get to see him again! It had been torture all weekend long, being unable to visit the Digital World or Ken at all. Her dreams were filled with nothing but him. A grin came to her face with the next thought. We'll have to make up for lost time.
"Miss Inoue?"
Yolei was startled out of her memories by her math teacher's voice. She gulped as her teacher glared at her. "The answer please, Miss Inoue?"
"Um…well…" Yolei stammered. The teacher tapped her foot impatiently. Just then the bell rang loudly. Yolei was outta there before her teacher could catch her. One thing I know. I love him; I'm positive of that now. And he loves me...I think. Or at least, he cares about me! Why else would he have kissed me?
She practically ran into the lunchroom and sat down at the usual table. Cody came and sat next to her a few minutes later.
"Hello, Yolei," he said.
She managed to dredge up a smile for her old friend. "Hi, Cody."
She didn't fool him, though. He frowned at her. "Yolei, what's –"
"Hi you guys!" yelled Kari. She and T.K., with Davis hanging off her arm, made their way towards them across the crowded lunchroom. Yolei was grateful for the interruption, but a little confused. Normally T.K., Kari, and Davis alternated between the soccer, basketball, and Digidestined tables. They weren't due to eat with Yolei and Cody until Wednesday.
"Hi –" she began, but was interrupted by Kari. "All right," she said. "Yolei, what's wrong?"
"What?" Yolei asked. She definitely hadn't expected that.
"You missed a problem in math today! You must be horribly sick!" exclaimed T.K.
"It's nothing, you guys," said Yolei, forcing a grin. "I guess I'm just tired."
Kari looked at her strangely. "You're never too tired for math."
Yolei was trying to come up with a retort when Davis spoke up. "Who cares if she missed one problem? Heck, if I missed just one problem I'd be jumping for joy! Like on that test last week!"
Yolei breathed a silent sigh of relief as the conversation turned to other topics. Kari was the only one who didn't seem convinced she was all right. But Kari was trying to fend off offers for dates from three different guys at the moment, and trying to stop Davis from killing them after they asked. She was too busy to focus on Yolei.
The rest of the day had never seemed longer. When school got out, Yolei practically flew to the computer room. She couldn't stand waiting for the others, so she entered the Digital world alone. I've got to see Ken. I've got to see him! The feeling wasn't only that they needed to talk things out. She missed Ken; had dreamed of his kiss all weekend. And now she was going to see him! Her heart lightened and she ran for the castle happier than she had been all day.
When she got there, she was surprised at its desolate appearance. It looked much grayer and forbidding than it had the Friday before. She hesitated, then walked to the huge iron door. She wondered for a brief second how Ken had managed to build it. Then she kicked herself mentally. Ken didn't need to build things, he had slaves! And he had probably just written a program for the castle anyway. She grinned at her love's inventiveness.
Yolei considered knocking, then decided against it. It will be more fun to surprise him, she thought. She opened the door and went in.
She had a moment's confusion as to which way to go. The castle was a lot bigger than she remembered! Finally she recalled the way to the observation tower, which was probably where he would be. If not, then she'd try his bedroom. I think I'd like it better if he was in his bedroom. She brushed that thought away hurriedly. For heaven's sake, she had only kissed the guy twice!
She had only walked maybe a quarter of the way towards the tower when she heard footsteps. Her face lit up when she saw Ken turn the corner. "Ken!" she called happily.
Ken stopped dead in his tracks. The strange emotions that had plagued him all weekend flooded through him once again, but with iron control he forced then back into submission. He knew his purpose. The part of him that was not Ken, that was the Emperor, assured him of that. He would break the child of Love.
Yolei was startled at the coldness in his gaze. Then he spoke. "What are you doing here?" She stared at him, dumbfounded. He spoke again, with increased anger. "How did you get past my guards? No one is allowed to come here but myself!"
She simply stared at him. "Ken, what's – " she began, hurt evident in her voice.
"Don't ever call me that!" he yelled. "I am the Digimon Emperor, ruler of this entire world! You will address me as such or not at all!"
"Ken, what's wrong?" Yolei asked. Pain and distress filled her eyes.
"I said, don't call me that!" he yelled. His whip snapped at her, seemingly out of nowhere. Tears stung her eyes as the end of it just barely clipped her arm.
"You were foolish to come here. What made you think you could waltz into my realm with no protection?" She gazed up at him through a veil of tears. An enlightened look came to his face. "Oh, yes, You were probably remembering last Friday, weren't you?" She waited breathlessly, her heart contracting in pain. No…this can't be happening…it can't…
The blow fell with cruel accuracy. "Stupid girl." An involuntary sound of distress escaped her lips. "Did you really believe I cared about you?" He laughed cruelly. "You did, didn't you? You're obviously even denser than I thought! Do I need to spell it out for you?" He spoke slowly, clearly, each word driving knives into Yolei's heart. "You…are …a…Digi…destined. I…am…your…enemy." He laughed again. "I just used the opportunity last week to my advantage." Those last words were what broke her. With a cry of pain she dropped to her knees, tears pouring down her cheeks.
He watched her impassively as she cried. "You disgust me. Get out of here now, and I will spare your miserable life." She stood up and ran for the door, half-blinded by her anguished sobbing.
Ken watched as she ran away from his fortress. A now-familiar ache tugged in his chest. It took but the work of a moment for the perfectly constructed psychic armor around his heart to bury the pain, deep in a place where it would never be seen again.
He closed the door, and walked calmly back to his tower.
Whew! How is it so far? Should I write the rest or no? Please review!