Dear Augustus,
I miss you so much. I know I tell you this all the time but it is hard living in a world without Augustus Waters. Isaac helps. We both are going through kind of the same thing. We both lost the love of our life. He always knows what to say when I talk about you. You don't have to worry though, my love, you can never be replaced.
My parents are worried about me. They say I have changed after you passed. I have to admit that they are right. Without you, I don't have a purpose. I don't have a reason to wake up and enjoy life. I just sit in bed all day reading An Imperial Affliction over and over until I fall asleep. I am trying though. I try every day to do something with my life because I know it's what you would want. It's just hard.
I find myself wondering what you would do if the situation was reversed. You were always so strong. Instead of moping around all day like I am, you would probably be doing something with your life. Maybe you would have finished writing the ending of AIA like you promised. I could never be as good a person as you were. I need you Augustus. You were my better half. Without you I am an empty shell.
I'm waiting for the day were I can join you. When I can finally leave the wreck I call my life behind and go to the other side. The only thing keeping me from suicide is the fact that you would probably be disgusted with me and also the fact that I'm dying anyway and it wouldn't do much good to shorten my life any more. On the days were I'm not completely depressed, I go to your house and read all of the Encouragements your parents have posted around the house. It helps. I used to think they were stupid. No offense. Now I have grown to love them.
Your parents still welcome me with open arms. I'm reminded so much of you when I see them that it keeps me from visiting too often. It surprises me how much they love me. Your parents are such great people. It only makes sense considering how amazing you were.
I bet you are living it up in heaven (if there is one). Angels are probably gushing over you. I can only hope you don't forget about me. My heart will always belong to you Gus, no matter what.
My dear Augustus, I love you so much; so very much. It pains me that I can't tell you this in person. Someday we will meet again, up in heaven. Until then my love.
Okay,
Hazel Grace