Its 4:31 a.m. but when brilliant ideas coming knocking you don't roll over and say I'll write it in the morning so here I am

DISCLAIMER I don't own Degrassi

CLARE'S POV

It was 3 am and KC still wasn't home what kind of fool does he take me for does he honestly think I believe he is still working.

I know he is will her he is most of the time I've never hated someone I don't even know

I hate myself more though because I know what's going on but like the good little house wife I am I turn the check. I felt a tear slide down my face.

We used to be so happy when did that change? When did I become no enough when did we loose our spark? I thought to myself I wiped away my tears I've cried myself to sleep too many times not tonight.

I heard KC trying to tip toe in he went straight for the shower like always he had to erase the evidence I rolled over so he would be facing my back. I heard the shower turn off.

"Do you know what time it is?" I asked as he slowly crawled into bed.

"I know sweetie I got into my work in the office and completely lost track of time, it won't happen again"

I could almost hear the grin on his face because he thinks he got away with it, and I won't tell them any different.

"oh ok" is the simple answer I give him which is good enough for him soon I hear his soft snores which infuriates me the most I've been around this block every time this happens he comes homes and sleeps, sleeps like a baby as if he didn't betray our love.

Beep, beep, beep

I hit the alarm and I feel stirring next to me KC rolls over wrapping his arms around me.

"I love this" he whispers into my neck.

"What is that?"

"Waking up with the love of my life I love you"

"I love you too" I say with true sincerity as much as I hate him for what he does I love him i love how he makes me feel the good times with KC are worth the bad.

"I'm going to start breakfast before the kids wake up"

"Alright"

I start to make pancakes bacon and eggs when I hear little voices

"Mommy I so hungry"

"I working on it baby cakes take a piece of bacon and sit at the table it's almost done"

"Mommy loves me more"

"No she loves me more"

"No she loves me most" KC says sneaking up behind me and stealing a piece of bacon.

"Mommy who do you love the mostest?" asked Cody

"Me uh duh" said his older sister Melissa.

"I love you all very much"

Beep. Beep KC's phone went off, he looked at it smirking and walking to the other room. He came back five minutes later.

"Sorry honey that was the office they need me to close a deal." He said not looking me in the eye

"On a Saturday?" I questioned

"Yeah I'm sorry but we need to close this as soon as possible"

"Well okay?" I said even though I knew he would go if I was okay with it or not at least this way I felt I had some sort of control.

KC ran out the door as fast as he could.

"Mommy why does daddy always have to work" Cody whined

"So we can afford to keep you" his eyes grew wide of fear

"Oh" he said in amazement I chuckled and went to tickle him.

It was a little after 9 and I'd just gotten the kids to sleep I went down stairs and cleaned what I always do I bite my tongue and I cook clean I was scrubbing the floor with bleach when I started to cry.

I sat there shaking because this isn't right! I'm not supposed to live like this! when did my own husband become unhappy when did it come to the point he needed another women that brang on more tears I wonder if she's pretty is she young.

I felt dirty weak like an idiot I'm not going to put up with this I can't be treated this way that's when I think of Cody and Melissa how could I take there dad how could I raise them on my own they need a father.

I came from a broken family I don't want that for them I need to be strong.

KC came in at that point his smile faded and he looked at me; crying on the floor.

"Clare wants wrong?" he bent down sitting next to me going to hug me but I stopped him.

"This is what's wrong with me!" I grabbed his collar which revealed lip stick on it.

"I know on cheating on me tell me what's she have that I don't? Why are you unhappy with me why am I not good enough?" I sobbed

"Clare I'm so sorry it will never happen again I've been a fool please forgive me and I will do what it takes to make you happy for the rest of our lives"

Well that's what I'd want to happen truth of the matter is KC wouldn't be home for hours and I would never have the courage to confront him on his cheating.

ELI'S POV

It has been hours since Julia went to see her mother who is really my 'best friend' Jake they don't know I know that they have been screwing each other for the last few months. When Julia started acting weird I followed her and saw them. My own 'best friend' thinks he can screw my wife.

HE WAS MY FUCKING BEST MAN! I'm not sure if I regret following her or not is it better to live happy and not know or live unhappy and know that is the question of the night.

I'm down stairs drinking my liquor like the other nights trying to get the images of my wife with another man out of my head.

And just like the other night as much as I drink I can't forget.

I hear soft snores coming from the bed room down stairs it my pride and joy the only thing that stops me from killing Julia and that little Rachel.

She's what gives me reason to wake up and is the reason I don't leave how could I raise a little girl alone I don't have the slightest clue. I can't even do her hair. I hear the door Julia tries to sneak up the stairs but sees me first.

"God Eli you gave me a heart attack"

"Jumpy tonight are we? How was your mother?"

"My mother?...oh uh she's good, I'm going to jump in the shower and go to bed you coming?"

"In a little while" she runs up stairs and I fight the urge to punch a wall.

Eli's pov was short I know but Clare's was really long so it balances out there will be more of each to come reviews are greatly appreciated please and thank you