Snowblindby Europanya
To hear the elder Shirefolk talk about the winters
they'd seen, one might expect to find a good deal of trouble on the icy
snow-swept roads of the Four Farthings and think it wisest to stay indoors and
not bother oneself about travelling near Year's End for fear of losing a toe.
But the folk who have lived over The Water and around The Hill some years know
the old-timers tell tall tales. Truthfully, a Shire winter is scarce more than
a lamb's wool coating of snow, falling in the weeks preceding Yule and courteously
departing on the first week of Afterlithe, no more than a puddled memory on the
pathways. That is, unless a white-haired hobbit rocking on his stoop is fixing
to talk about the winter of 1403.
That would be a winter most young
lads and lasses have caught wind of during a visit to their grandmum's. But for
once the yarn spun is fit to knit a scarf. For the 21st of Afteryule brought a
snowstorm unseen by the likes of any hobbit for over a hundred years when it
set to unload its burden over the span of the West Farthing hills, freezing The
Water solid around Hobbiton and cracking the mill wheel.
But to hear this story told proper,
one should take a closer look inside the grand old hole at the top of Bagshot
Row. Here you'll find Bag End; built by Bagginses, now overrun with Gardners
(various descendants of the prolific Samwise Gamgee). If they'd shuffle outside
a spell, one could walk the finely trimmed smials and listen to the wind as it
wraps over The Hill, and a tale of another sort might be heard if you have ears
and heart to listen.
For Frodo Baggins, the morning of the 21st promised little more than a
leisurely bath, a re-reading of some dense Second Age poetry (he'd a flair for that sort of thing), a perusal of his evaporated uncle's storage trunks
(more lacking in gold than parchment), a careful reorganisation (and
admiration) of the diverse wine cellars, and a pot of hot tea with several
sticky slices of Bell Gamgee's fruitcake. Or quite possibly the whole cake over
the course of the day spaced carefully, for the poor hobbit was a hopeless
wreck with pot and stove.
Regrettably, his cook was now
knee-deep in slush a half mile down the Bywater road helping the Cotton lads
mend a fallen sheep gate. The old gate had flown off in the winds the day
before, sending old Odo Proudfoot's lambs in a scatter. By now the sheep were
herded and the winds calmed, proving only a harbinger of the perfectly average
snow which had begun to fall outside Master Baggins' bedroom window upon his
waking quite late into the morning.
Frodo didn't think much of the
weather and paid it little mind as he sat soaking in his bath, poetry book in
one hand, the other occupying itself with alternating fingersfull of teacup or
jellied cherries and dates. (His late start necessitated combining several of
his daily plans into one sitting.) He still failed to pay Nature any mind even
when the clouds hovering over his grand hill were clumping and darkening. The
feather-snow was quickly accumulating into larger and more elaborate lacings of
ice crystals, until the fluff that fell from the sky could stuff a pillowcase
in two handfuls. In fact, Bag End's Master only bothered to look up from his
tangled tengwar when the light that normally carried from the large parlour
window dimmed in a sudden 'flump.' His window seemed to have disappeared.
Frodo licked the green and red
stickiness from his fingers and set his book aside with a troubled sigh. It
wasn't like his windows to spontaneously shut themselves against the outside.
He stepped out of his now less-than-tepid bath and donned a robe to inspect the
situation. A heavy layer of snow had fallen across the diamond panes of the
round window. He looked upon it with brows knit, wondering where that much snow
could have fallen from – surely not the turf roof – and made his way
back up the smial to his front door. Mindful that his robe was situated
appropriately, he pulled the knob. It gave way with force and to his shock an
avalanche of snow along with it, pouring onto his tile and threatening to bury
the entry hall's bench. He yelped as only a gentlehobbit of some thirty-four
years can with candour, and tried to shove the green door back in place. He
succeeded only in unsettling more snow which now tumbled partially into his
parlour as well. At the top of this white wall was a break and his eyes grew
rounder than they already were at the birdnests of snowclumps falling from the
busy sky.
"Sam!" he shouted, for
that was the name he was used to calling whenever something about the hole squeaked,
broke or smelled funny. Sam the gardener, cook, valet and loyal companion, was
not within earshot. He was mending a sheep gate, after all. The sweet tang of
fruitcake on Frodo's exacerbated tongue, a reminder of his hardship, was now
overrun by a cascading slide of everfalling snow through his half open door.
Snow. What did one do about snow?
Well, he supposed a shovel was in order, so he sloshed his way back to the
cellar, fumbling to light the lantern hanging just inside. Shovel. Where
does Sam keep such cumbersome things? Tip-toeing over last season's seed
pots and outdated crockery, Frodo found a standing thatch of long-handled tools
of sorts. A hoe was among them, but no shovel. If memory served, the garden
shed was a better residence for such outdoor contraptions. A hoe would have to
do.
Still in his robe, Frodo set about
whacking the drift into submission. He pushed it aside and pummeled it back far
enough to shove and kick (or apply a running jump and shove – though that
tended to smart) the stubborn door back into position. Locked and latched. Very
well, then. There was still the matter of a good foot of snow coating half
the front hall, but he couldn't think of a better place to put it unless he
tossed it up a chimney or down the privy, and that would prove difficult with a
hoe. So he surrounded the white stack with extra blankets and towels and lit a
fire in the nearby parlour, hoping for the best. Then he got dressed and saw to
boiling a second pot of tea.
It wasn't until some hours later in
the day that anything in particular bothered Frodo, save perhaps the gradual
fading of all his south-facing windows (which were most of them). He was
accustomed to staying indoors during the winter and the privacy suited him just
fine; as did a freshly uncorked bottle of 1299 Winyards keeping him company
while he wrote letters to his cousins, forgetting, naturally, to mention the
weather. He was just penning his account of last fall's walking tour of Green
Hill to Merry when he heard a funny sound. Not funny in the sense of amusing,
but more on the edge of disturbing. He lifted his head from his pen and paper
and paused to listen. The snow, as thick as it was, fell silently, muffling the
usual creaks and chirps of his garden. He shrugged and continued. He was just
finishing a particularly riveting description of a meadowlark's song he'd
stopped to listen to outside Pincup when the funny noise came again. This time
it sounded like a moan.
Moan? Frodo didn't like to think
about moaning while attending his writing desk. In fact, there were very few
occasions during the length of his quiet afternoons in which he'd welcome such
a sound. Not to say that Frodo was a hobbit lacking in expression. He had
plenty of passion, however properly folded and locked away for only the most
stirring occasions. (Letter-writing was surely not one of them.) An ill-placed
moan was unsettling at worst and inappropriate at best. He didn't want to be
troubled to guess the source of that sound and found it most comforting to think
it was nothing more than an errant wisp of longing stirred up from the depths
of his solitary heart. That was, until it sounded again, closer. Worse, it
sounded like a word.
Most Shirefolk would be taken with
quite a fright over something so unexpected. But not Frodo Baggins, who had
been brought up from his tweens by his 'mad' uncle Bilbo who spun stories of
creeping, stinging spiders and fiercesome hobbit-eating trolls. Besides, if Bag
End was haunted, he couldn't imagine any spirit more imposing than his
grand-uncle Bungo, who occupied his days chasing nothing larger than
butterflies and even those with a deft hand and light net. (In truth, he'd had
quite the collection.) No, it would take more than a whisper in the smials to
shake this gentlehobbit.
"Very well!" Frodo said,
standing and addressing his hole properly. "I do not know who or what is
making this loathsome sound, but I've had plenty of game-playing and wish to
finish my letter. So either come on out and speak plainly or refrain from any
further voicings during my waking hours. You may moan all you like, provided
I'm soundly abed."
The voice spared no time replying
and seemingly also read the name on the postbox because it began to call him by
his front name. "Frodo. Frodo."
Frodo jumped and poked his head into
the smial. It sounded like the kitchen this time, so he made quickly for it in
search of the intruder. A kettle he'd left steaming had boiled off some time
ago and the copper had turned a nice glowing red. He moved it off the hook with
a pair of tines, careful not to scorch his table (for Sam would certainly take
notice of that). Then there was coughing. Not his own. More odd, the sound was
coming from inside the fireplace. This was too much. Frodo fetched the kitchen
pail and doused the fire with one hasty pour. The coughing grew worse and
appeared to be coming from the ashes and damp half-burnt wood. When the smoke
and steam cleared, Frodo dropped to his knees and leaned in. "Hello?"
he said.
"Mr. Frodo, bless you! Can you
hear me?"
"Sam?" Frodo asked,
shocked. "Is that you? Why are you in my chimney?"
"I'm not, sir. At least not
yet. I've been trying to call down to you through 'em, is all."
"Goodness, Sam. Why?"
"Seeing as it's the only part
of the hole as I could find, begging your pardon."
"That you could find?"
"Yes sir, the snowfall. It's
getting right bad. You're up to your chimneys in it, from the look of it
all."
"But Sam, you're out in
it!"
"Aye, Mr. Frodo. That I
am." Although Sam's voice was distorted from its drop down the brick
chute, Frodo could note the misery in it.
"You must come inside straight
away before you get yourself buried."
"That's the chief trouble, sir.
There ain't a door nor window as I can find from up here."
This troubled Frodo. True, the light
had continued to fade as the day wore on, but he'd kept up with several
well-placed candles on the sills and tables, crediting the dimming to the
setting sun, not the deepening of snow. The light filtering into Bag End from
the outside made it seem like dusk, but when Frodo peered up the chimney,
trying to spy Sam through its opening, he was blinded by a bright burst of
white. Water dripped and he pulled back.
"We must find a way to get you
inside!"
"I was thinking maybe if I
tried the chimney in your bedchamber, if you wouldn't mind. As it don't seem to
be blowing no smoke right now."
"Sam, no!" Frodo was
dismayed at the thought of Sam dropping down through such a foul place, not to
mention that his nice round hobbit belly might not clear the flue. "Listen
to me. You must try to find the door. I opened it sometime earlier today."
"Not to disappoint you, sir.
But I did try finding the door first. It's gone buried itself under a drift, if
you follow me. There's no digging through it with my hands as they are."
The thought of anything amiss with
Sam's hands upset Frodo even more. "Hold on, Sam! I'm going to try the
parlour window. It's not shuttered. If I can get it open, you can slip in
through there. I'll shout to have you come around if I succeed."
"Very well, Mr. Frodo."
Frodo hopped up and skittered down
the smial to the snow-packed hillside window. He unlatched the fasteners, but
try as he might, he couldn't push the panes out. The layer of snow was built
solid against them. Fleetingly, he bemoaned the fact he'd had Daddy Twofoot
replace the old glass in his bathroom last fall, which had stood for years
installed backwards much to Bilbo's love of the absurd and Frodo's impatience
with the impractical. Perhaps the absurd can prove itself useful from time
to time, Frodo noted to himself, but his lesson in hindsight was caught
short by a loud faalummp!
Sam had come down the chimney.
His bedroom chimney from the sound
of it.
"Sam!"
Frodo dashed to his bedroom to find
a black-smudged ball of hobbit rolling out of the hearth, crashing the grating
to the floor. "Sam, are you hurt?"
Sam groaned something vague as he
righted himself, shaking his sooty head. "Sorry about the rug, Mr.
Frodo."
"Forget the rug!" Frodo
said, kneeling to check Sam for injuries as he sat stunned and shivering on the
floor. He was a little scraped, but appeared more or less intact. "What a
ninnyhammer you are, dear Sam. You could have broken your neck!"
"Begging your pardon, sir, but
it was getting mighty cold up there."
Frodo touched Sam's face and hands;
they felt icy as a frost-coated pole. "You're half frozen. We must get you
into the bath. Can you walk?" He put Sam's arm around his shoulders and
tried to raise him to his feet, but only succeeded in pitching them forward. It
took a few efforts and mumbled apologies from the both of them before he was
successful. Sam leaned heavily against him as they made their slow way to the
bathroom.
"I'm afraid I boiled down all
the hot water," Frodo said, "but I'll get a new kettle going as
quickly as possible. Oh, but then I doused the kitchen logs with most of the
well water. Oh, dear. Best we take you to the parlour then and sit you close to
the fire until I can get things in order."
"What happened here?" Sam
asked as they sloshed past the dripping entry hall and its proud mound of
still-melting snow.
"A long tale, Sam. We'll enjoy
it later. Your sleeves are damp. What happened to your cloak and gloves?"
"I took 'em off before heading
down the chimney. Didn't want to get myself stuck."
"It's a very good thing you
didn't," Frodo said, coaxing his reluctant friend onto a bench before the
fire. "I would have had to spend the evening addressing your bottom."
He fetched a blanket from a nearby chest and wrapped it around Sam's
still-shivering shoulders. "Sit tight while I get some water going."
Now Samwise Gamgee, despite his
name, was a hobbit of some sense. And not just for learning his letters early
on, but for having a sixth sense about the nature of things, well, natural.
Trees and herbs and flowers never failed to bloom and thrive whenever he set
his hands to them. Wind and rain and sunshine had a habit of answering his
unspoken call. At least it appeared so where Bag End's garden was concerned. Try
as any envious neighbor might, none could grow a rose or cabbage to outshine
the progeny of Mr. Frodo's doted croft. But on this particular day, Samwise
felt he was more than living up to his birthname by the painful chill in his
limbs and the grimy layer he now sported from his making like a chimney sweep.
No telling how much of the filth he'd be tracking all over Mr. Frodo's fine
home before the day was done. So far the wreckage included one rug, the blanket
about his grateful shoulders and the fine cushion under his rump. Oh, yes, and
the parlour rug beneath his numb feet.
To further encourage his
embarrassment there was the matter of Mr. Frodo's clattering about in the
kitchen for his sake. Not only had Sam misjudged the severity of the storm when
he set out that morning to mend a fence, but he'd also gone back out when the
wearisome task was done to see how his master was getting on. He'd trudged no
more than half the distance from the Cottons' hole to The Hill when he'd found
himself bewildered by a snowfall more thick and cold than the likes of any he'd
ever seen. It confounded his view, turning him all about and getting him a bit
lost. His distress grew all the more when he eventually came to find the whole
of Bag End covered in a drift – the smoke from its chimneys the only clue that
there was a hobbit dwelling beneath.
A loud bang of something heavy
hitting the kitchen floor stunned Sam from his dazed musings. "Are you
managing all right, Mr. Frodo?"
"Yes, Sam," Frodo said, sounding somewhat out of breath, scurrying up the smial with a large cauldron nearly his own size. He
set it next to the monolith in the hall, collecting large scoops of snow in his
arms and dumping them into the pot. "We're sorely short on fresh water. My
fault, I suppose. I had no idea the back door would be frozen shut. I can't
reach the pump."
Sam made to stand to help, though
his sore hands and feet protested loudly. Frodo turned about. "No, Sam!
Please sit still. I don't want you to fall. You've had enough accidents today.
Oh, but you do look in pain. How are your hands?"
Sam looked down at them and moved
his fingers carefully, trying not to wince. The skin was red and sore and the
joints stiff and swollen. "I imagine they'll be right enough once they
warm up." He'd seen worse on the hands of his poor old dad a harsh winter
or two in his past. He was probably no less brick-headed in his refusal to let
a job slide even in a storm. Still, it appeared for all his wisdom in the ways
of Nature, she'd given him a lick he wouldn't soon forget.
"Let me get this melting, and I
suppose there's the bathwater still standing in the tub from my own earlier
today. I can warm it up for you at least," Frodo said, dragging the
snow-filled pot after him toward the kitchen. "This will keep for drinking
water at any rate."
"I'm sure the bath will more
than do for me, Mr. Frodo. Seeing as we're short."
It wasn't long before Frodo rushed
back in with a cup of hot tea that he held to Sam's lips as he sipped. The
warmth trickled through him and his shivering stilled. Frodo looked on him with
such concern Sam was struck speechless and could only form a thick 'thanks'
from his tongue.
A quarter of an hour later he
watched Frodo haul two large, steaming kettles into the bathroom, and with a clang
and a wipe of his brow, his master announced that things were ready.
The tea had warmed Sam enough that
he felt he might be able to trust his legs. He rose stiffly as Frodo came about
to help him along. Once inside the bathroom, Frodo set himself to the business
of undoing Sam's braces and shirt buttons. Sam felt a flush rise and warm his
face at least. "Mr. Frodo, you don't need to."
"Nonsense, Sam. Your hands. The
tub will be cold again before you've got a sleeve off."
He had a point, but it didn't make
Sam any more sure of himself as he was efficiently stripped to his trousers.
Frodo showed only the slightest hesitation before undoing those as well,
averting his eyes politely as he drew them to the floor, asking Sam to step out
of them if he could. He could, but then the bigger problem arose of how to get
up and in the water.
"How shall we go about
this?" Frodo said, pondering the situation.
Sam tried to swallow his unavoidable
shyness, but couldn't think of what else to do with himself in this case. He
was, in every sense, at Mr. Frodo's mercy.
"I know! The kitchen
stool!"
Frodo scampered out, and Sam waved
his stiff arms about him helplessly. A fine fix you've got yourself into
this time, Sam Gamgee. Here you are standing in the master's home, covered in
soot with not a stitch on and chicken wings for hands besides.
Frodo was soon back with the stool
and set it next to the tub, taking Sam's arm over his shoulders again and
gripping his bare waist. "Come, Sam. Up and in!"
It wasn't the most graceful move,
one leg at a time, but it proved successful with only a few sloshes of heavenly
warm water spilling over on the tiles. Sam gratefully sank all the way under,
holding his breath so every inch of him could thaw. He came up rubbing the water
from his eyes to find his master standing by handy with the scrub brush and
soap, a smile playing on his lips.
"Sir?" Sam asked, certain
he'd done something improper.
Frodo's smile turned into a chuckle.
"You're quite a handful, Sam, you know that?"
Sam wasn't sure what to make of
that, but at least Mr. Frodo seemed amused.
"Now sit back and let me wash
you," Frodo said, stepping up to begin the job.
"Oh, you don't have to..."
"Yes, I do have to. Unless you
plan to hold the soap in your teeth. I want your hands soaking in the water
while the heat lasts, understand?"
"Yes, sir. I suspect you're
right," Sam said, blushing helplessly as Frodo began to scrub his arm. He
chided himself to keep his head on straight and try to enjoy this. After all,
it wasn't everyday a lad got bathed by the likes of Mr. Frodo. Well, at least
he hoped not. Aye, Samwise, count your blessings and give thanks for what
fate's done offered you this dismal day, Sam thought, offering the other
arm in turn.
Sam did enjoy his fate, more than he
would ever admit. He was buried under The Hill in the worst snowstorm the Shire
had seen in a hundred years, sunk to his shoulders in warm, sudsy,
lavender-scented water, while Mr. Frodo saw to scrubbing his stubborn head with
soap. Those nimble scalp-rubbing fingers were sending the loveliest glow
straight through every inch of him. He'd never want them to get dug out if it
meant he could shut his eyes and absorb the dizzy pleasure while Frodo hummed a
little tune to his busywork. Perhaps Sam should have considered using the
chimney sooner. He'd all but forgotten the throb in his fingers and toes as he
was washed clear through with happiness.
Oh, he knew he was a dreamer, had
been in some form or another since his early days when Bag End's new heir first
arrived in Hobbiton. Pure-bred Fallohide that lad is by the looks of 'im, or
my granddaddy weren't no Stoor, his old dad had said. You don't see many
of them fair-skinned this side of the Brandywine. Watch if the lasses don't go
lining up with their bakin' come spring. But they didn't. Or at least when
they tried, Mr. Frodo wasn't more for granting them a polite smile and a
well-wishing before sending the poor love-struck dears on their way. Not a few
were the tears shed over the unflappably elusive favour of Frodo Baggins. Not
that young Sam had much notion of such things then. Only that a lad might grow
fond of an older neighbour who'd make the most impossible riddles and rhymes
come alive as he read aloud to him sitting on the floor by the fire, till
supper-time grew nigh and his Gaffer would come in from the garden to lead him
reluctantly home.
But Sam's fondness for Frodo did not
fade with childhood and grew and branched into a fine lovelornness by the cusp
of his tweens. Like a hound baying for the moon, he thought, yet
never having a hope of getting no closer to it. That was the way of it.
Sure, there were moments when his heart would skip at a sigh or a smile that he
could hope was made but for him alone. Your dreamin's got no more sense to
it than a canned eggplant, he'd told himself. And you're none the wiser
for setting your hopes on a will-o-the-wisp. Keep your heart where it belongs
with seed and sprout and see then what comes to bloom. This advice he
heeded, and not for a blessing of Nature alone did Frodo's garden earn itself
the envy of all Hobbiton. In fact, Sam had grown up quite thoroughly now.
Though his official coming of age was still a decade off, he'd fashioned
himself quite well into the role of Mr. Frodo's closest companion. And for all
his duties of cooking and cleaning and seeing about the hole, he'd managed to
get as far to the moon as he'd ever hoped, and never mind the occasional rise
of senseless longing that would flutter up and fly away like dandelion tufts on
the western wind.
"Lean forward, Sam. Let me get
your back."
Sam drew up his knees and lay his
giddy head on his folded arms while Mr. Frodo set the delirious scrub of the
backbrush to his skin. His thawed toes curled under the water as the brush
circled across his back ever so wonderfully and down his spine. Over, up and
around it went, until the bristles dipped low below the water's surface and
prickled (though that wasn't exactly the right word) a place far more
sensitive, and he jumped, giving a little squeak in the effort to conceal a
more telling sound.
"Oh! I'm sorry. I can't quite
see what I'm doing through the soap. Are you hurt anywhere?" Frodo asked,
trailing concerned fingertips down the tingling flesh of his back, searching
for cuts or bruises that weren't there, but ever the more agonising for where
his touch was heading below the water to inspect and...
"Mmfp," was all Sam could
manage, pressing his lips to his arm.
"Oh, dear. You must have
bruised yourself when you landed. Sit up and let's see."
Not for all the spoils of a dragon's
hoard would Sam raise his hips above the water now.
"Um, Mr. Frodo, it's quite all
right. I'm just a bit, well, ticklish, I suppose," he said, peering over
his shoulder at Frodo to convey his certainty of his soundness. But the sight
of his master soaked to his elbows in bathwater, suds clinging to his wrists,
eyes all fixed with worry on his, well... it just wasn't helping the situation
any, and he turned about fast, trying to get ahold of his breathing. See where
wishing would get him now.
"Sam, it's just... I didn't
mean to embarrass you. But if you're hurt I need you to tell me. I don't know
how long before we'll be getting out of here and..." Frodo trailed off.
"Mr. Frodo?"
"Sam, why did you come back up
the Hill in this storm?"
"I was worried, knowing you
were up here all alone and such," Sam said, wanting to ease the sadness he
heard in Frodo's voice.
Frodo didn't speak, but he laid a
hand on Sam's head for a moment, drawing his fingers once more through the wet
curls. Sam could hear him sigh. "I see," he said softly, and Sam's
pickled eggplant of a heart took no time in catching on it.
Sam's blessings were not all spent at the conclusion
of his bath (which would surely go down in history as the best of his life, if
hobbits kept count of such things). He managed to convince Frodo his hands were
fit enough to lift himself out and dry off in grateful privacy, where the air
in the bath would cool his skin enough to put on the clothes Mr. Frodo left on
the chair. "A few items Bilbo left behind. I think they'll fit,"
Frodo had said before removing himself quickly from the room. Sam couldn't
account for his sudden shift in mood, but it was plainer than boiled oats that Mr.
Frodo was troubled.
Frodo had lit a fire in one of the
guest rooms, and once Sam emerged, dressed and rubbing a towel through his
curls, he asked Sam to go in and lie down until he could see about dinner.
"I'm feeling much better now,
Mr. Frodo, if you'd like me to see to the cooking," Sam said, wiggling his
fingers as proof. But Frodo would have none of it and pushed him gently into
the room.
"I'll feel much better
if you lie quiet for a while," he said, pulling the covers back for Sam to
get in. Sam did, feeling only a few aches left in his legs and knuckles. Still,
that fall was bound to come back on him by morning. Frodo pulled the coverlet
up to Sam's chest and took his hands in his, rubbing his thumbs over them
gently. "They look much better," he said with relief. "I'm glad
you're all right, Sam."
"I'll be fine," Sam said,
marvelling at the way the mattress was slowly moulding to his shape. He'd never
lain in one of Mr. Frodo's fancy beds before. (In truth, he had as a child, but
had plum forgotten it.) It was almost as delightful as the bath, especially if
Mr. Frodo kept rubbing his hands like that.
Frodo had a far-away look in his
eyes. Then he released Sam's hands with a gentle pat. "Well, I'm off to
the larders. Let's hope I can fix us something we won't live to regret,"
he said with a wry grin and left the room. Sam rolled his head comfortably on
the pillows and let the down soothe the remains of his pains. Sooner than not
he felt himself falling into a sound sleep, his mind drifting on the scent of
lavender.
Frodo shivered over a basket of sawdust-sprinkled
vegetables plucked from the winter storage bins as he came out of the stone
cellar, kicking the door closed behind him. It was cold as a spinster's bed
back there now, and aside from an ample supply of onions, beets, turnips,
carrots and apples, the last of the potatoes and squash would have to serve
them for supper. He'd been meaning to ask Sam about going to market, but
somehow groceries had slipped his mind this week.
He set the basket down in the
kitchen and turned the new logs, encouraging a higher blaze. Groceries weren't
the only thing his mind had been slipping on lately.
You're a handful, Sam? Where
was his mind then? Well, he knew where his mind had been. And it had hardly been
the proper time to reflect on... No, no. He wasn't going to think on it right
now. There was food to prepare, and for once Frodo was going to see that
something edible came of his effort. He scooped a pot-full of melting snow from
the cauldron and set it on the hook to boil. He watched the pot swing over the
flames and the heat rose to his cheeks in sympathy.
At what point had he decided he was
going to bathe Sam? Was Sam really in such a helpless state or had he
taken more charge of the situation than was necessary or proper? Sam was, after
all, his servant. Certainly he wouldn't object, and he was in need of a good
scrub. He probably got more of a thorough cleansing than was bargained for; not
that Sam seemed to mind. There were more than a few times Frodo thought he'd
felt stifled shudders pass under his soapy hands. Had he really spent that much
time washing Sam's hair? Oh, but how he'd longed to touch... Enough. Enough.
Where were the peelers?
Frodo opened his drawers, digging
through the flatware. A good round of vegetable peeling would set his thoughts
back to rights. He found the blades and planted himself on a stool, blowing the
dust and dirt off a nice round potato. His thumb stroked the brown skin. You
have no business entertaining ideas of this sort, he told himself once
again. None whatsoever. Not that there was anything wrong with thoughts,
nameless and faceless as they had necessarily been for as long as he could
recall – it was putting a name to them that was the problem. And he hadn't thought
to until... well, until after Bilbo left and Sam took over the cooking and
cleaning and any other excuse Frodo could find for having him about the hole.
Sam. Somehow it had become Sam. And
it was because of that naming there was now pain in it. Frodo let the potato
slip from his fingers as he drew a sleeve across his tearing eyes. Well,
this is unexpected, he thought, stifling a startled sob against his arm.
You'd think he'd been chopping onions by the way he was getting on. But feeling
sorry for himself and the life he chose was no excuse. Frodo blew his nose on a
dish towel and retrieved the potato and peelers. He got to work, taking that
senseless wayward passion of his and, folding it neatly, packed it away and
shut his chest on it.
Sam woke some time later to the scent of chopped
onion and sage. He blinked a moment, confused, thinking he had to be back home
at Number Three for someone to be preparing food and it wasn't him. But the
familiar inlaid ceiling curving over his head, that he had polished countless
times before, brought him back to the present. He was snowbound in Bag End and
at last count there was only one other hobbit in the hole. And that hobbit was
cooking; from the smell of it, not badly. Sam's stomach gurgled in agreement.
He'd not had a meal since noontime. He thought he'd best go see what was in the
pot.
Sam's curiosity was such that he
made his way down the smial quietly, not wanting to disturb Mr. Frodo's best
efforts. For it was a rare sight indeed to catch his master in the kitchen
occupying himself with its true purpose, and not just boiling water for tea.
Sam peered around the turn to find him idly stirring a big pot of soup, thick
and yellowish in colour. Squash and potatoes by the smell of it, with lots of
butter and surprisingly compatible herbs. His master looked glum, sitting with
his head resting on his hand as he turned the spoon. His eyes were lost in the
fire.
"Something smells good,"
Sam said brightly and soon regretted it, for Mr. Frodo jumped near out of his
skin, dropping the spoon and knocking over his stool. The soup pot swung, but
stayed suspended over the fire, fortunately.
"Sam! You startled me,"
Frodo said, brushing a hot soup dribble from his waistcoat. "You were out
cold last I looked in on you."
Sam flushed at the thought of Mr.
Frodo watching him sleep. He hoped he hadn't been snoring.
"Well, I guess you're ready for
something to eat," Frodo said, indicating Sam should take a seat at the
table.
"Begging your pardon, sir, but
you've been doing all the serving tonight. Seeing as my hands are back in
order, let me get the table ready," Sam suggested, for truly he was at a
loss when he wasn't doing something for Mr. Frodo's sake.
"But..."
"I insist."
"If you insist," Frodo
said with an easy shrug, stepping away from the fire and collecting some
candles for the table. "It's your kitchen, Sam."
Sam got the bowls down and the
spoons and napkins, careful with the crockery in that he really could trust his
grip again. He ladled up the soup and brought out a square of sharp cheese and
a bundle of biscuits he'd baked and salted the week before. It was a meal fit
enough for two hobbits held-up in a storm. Sam poured from the bottle of wine
Frodo had uncorked earlier and seated himself at the table across from him.
Taking up his cup, Sam decided this occasion granted a toast.
"Here's to winter's glory, even
if it means getting stuck in your own hole for most of it."
Frodo grinned and reached to click
Sam's cup. "Hear, hear."
Sam dipped his spoon into the soup,
not thinking much about it other than it was warm and thick and he was
famished. He scooped it in his mouth only then to notice that his master was
watching him with large, nervous eyes. Sam swallowed and made for another
mouthful. "Sir?" he said as the potatoeyness went down smoothly,
warming his belly.
Frodo kept two hands gripped on his
cup. "Is it... all right?"
"Mmmhm," Sam mumbled,
swallowing his third mouthful and reaching for a biscuit. "Try it
yourself."
Frodo looked suspiciously at his
spoon lying next to his bowl. "It's just, I've never had much luck in the
kitchen. I didn't want to disappoint you."
Sam felt the warmth in his belly
spread to his heart as he took a big bite of dipped biscuit. "Mr. Frodo,
it's quite good if I do say so," he said, mouth full. "And what with
you not having much to work with and all."
Frodo still looked worried, but
tried a taste of it anyway. He held it on his tongue a while, before giving it
a swallow.
"There you go, see?"
"Not as good as when Bilbo used
to make it, but I suppose I couldn't have hoped for better."
"You done fine, sir, and mind
the ladle as I don't mean to stop at one bowl, neither."
Sam noted that
Frodo barely finished his first bowl and a biscuit before resigning himself to
the wine. What, you not been
feedin' that Master Baggins of yours? Ted Sandyman had once snickered to
Sam over a half-pint at the Dragon. He's got less flesh on 'im than a
Frogmorton peach. It was well known the Gaffer wasn't terribly fond of the
Miller, and his son's opinion wasn't far behind. But it wasn't for lack of
offerings. that Mr. Frodo had been a light eater since Sam could remember.
Bilbo was always fussing over his half-finished plate. However, it wasn't his
fastidiousness at play tonight Sam sensed, but something deeper was gnawing at
his master, and Sam wasn't any closer to guessing the cause.
"Are you feeling all right, Mr.
Frodo?" Sam asked as he set his thrice emptied bowl aside and poured them
both more wine.
Frodo was quiet, his fingers playing
with the rim of his cup. "Aside from being buried alive, yes, I'm all
right. But I suppose we should consider our survival plan if we prove to be in
for a time."
Sam pushed back his chair and wiped
his lips on his napkin, feeling quite full and happy about it. "You've
seen to the drinking water," he said, taking a sip of wine and pointing a
finger at the cauldron. "There's plenty of onions and carrots and other
roots to feed us. And I know I stocked the cellar with a sack or two of lentils
and ground wheat. I'll see to the baking in the morning."
"If we'll know when it's
morning," Frodo said tiredly, eyeing his snow-packed window.
"I was thinking, sir,"
said Sam, now that his hunger had abated and his old hobbit sense was coming
back into play. "We need to be going easy on the firewood. I laid a good
cord about the hole late last week, but we've been going through it pretty
fast. No telling how much longer we've got in here before I can get to the
woodshed out back."
"You're right, Sam. I suppose I
should have thought of that," Frodo said, looking at the kitchen blaze.
"I could try to snuff this out with some pans." He got to his feet
and reached for the skillet. But something down the smial caught his attention
first. A quite serious something. "Sam! There's a river coming down my
hall!"
Sam leapt to his feet. Indeed there
was. A meandering snake of water was oozing its way along the fine wood floor.
Frodo groaned. "The snow in the
entry, Sam. I fear it's melted."
"I was wondering about
that," Sam said, keeping his eye on the advancing flow. "I'll get the
mop and buckets. See if you can't find some more pots and tubs, and we'll set
up as much of what's left as we can."
An hour or so later, Frodo's kitchen
was cluttered with pots, pans, and basins filled with mounds of snow. Sam bent
over the mop, sleeves rolled, wringing out the final sweep of the hall now
cleared of slush and water – the rest having found a short trip out of Bag End
by way of the privy. Frodo brought another armful of sodden blankets and towels
into the bathroom and stacked them up near the floor drain. Sam came in soon
after and turned the last bucket of mop-water over the hole and shut the lid.
Frodo sank to the lip of the tub,
crossing his wet sleeves over the rest of his half soaked shirt. They'd been
working hard enough to keep warm, but now the absence of fire in any of the
rooms was quickly cooling down the whole of Bag End. It had grown utterly dark
now, well past nightfall by their feel of it, and a few well-placed lanterns
and candles were chasing shadows along the curved walls. Sam wrung out a clean
cloth and wiped his face and hands with it, leaning heavily against a cabinet.
"All that snow come falling in
just from opening the door?"
"It did."
"I imagine that was quite a
sight," Sam said, a silly smile spreading across his face.
Frodo felt his own match it.
"See what happens when you leave a Baggins alone for the afternoon? I had
a terrible time trying to beat it back with the hoe. I called for you Sam,
hoping you'd show up and somehow remedy the situation."
Sam's hold on a growing laugh began
to slip. "You forgot I was chasing sheep down in Bywater, today?"
Frodo shook his head, trying to look
indignant. "It wasn't entirely unreasonable to hope you'd be along to
rescue me, because that's precisely what you did."
"Aye, some rescue I cooked up.
My Gaffer'll wring my neck when he hears how I dropped in," Sam said,
laughing. "Your face... when you saw that river coming for us. Trust me,
Mr. Frodo, this has been the least ordinary of days to be certain. But if I
wanted ordinary, I'd go work for that old Mr. Boffin up in Hardbottle."
Frodo's laugh had joined Sam's.
"What's he paying nowadays, for after today I might have to see about offering
you a raise."
"And for what?" Sam
smiled. "I'll have you know, Mr. Frodo, there's more reward in tending Bag
End than a sack of coin come Meresday."
Now despite Frodo's better
understanding of his oldest and dearest friend, something about the way he was
feeling tonight led his mind down a path of worry and doubt where his heart
began to rush beyond its proper pace. The laughter dimmed on his lips. Yes, Sam
did enjoy his work. And truthfully Frodo knew there was no better cared-for
gentlehobbit in all the Shire than himself. He paid Sam well, but that
unavoidable fact drove a wedge in the stirrings of what he perceived was
impropriety rising in his chest at the sight of Sam in his damp shirt, smiling
and laughing so beautifully among the dregs of this disaster.
"Mr. Frodo?" Sam moved
closer, quieted by Frodo's shift in mood, cloth still gripped in his hands.
Frodo put a reassuring hand to his
arm. "Don't mind me, Sam. I'm just tired, is all. It's been a long day and
we're both in need of dry clothes and warm beds."
Sam nodded, but his eyes were
questioning. Frodo knew Sam wouldn't think twice about jumping into a pit of
weasels after him, should ever his whimsy prove so reckless. What wouldn't
you do for me if I but asked? But that was not what Frodo said, instead
these words rose to his lips: "If there is anything I have said or done
that's ever made you... uncomfortable, Sam. I..." Frodo couldn't believe
what he was saying, but felt the need to finish. "I don't want there to ever
be anything unpleasant between us."
Sam took his hand where it still
clung to his arm and squeezed it. "No, Mr. Frodo. There's never been
nothing like that."
When Frodo didn't answer Sam
continued softly. "There's aught you could say to me, Mr. Frodo, that I
wouldn't understand."
Frodo found a smile and coaxed it to
his lips. "I know, Sam," he said, and squeezed Sam's hand in return.
They'd turned in soon after, Frodo to his freshly
mopped bedchamber (Sam had insisted upon wiping down the soot) and Sam happily
to his own room. Having already gotten a sampling of the bed, he was looking
forward to taking a long rest in it, seeing as there was not likely to be a
noisome Gamgee nor cock in the garden to come rattle him awake before dawn.
After a quick clean-up and a fresh shirt (he was on his second now, thanks to
Mr. Bilbo), he flopped down in the bed, pulling the blankets about him and was
dreaming before his eyes closed.
Frodo was another matter. Not one
for counting his blessings today half as well as Sam, he lay rolled in what few
extra blankets he could scrounge from the bottoms of trunks and backs of chairs
that had not been sacrificed for the hall damming. He lay curled on his
stomach, spending the better part of the hour listening to the growing winds
howling across the tops of his cold chimneys. They'd figured once huddled in
their beds the need for a fire would go unnoticed. But Frodo, who was somewhat
less padded than the average hobbit, was starting to shiver in his wrappings,
his nose and eartips long gone cold. His mind drifted in his misery to Sam,
asleep down the hall, warm and snug (which was making falling asleep all the
more difficult).
He managed it though, but for only a
few hours before a crashing sound woke him with a start. He sat up in the
darkness and fumbled for the lantern. He lifted the shield and let the light
beam across his room. The door stood open as he'd left it and all seemed quiet
now unless the wind took to blowing again. Frodo thought of calling for Sam,
but instead got out of bed and peered out his door. His home was dark and
still, and the floor under his feet felt more like ice than polished wood. He
passed down the smial, turning the lantern into every room until he came to the
bathroom and found the source of the crash. The new window glass had given way,
proving old Uncle Bilbo right again. The pane had separated under the pressure,
shattering to the floor. Snow had fallen in one big wedge after it behind the
tub and over the mountain of blankets. Now he had to wake Sam.
Frodo hesitated at Sam's door and
shielded the lantern, letting only a sliver of light help him through the room
to the side of the bed. Sam lay on his back with an arm behind his head,
sleeping peacefully. Frodo moved a hand to wake him, but paused over Sam's face
and looked on him like he hadn't in so long, for fear of betraying himself.
Sam hadn't spent the night at Bag
End since he was a wee thing. Bilbo would sometimes cart him off to sleep when
he and the Gaffer had a mind to stay up half the night talking about the finer
points of barley brewing. But this was not that Sam, hadn't been for quite some
time. Sam was his own hobbit in mind and body, if not yet by law, and had
assumed all the duties fitting a lad of some twenty-two years. His fond face
had grown older and his eyes held all the knowing that comes from having the
years to understand the choices life could offer. But of all those many
splendid paths he could have taken, Sam had chosen him. When had that
little Sam-lad with the skinned knees and high voice, who used to dote on his
every word, become the very heart that beat inside him? When did you become
my love, Sam? For I cannot remember there ever being another.
Frodo's fingers fell and stirred
Sam's curls where they gathered at his forehead. Sam sighed in his sleep and
smiled. Frodo's lips curved in answer and he knew it was hopeless for his
longing to remain in the darkness any longer. He set the lantern on the bedside
table, shut it, and gently slipped into the bed.
Sam, who by all his reckoning, was still having one
of the best days of his life (if you didn't count the sheep chasing or chimney
dropping parts of it), was not yet aware of how much better his evening had
suddenly become. In his dreaming he was lying in a meadow on the softest grass
next to the warmest pillow he'd ever put his arms around. It was somewhat
difficult to hold onto, as the pillow was moving about slowly as if it were
alive, and it had a scent to it that was wonderfully familiar. Well, if he had
to guess, he'd say it smelled a lot like...
Mr. Frodo?
Sam was suddenly awake. Very awake,
for his arms were indeed full of something alive. Something that was breathing
and clinging to him just as pleasantly. It may have been darker than the bottom
of an ink well in the room, but it wasn't hard to guess. Sam's heart took a
lumbering leap, soaring in the realisation that at some point in the night his
beloved master had come to bed with him. Frodo was lying against him with an
arm limp over his chest, his cold nose tickling his collarbone. Sam's arms had
gone off on their own in his sleep to wrap around Frodo's waist, which was
where he now found them. Samwise, keep your wits about you. From the feel of
his poor nose, Mr. Frodo's most likely come in to warm up – you being so
worried over the firewood and all. So don't go getting all sorts of wild ideas
in your head.
Frodo moved in his sleep, nestling
even closer and pressing that cold nose into the nape of Sam's neck, making him
twitch. Frodo answered with a sleepy sigh and 'wild' ideas were just about the
only coherent thoughts Sam could form right then; that, and the notion that the
arm lying under his master had long gone to sleep. And as much as Sam tried to
fold himself in the remarkable knowledge he was at last holding Frodo,
his mind kept returning to the stabbing ache in his arm. He had to move it soon
or else utter a yelp – either of which would wake Frodo most assuredly. Sam
shifted a little to his side and began to gently lift Frodo's head, unintentionally
bringing his curls closer to his face until they teased his nose and his
trapped arm slipped free before he...
"'choo!"
...sneezed.
Frodo was awake now.
Sam froze stock still. Frodo was
gripping the front of his shirt, startled, his forehead still pressed to Sam's
chest.
Say something to him!
"Um... sorry, sir. M' arm fell
asleep."
"Did I...?" Mr. Frodo
sounded just as confused as he was, but in the darkness Sam couldn't be sure.
Not when his tingling arm was flopping of its own accord between them.
"Oh, Sam. I'm sorry. I was cold."
"That's all right. Just gave me
a start, is all."
"Oh," Frodo said, lifting
his head and beginning to untangle himself. "Well, I... I guess I'm not
that cold anymore. Maybe I should..."
"Stay?" Sam pleaded,
grasping his master's hand blindly, as if the mere thought of losing what had
been so precious to him not a minute ago (to a nagging arm no less) was going
to tear him apart. He blinked into the darkness, wishing he could see Frodo.
"I suppose I could," Frodo
said softly, lying beside him again, though not as close. Sam wanted close, and
shifted on his side so he could curl an arm around him. "You're so
warm," Frodo murmured, as Sam guided his head back to his shoulder.
"I'm thinking it'd be a shame
to waste it," Sam said, dropping his nose into the top of Frodo's whorly
hair, nuzzling him. If he'd learned anything today it was not to pass on a good
thing. That advice hadn't steered him wrong yet, and my, if this here cuddle
wasn't a pint-and-a-half fuller than the bathing even.
"Your nose is cold," Sam
said as he threaded his fingers into Frodo's rich tangle – so much softer than
he'd dreamed. "And your poor ears," he said, cupping one in his palm
to warm it. Frodo shivered and hugged Sam closer until they lay all against
each other, toes brushing.
"I like this," Frodo
whispered. "Would you just hold me for a while?"
Would he? Sam was very aware
he'd waited half his life to hold his master like this and if Mr. Frodo
couldn't feel that hammering in his chest... "All night, if you'd let
me."
"I'd hope for even
longer," Frodo answered, and they lay together, contented as only two
hobbits could be on a cold snowbound night.
Longer than the days in a lifetime and closer than
the morning dew on the leaves was what Frodo could wish for right now, lying in
the arms of his warm, loving Sam. How many nights had he wrapped himself around
his pillow, weakening against his better judgements to dare to dream? All
you had to do was ask.
Frodo lay in deep contentment moving
only to the rise and fall of Sam's breath, slow and deep. The thud of his
strong heart beating against his own was a delight beyond his own imaginings.
(Pillows, after all, don't have heartbeats.) But in time – was it minutes? hours?
– even this was not enough to calm the smouldering within that keepsake box of
Frodo's heart, threatening to ignite and burn it all to ashes. It became
impossible for him to hold still when there was so much... Sam... to
explore. His hand began to wander up Sam's arm to his back and down his side in
slow, comforting strokes. His fingers missed Sam's curls and found a way to
wind themselves in them, his thumb brushing Sam's eartip, making him shiver.
Sam's restless fingers were soon joining his in the same curious wanderings,
rubbing circles over his shoulders and back until light fingertips traced up
the back of his neck, stirring goose prickles on his skin.
Frodo could hear Sam's breathing
deepen and hasten along with his own. It wasn't just hands that wouldn't lie
still anymore, but the whole of their bodies wanted to move and share in their
close, quiet dance. Frodo could feel the buttons of Sam's shirt tickling his
breast bone. The scent of the old cedar chest was caught in the thick weave mingled with
Sam's skin and the essence of lavender. He ran his nose along the inner edge of
the collar to savour it, feeling Sam tense at his sniffing.
Sam made a noise in his throat that
tugged at Frodo's heart as Sam rolled him to his back, his arms gliding under
Frodo's shoulders to reach up and hold his head. Sam's thumbs brushed his
temples as their foreheads touched before his nose descended to trace the
curves of his ear. This was too much and Frodo let a sound escape his throat.
It was not a moan, exactly, though one or several were likely to follow
shortly if Sam didn't stop blowing in his ear like that. He reached for Sam in
the dark, gripping his shoulders as Sam's hand slid down his side, past the hem
of his nightshirt to graze around his bare hip and...
"Sam!"
His master's urgent voice broke the
silence and a very startled Sam pushed off him, sitting up so fast his ears
were ringing; though he supposed they would be ringing anyway for all the blood
that had left his head and settled elsewhere. "I'm sorry, Mr. Frodo. It's
just, you felt so good and I thought..."
"I'm sorry," Frodo said,
breathing rapidly. "I didn't mean for you to stop, I just..." Sam
could hear him scramble to sit up, clanking something in the dark until a slip
of golden light burst from around the lantern shield causing them to squint.
"Sorry," he said, turning the beam until it lit the wall behind them,
casting the room in an easy glow. "I just wanted... no, I needed,
to see you, your face."
Sam's startle soon eased into delight
as his eyes adjusted to the sight of his master sitting before him in the bed,
hair mussed and sweet mouth parted with quickened breaths. He hoped his face
was half as welcome a vision to Frodo who indeed seemed to be just as
captivated; his wistful gaze falling over Sam's half-untucked shirt and skewed
collar.
"I needed to know you weren't
just another dream I'd have to wake from alone."
As overcome with love as Sam was at
that moment, it bruised his giving heart to know that Frodo had been lonely,
for even a day. "I reckon it ain't a dream, Mr. Frodo. Unless it's mine,
but they'd never turned out this good before."
The adoring smile that spread over
Frodo's face then nearly turned all Sam's limbs to pudding. Nearly was
fortunate because what Frodo said next would require some of them.
"Sam?" Frodo asked,
nervously. "Would you mind if I asked you to kiss me now?"
"No..." Sam squeaked
before his throat closed on him. Ask me?
Frodo's glance dropped to the
coverlet. "Because I'd really like you to, and... oh!"
In one scrambled move, Sam had
leaned forward over Frodo's lap to do just what he'd been wishing about for
years. Nose bumped nose in his eagerness, and a small apology and adjustment
were made before Sam could at last feel the soft curve of Frodo's lips against
his own. Sam didn't have a great deal of knowledge in this, other than what
most young hobbits learn from playing party games in the bushes on Lithedays.
But he couldn't be doing too badly if he was making Frodo breathe like that as
their shy lips brushed and meshed, learning the shape of one another. Sam's
heart let loose a palmful of butterflies at the small sounds Frodo made as they
turned their heads to find what fit and what this or that would feel like if
they moved a tiny bit or suckled just here? Sam wondered if it was better to
try and watch (for Frodo's eyelashes were quite a sight when closed) or to shut
his eyes and just feel. Closed was better and the feel, well, it felt like
nothing he'd ever known, or maybe it was a little like drinking too much wine
on a warm summer day, but without the bellyache and told 'ee so from his
Gaffer.
Kissing Frodo was all so new, so
dear, Sam's head was spinning with it. His arms were uncertain of their balance
as he leaned in for more, and more, and another, almost tipping. Frodo spared
him his reach by sinking back on the pillows, drawing Sam down with him. Once
settled with arms about each other, the kissing continued in earnest when the
unexpected flick of Frodo's tongue across his lips sent Sam reeling. He hadn't
expected that, having not kissed anyone quite like this before (not even close,
by all reckoning). But oh, how he'd wanted to know what it was like to taste
Frodo. And for Frodo to taste him, too; like sharing a bowl of berries and
cream together, but that was giving him even wilder ideas that were best kept
under wraps until he got this right.
Frodo's lips parted, inviting, and
Sam's tongue seemed to need no instruction as he took his first tentative
sweep. Mmm. Frodo drew him in, meeting him, savouring, and this was
better, warmer, closer than anything else. Frodo's sweet mouth was feeding a
hunger in him so strong Sam thought he might weep for all the wanting that was
curling up inside him and plunging. Frodo's arms circled his back,
clenching his shirt, pulling him closer so Sam lay half over him, his fingers
in his curls, kissing him deeply, holding on like his heart would shatter if
they ever had to stop.
Frodo was lost in the feel of Sam pressed against
him, his arms around him, his tongue gliding against his own. Those deep, wet
strokings were harvesting notes of delight that rose and flew out of him
unheeded. He wanted to catch them all and hold them, take their time with this,
but he wanted, he wanted... And here was Sam all along so ready to give.
He couldn't help but take as much as he could hold; which Frodo suspected,
after years of not kissing Sam, was a great deal.
This was what all the poems were
about, even those obtuse Second Age verses. He'd suspected the elves knew what
they were rhyming about, but never knew himself, never had the chance. He'd
never been so completely in love before. In love? Of course you're in love;
why do you think you've been so miserable? He wanted to sing with the
splendour of it, but his mouth was very busy at the moment. So moaning would
have to do. And yes, Frodo had indeed found a useful purpose for the
expression, growing even more expressive whenever Sam's throaty gasps answered
him back.
Frodo panted for breath as Sam's kisses
found their way to his neck, tasting the sensitive flesh with small licks. He
whimpered and tugged at Sam's collar, urging him closer, if closer were
possible with half Sam's body sprawled over him. But there was so much more to
his desire than what lips could tell, and he wanted Sam to know it and soon.
"Sam," he whispered, kissing his cheek. "Come lie over me."
"I am, aren't I?" Sam
gasped, confused, looking down on his master through a blurring of love and
desire.
"All of you, Sam," Frodo
said, as urgent fingers latched to his trouser pocket, tugging. Sam lifted up
and Frodo slid a leg under him, so when they lay back down they fit in a manner
Sam had never heard anyone mention in party games before. His air rushed
all out of him at what lying with someone like this felt like. And even more
overwhelming was to feel and know his master had been aching in all the same
places, too. He wanted to lie there pressed to that maddening pulse and never
let go, but Frodo was kissing him again, hungrily, his fingers beginning to
undo his shirt buttons one after another until he was able to pull it up over
his head and toss it aside. Sam's fingers tangled in the hem of Frodo's
nightshirt and with a struggle of arms, shirt strings, and a trapped head, Sam
managed to get the fool thing off. And what he saw before him drew his mouth
open into a helpless 'O' of wonder.
Though he would have been the last
to describe himself as such, Frodo Baggins was a hobbit blessed with a rather
striking physical beauty more akin to the likes of elves than your average,
average-looking hobbit. Not to say that hobbits don't find button noses, round
bellies and woolly toes charming, if not downright attractive, but Frodo was
not a hobbit destined for an average life and had a set of eyes on him that
could melt snowpeaks – not least of all poor Sam Gamgee's wits as he got his
first good look on him: all cream skin, graceful limbs, and smooth narrow
waist. It was the waist and what was waiting there for him that caught Sam in a
spell. Frodo's fingers traced up Sam's bare arm where he leaned over him.
"Sam? Are you still with me?"
Sam's eyes shot right back up to his
master's face. A terrible dizziness was threatening to knock him flat.
"Sam...? Sam!"
"I think I ought to lie
down," Sam said and slid to the side, flopping into the pillows. Stars
prickled his sight as the room spun and... nothing.
When Sam came back, his cheek was buried in the
pillow and Frodo was nestled next to him under the covers, stroking his hair
whilst humming a tune in his ear.
"Mmpf?" Sam asked.
Frodo smiled, touching his cheek.
"My dearest Sam, what a day you've had."
"What? Where'd I go?" Sam
asked, looking around to get his bearings. It was cold in the room, but the bed
was warm and Frodo's bare skin even warmer.
"I don't know, but you didn't
go for long, and I'm glad you're back."
You done fainted on him is what
you did! "Did I?" Sam was mortified.
Frodo looked on him with frank
adoration and kissed his lips. "No worries, dear Sam. None. Just lie back
and let me do the rest."
The rest? Did I miss any of it?
He hoped not, because Frodo was climbing on top of him and kissing his bared
chest with soft lips.
"You're so beautiful to
me," he whispered, his now warmed nose playing in the curls across Sam's
chest. "My golden-haired Sam. How I've watched you and wondered..."
Frodo's tongue teased his nipple a moment, drawing its full attention before he
shifted lower to lap at his belly fur. Nimble fingers were working the buttons
of his borrowed trousers free. And for this Sam was grateful to be lying flat,
because in a moment a warm palm slipped in and closed over what had been
demanding all the attention from the beginning, ahh.
"I think I've found the
problem," Frodo murmured against his navel, dipping his tongue in and out
as he began to stroke Sam deftly under the loosened cloth. Sam clamped a hand
over his mouth to keep from shouting. If he thought he'd been seeing stars
before...
As much as Sam was drowning in the
touch, the glide, the thudding ache, he knew he shouldn't be letting Mr. Frodo
do this, not yet, not for long... oh, but maybe a bit more wouldn't...
Sam shut his eyes tight, trying not to think about what was happening too
closely since it seemed to be pleasing his master so much... but there was no
not thinking about it when Frodo's tongue left his belly and dipped to circle
once around that most sensitive...
"Aie!" Sam yelped, turning
to his side and tossing Frodo off. Frodo caught himself in the coverings,
staring startled up at Sam. "Begging your pardon, Mr. Frodo, but that
can't happen right now."
Frodo's lips curled into a knowing
grin that might just make 'that' happen anyway. "I know what
happens, Sam. I want it to happen. If you'll let me."
Sam gathered him up in his arms and
held him tightly, kissing his forehead – all his soft, smooth skin lying
flushed against his. "Not like that, it ain't," he said, kissing
Frodo's lips, his nose, hands wandering all over what was so fine and fair.
"Not this time. Not if I have anything to say about it. We're both in this
together, if you follow."
"I follow," Frodo
breathed, and they both reached down to divest Sam of the remains of his
garments.
Sam's full nakedness against his own was quickly
overbearing all Frodo's senses. Sam was an endless discovery all under his
immediate reach as he writhed, caressing all those wonderful places where Sam was
roughened and strong or soft and curly or slick and warm beyond belief. He
wanted Sam so desperately he couldn't think straight. Cobwebs of desire were
tangling in his mind as Sam kissed him and kissed him, rolling him over to
slide between his willing thighs and fit. The peak of Sam's wanting lay
against his own, and Frodo did his best to remember to breathe and hold on as
they began to move together in long undulations of pleasure.
"So good..." he breathed
in Sam's ear where he'd broken away from their kissing to nip and lick at the
beads of sweat gathering at his neck. He hadn't tasted Sam here yet, and
somehow knew he'd be missing plenty more places as well, because this just
wasn't going to last much longer. It couldn't, not when the pressure was tightening
so unbearably around them, so close, so close and... sudden heat, liquid and
smooth, was spreading over his belly. Frodo's eyes shot open. Is that me?
It couldn't be because he was still so, so...
oh...
Sam was moaning in his ear,
clenching his arm, eyes screwed shut. His body shook, slackened, slowed, and
stopped.
no...
"Sam...?" Frodo whimpered,
touching his damp curls, fearful he'd gone right out on him again.
Sam lifted his head, befuddled and
bewildered, but the tender glow in his eyes when they managed to focus on
Frodo's made it all worth it. Well, almost.
Sam's eyes grew huge. "Oh! I
thought...! You... you didn't..."
"On... your back," Frodo
said, unable to make himself any more articulate, as he pushed a dazed Sam
over, reversing their joining, and slid himself into all that wonderful
wetness. Yes. Oh, he wasn't going to need much... Frodo kissed Sam
sharply as he moved over him. "Hold me, hold me."
Sam's strong hands smoothed down his
back to his hips, pulling along with his pushing, as Frodo shifted about for
just the right... there. Sam had a look of amazement on him that Frodo
had to shut his eyes against because right now he was going to burst apart if
he didn't... if he couldn't feel, and feel... One of Sam's hands left his back
and slipped down between them to trap and squeeze while the other continued its
earlier attempt to journey over Frodo's hip to cup his bottom and...
"Sam!"
But this time the shout was for a
good reason as the pleasure peaked and washed through Frodo at last, releasing
him, filling him with wave on wave of love and elation. He fell against Sam,
spent and shaking, lost in the following glow that rippled up from his belly
and spread to every limb, mollifying his mind, lulling it helplessly toward
sleep... only marginally aware of Sam who was hugging him tight, kissing his
cheek... telling him how beautiful he was, how perfect... how his he was
now and always... always.
Morning broke cold and sparkling on all the new
fallen snow heaped like great white sea crests over the Western hills as
Hobbiton's residents dug and poked their way out of their buried holes and
homes, scratching their heads at the sky as if to ask, "Who ordered all
this?" Quite possibly, it had been the two happy hobbits sleeping wrapped
up together in a spare room in Bag End, not bothered by the sunlight which only
reached them in their snug snow-burrow as a dim filtered glow on their peaceful
faces.
Sam woke first, thinking he heard
someone calling his name. But it wasn't his master, who'd slept deeply in his
arms the whole of the night, lost in pleasant dreams that left a trace of a
smile on his lips. Frodo had fallen fast asleep at the conclusion of their
loving, and Sam had kissed him and cleaned him, taking him into his grateful
arms, watching his quiet face until the lantern finally sputtered and went out.
Not wanting to wake him now, Sam tucked his nose in Frodo's curls, breathing
deeply, as pleased as a hobbit can be waking to find his arms full of his
heart's every delight.
"Samwise! Are you in
there?"
Noodles! His old dad was calling to
him from somewhere in Bag End.
"Mr. Frodo, Mr. Frodo, wake
up!"
Frodo stirred, trying to bat at
Sam's hand. "No, Sam. It's early."
"My dad!"
Frodo opened an eye. "Your what?"
"He's in the hole!"
Frodo sat bolt upright, gathering
the sheets to his bare chest, as Sam did likewise.
"Are you sure?" he
whispered. "I don't hear anything."
"Mr. Frodo, can you hear
us?" They both jumped. The muffled call came from up the smial. It sounded
like Nick Cotton.
Frodo relaxed and fell back into the
pillows, groaning. "It's just the chimneys, Sam. Sound carries. Tell them
to come back later; we don't want to be rescued."
"But, Mr. Frodo, my dad's up
there," Sam whispered, leaning over Frodo who was stretching into a lazy
yawn. He pulled Sam down on him and wrapped his leg around him, nuzzling his
ear, nibbling the tip invitingly. "But..." Sam tried to protest.
"Hullo! Can you hear us?"
"Hullo!" Calls were coming down several chimneys at once now,
including the one in their room. But Sam couldn't tell rightly as Frodo was
kissing him, hard.
Frodo grumbled and tore his lips
from Sam's long enough to sit up and shout, "Go away! We don't wish to be
rescued today. Come back tom–" Sam clamped a hand over his mouth, but
Frodo only laughed, grasping his palm and licking...
"Mr. Frodo, was that you? Aye!
He's down here, Gaffer! Have you seen Sam, Mr. Frodo? We found his cloak and
gloves up here."
Sam took Frodo's chin in his hands,
shaking his head at the devilish look gathering in Frodo's eyes. "Don't
you dare."
"Sam, you're no fun,"
Frodo said with a pout, crawling around him over the bedsheets to shout at the
fireplace. "Yes! I have! He's in good hands! Very good...
ouch!"
"What was that, Mr. Frodo? You
say Sam's down there with you?"
Frodo turned to give Sam a wicked
look, rubbing the spot on his backside where Sam had pinched him. "You'll
regret that," he said quietly, giving Sam a look that made him consider
sending the rescue party packing after all.
But there wasn't much choice in the
matter a second later when a burst of light streaked down the smial from the
parlour, accompanied by a rapping on the glass. They'd dug out the front
window. That got them moving, up and dressed – Frodo dashing off to his bedroom
for a robe. Sam had his buttons buttoned in most the right places and one brace
clipped by the time old Tom, Jolly and Nick and Sam's Gaffer crawled in the
front window, which Frodo regrettably had left unlatched the night before.
"I see yer all right
then," said the Gaffer, eyeing Sam's borrowed clothing with suspicion.
"But tell me Samwise, how'd you get in here, the first place?"
Now here's as good as any place to end this tale as
Bag End's numerous residents will be streaming back in the smials soon enough.
But leave it to say, after that day Frodo Baggins didn't think so carelessly
about the weather, and Sam Gamgee thought twice about walking out into
snowstorms. Both had a good laugh and many more stolen evenings together in a
shared bed with a lit fireplace before they got themselves all tied up in some
nasty business with a wizard and Bilbo's old magic ring, which sent them both
over the sea after a time never to be heard from again. But that's another tale
from a long time ago, and one would probably rather hear what happened later on
that day of the rescue, so we'll leave with that.
After tea and some fresh-baked
scones (courtesy of Sam), Frodo Baggins saw his guests on their way back out
the window to continue their digging efforts further up the Row. To his
disappointment, Sam went with them.
"There's a job to see to, Mr.
Frodo," he said with a regretful shrug as he stepped out into the snow.
So Frodo went back to bed and slept
half the day away until Sam returned in the afternoon, dressed and washed, to
draw the curtains back on the cleared window in Frodo's bedchamber. He whistled
a pleasant tune before he bent to his master's ear and whispered, "Wake
up. Mr. Frodo, wake up. Your bath is ready!"
