Chapter 1
Here I am sitting alone in my room again; I don't understand what I did wrong today. Why are they still picking on me? All my friends are gone except for Selena but she isn't there because she is too busy filming and I understand that but why can't I have someone there for me? I get up off my floor and look in the mirror "is what they said true?" I ask myself out loud.
"Am I really fat?" I say as I pull up my shirt to expose my stomach. I had never really wanted to think about it. I always try and forget what they say but it was NEVER that easy.
I just don't understand why they need to always be bullying me, there are more people in my school I'm not the only girl you can go after. Ok I know bullying is not a good thing but can you blame me for wanting it to happen to someone other than myself?
I go and sit back down on my bed, why is there even a mirror in my room all it makes me wanna do is break it and use the biggest piece and cut. My vision is getting blurry now; guess I didn't notice I was crying until a tear hit my hand.
I am SO tired of being called a fat whore every day, ok I have dated ONE guy and yes he broke up with me and started rumors but that's what they are RUMORS nothing else!
Turn around and look under my lamp that's on my nightstand, I'm tired of trying to resists I'm done!
Just as I'm about to pull the blade into my wrist I heard my phone start buzzing.
One new text message: Selena
Hey Dem how was your day today hope things are getting better XX
Do I lie and say yea it was way better or do I just tell her what really happened?
I'm so conflicted and I just don't know what to do anymore!