Diary entry: Friday, September 8, 2017
Why am I writing in a diary so suddenly? I don't know...I wonder why too. Maybe because I want to share my feelings and thoughts with someone. Or maybe because when I grow up and when I forget some of the memories, my diary will remind me of them. There are a million reasons why someone writes a dairy so perhaps, my reason is just like everyone else's.
But before I really start writing, I want to tell you about me. My name is Erza Scarlet, 19 and a student at Fairy Hill High School. I have no friends because I'm an introvert. I'm fine with it though. I've become used to it by now but yeah...There are times when I wish I had friends...I tried to change myself, but I couldn't. It's hard and it hurts. I'm good at studies but that doesn't make me popular unlike this girl named Lucy who is cute, intelligent and has a much higher IQ than me. I want to be friends with her too.
I have something to confess. It's not something I'm comfortable with writing in here but I want to write it. After a few years I want to read this diary again and recall this moment.
I was in the Cafeteria, eating my bread when someone knocked on my table. I looked up in surprise and saw the most alluring eyes I have ever seen in my life. They were blue in color. Like the ocean and the sky. "Erza Scarlet, right?" He asked, and I nodded. I didn't know who he was. I had never seen him before, but he was wearing our school's uniform. Then something happened...It was so unexpected. It was so scary. He leaned in forward and kissed my cheek.
My mind went haywire. My eyes turned blurry and my body became warm. Everything around me disappeared, except him. I couldn't do anything. My body froze, and my heart raced. These strong feelings were new to me. But I felt afraid and suddenly, I wanted to hide. I wanted to run away and vanish.
He turned around and walked to his friends who were sitting in a group. I realized that it was a rubbish bet and that I was just being used as a toy. The boy was laughing as well. His laugh pierced through my ear and for some reason it hurt. I liked the feeling, but I also felt pain and anger. This stranger...he was just like everyone else. Just like every single person.
I skipped a class and ran back home. I'm now locked in my room. I wish I could tell mom and dad what happened, but I won't be going to the grave unless grandma comes which is next week. I told my room-mate Levy about today and she said to forget what happened. She said that these things happen all the time and that I shouldn't take it to heart.
But, how can I do that? I have already taken it to heart and that memory keeps flashing before my eyes every second of the day. I can't stop it.
Or maybe...I don't want it to.