Cat shot Vincent and that was the last time she had seen him. It has been two weeks and there has been no word from him. Catherine is determined to move on but with unexpected news waiting in the wings it proves to be harder than she ever thought. Can she do what she knows she should do? Or will she do what her heart tells her to do?
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Chapter one: Surprise!
Catherine stood looking out the window in her bedroom. It was late and she had promised herself that tonight she would not do this. She would not look out this stupid window in hopes to see Vincent sitting on the stairs of the fire escape. Yet here she was doing just that.
Every night for the last two weeks she would come home from work and open the window just to stare out of it. Tonight she stood hugging herself due to the cold. They predicted that tonight it would snow, yay.
"Vincent," She whispered out loud. She closed her eyes feeling the fatigue take over. So tired, she has been the past two weeks. She had not slept well knowing that she shot Vincent. Knowing that she would never see him again. Things were over. Done.
She supposed she should be happy about this. After all the past year and a half has been one big roller coaster. She should be happy to finally be off of it. However, the truth was she didn't want off. She never really did. She had her doubts and fears, but that is how it is with any relationship.
After a few more minutes, she closed the window and lay back on to her bed. She told herself she would just lay for a moment, but the moment she closed her tired eyes she fell in to an uneasy sleep.
"Do you think she is really okay," Gabe asked Tess before she could leave for the night.
Tess turned to him with a sigh. "She says she is fine. We have to believe her," Tess said giving him a look telling him she didn't believer her.
"But you do not believe that do you? "
"Look I don't know what to believe. Sometimes she seems okay. Others I feel like she needs to be in a patted room. But the point is there is nothing we can do to help her. She is in mourning. To her it is like he is dead," Tess said patting his shoulder. "Night. "
Gabe nodded as Tess left. He looked down at his watch it was too late to go to Catherine's tonight but he was going to bring her breakfast in the morning. Maybe she would talk to him. He needed her to talk to him. He was going crazy not knowing if she was truly okay. All he really wanted to do was hold her tight and assure her she would get through this and when she did he would be here to put her back together.
"Tess what are doing here," J.T asked as Tess pushed passed him into the house.
"Sure come on in," He said rolling his eyes. Really he should be used to this by now.
"Have you heard from Vincent," She asked looking around as if he were hiding Vincent somewhere.
"No I told you. I have not seen him. He is MIA." J.T said.
Tess sat down with a huff. She hid her face in her hands. She felt so helpless. "I am not sure how Cat is going to get through this. She says she is doing fine, but I don't buy it."
"There is really nothing we can do for her. She is going to have to let him go. She has not choice. She did shoot him."
"Yeah to stop him from killing a human being." Tess snapped in Catherine's defense.
"I know, I didn't mean anything by it. I was just saying it is best for now for them both to have space. Where ever he is he is there for a reason.
Tess gave J.T a suspicious look. "Are you sure there is nothing you need to tell me?"
"I know just as much as you do, Tess."
Tess looked him over for a moment. He seemed to be telling the truth. "Okay." She said standing. "I have to go. It's late and I have an early shift." With that Tess left.
J.T took a sigh of relief. She made him nervous and when he had to lie being nervous did not help keeping the lie straight.
Catherine sat at her desk looking at her computer but saw nothing. She was so tired she felt like she was going to pass out right there.
Last night she had a dream that Vincent had not survived being shot. He had died alone and cold. The dream shook her to the bone. She wished she could at least know if he was okay. She wanted to know that he was alive. Even if that meant he was staying away on purpose. Even if that meant he was happy with Tori.
The thought made her angry. She had been through hell and back for Vincent and this is how he thanks her? She shook her head. No, she had lost her Vincent months ago. She was foolish to believe that the new Vincent could ever lover her. She should have accepted he was gone months ago.
"Cat. Earth to Catherine," Tess' said waving a folder in front of her face.
Cat blinked a few times bringing herself back to the present. "What," She asked as if she was lost.
"We cough a case," Tess said motioning for Catherine to fallow her.
Catherine jumped up grabbing her jacket. She numbly followed Tess from the precinct. She was trying to get her body to wake up but it seemed she was just too tired.
"Hey can you drive? I am afraid I will fall asleep at the wheel."
Tess looked at Catherine. "You not sleeping well," She asked taking the keys from Catherine?
Cat shrugged. "Just don't seem to be getting enough sleep. I feel like a zombie."
They both climbed into the car. Without a word Tess started the car and pulled into traffic. She took a few glances at Catherine who was nodding off. "Hey are you sure you are okay?"
Catherine jumped slightly. "Yeah I am fine."
Tess gave Catherine her 'I do not believe you' look. "Maybe you should take a few days off. You know, get some rest."
"Tess I am fine okay? Besides I don't want to sit home and do nothing."
They rode in silence for the rest of the ride. Catherine was not in a chatty mood and Tess was trying to think of a way to help her. Once there they both went into cop mode. It was a small blessing in Cat's eyes.
"What do we have?" Cat asked the cop who stood in front of the old-looking building.
"Looks to be a lovers quarrel gone wrong. The upstairs neighbor called it in because of screams." The cop said looking a little green.
Tess and Cat made their way up the old stairs because the elevator was out-of-order. It was easy for them to find the right room. It was flooded with cops and forensics.
They walked in and the smell of blood hit Cat like a ton of bricks. She had to stop to catch her breath. The smell filled her nose and it seemed to sting a bit. After a minute she went to where Tess was looking down.
A woman in her mid thirty's was laying on her back staring at them with dead eyes. Her blood came from the wound on her stomach and drench the carpet beneath her. Nausea hit her has her head spun. She stumbled then fell to the floor.
Catherine opened her eyes quickly. She had expected to see Tess and some cops looking down at her but she saw J.T and Gabe instead. She felt confused. She tried to sit up but her head hurt so she laid back down.
"Hey. You took a hard fall." Gabe said in a coo. "How are you feeling?"
Cat to a second to answer, "Okay. My head hurts some. What happened?"
"Tess said you fainted when you saw the body." Gabe said in a tone that confused her.
"What? No that couldn't be it. I have seen worse than that." She said not sure what was going on with her.
The nurse walked in then. "You are up." She said going to Cat. She looked through the chart before turning to the guys and asking them to leave for a moment. The nurse smiled at her. "You are free to go. You have no major injuries. The doctor says no driving and that if you have a headache that does not go away within two hours to seek medical attention."
"Okay" she said standing slowly. She gathered her clothes and put them on.
"How are you feeling?" The nurse asked once she was done.
"I have a small headache but I will be fine." Cat said not wanting to be stuck here.
The nurse handed her her discharge papers and a few prescriptions. Catherine looked trough them and paused at her last prescription. "Prenatal vitamins?" She said to the nurse confused. "I am not pregnant."
The nurse went to Catherine chart again taking a minute to look through it. "It says here your pregnancy test was positive. I am sorry I thought you knew. We are in the middle of shift change."
Catherine took her chart from the nurse to look it over herself. All her information was correct and where it said HCG test there was the word positive next to it. Cat stood in shock as she gave the chart back to the nurse. She numbly thanked her and walked from the room.
She slightly remembered Gabe and J.T calling after her as she walked past them and into the elevator which closed quickly behind her. She remembered leaving the warmth of the hospital into the cold city air.
She knew it had taken her longer to get home then it felt. Everything looked different as she climbed the stairs to her apartment. She hardly remembered opening her door and stripping off her clothes.
As she stood in the hot stream of her shower her numbness seemed to rinse away. Fear took its place and unable to hold back any longer Catherine cried out loud for Vincent.
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