AN: The song is Melissa Etheridge's 'Watching You'. I own nothing but the angst and the unrequited feelings of a lonely CSI. I haven't seen the CSI season 6 finale yet but from what I've read about it, it describes that something is going on between Sara and Grissom. Here's my take on it.
AN (take 2): My first song fic… NO FLAMES!
Watching You
That's a good question
Why am I standing out here alone
I guess I don't know enough to come in from the rain
I was watching your window
From here below
I think I just might stay here all day
Cause I gotta do something
There's this song a friend of mine used to play. It makes me think that this song describes exactly how I feel about a person I work with. We've had this thing going on where we would fight and bitch at each other and now I know that these feelings go way deeper than irritation and hostility.
If I can't love you
I don't want to love you
If I can't hold you
I don't want to be thinking of you
And if you don't want me
I don't want to want you
And if you won't see me
I don't know what to do
But oh keep watching you
Until I see right through
Oh I keep watching you
I know that I started it and that it's my own fault that now she's dating or sleeping with Grissom. I just can't help but feel that she's dating him for the wrong reasons.
You could throw me down a cigarette
I smoked my last one quite a while ago
No I gave it to the man that swore he had no need
You know sometimes if I listen real close
I can hear the dark side of the moon
And there's always yesterday's Times if I care to read
And I gotta do something
What those reasons are I have no idea but I just have this feeling, you know like a woman's intuition thing. You see we get along okay now but there was a time when I couldn't stand her, I still can't sometimes, but now, now I think I'm in love.
If I can't love you
I don't want to love you
If I can't hold you
I don't want to be thinking of you
And if you don't want me
I don't want to want you
And if you won't see me
I don't know what to do
But oh keep watching you
Until I see right through
Oh I keep watching you
You just don't see me looking, I mean a girl can't be too obvious when looking, right? Especially when the one you're looking at is attached to someone else.
Sure I'm alright
No I'm not very cold
Every now and then I can feel the subway heat
So go on inside
I'll leave you alone
Anyway Bogart's on in the window down the street
And I gotta do something
Well from now on I, Catherine Willows, swear that I will stop watching my one true desire. Oh who am I kidding I will always be watching you, those lips, those incredibly dark eyes. I'll always admire that way you walk, sometimes confidently; sometimes hesitantly, but I'll always watch from afar.
If I can't love you
I don't want to love you
If I can't hold you
I don't want to be thinking of you
And if you don't want me
I don't want to want you
And if you won't see me
I don't know what to do
But oh keep watching you
Until I see right through
Oh I keep watching you
I'll always keep watching you Sara Sidle.