I NEVER SAID HOW SORRY I AM

"Clearly, I was betting on the wrong horse!"

And as always Sam saw Ruby walk away, like she always does. She yells, makes a point and then runs away. Sam couldn't handle it anymore and stood up.

"I am tired of this Ruby!"

He yelled at Ruby and she stood still and turned her head, that made her hair flow. She narrowed her eyes and did not say anything and just waited for Sam to continue.

Sam wanted to say more, but couldn't because he could not make her feel guilty. Even though she has been a pain in the ass, she saved him and his brother a couple times. So he opened his mouth to say something, but then closed it again and looked down.

"Whatever Sam…"

And just as arrogant as always, she closed the door not that quietly. What Sam did not know was that Ruby sighed when she closed the door and actually regreted that she did not wanted to know what he was tired of. But she got to keep her game face on, she can not show that she is actually breaking apart.

She took a deep breath and disappeared.

It has already been 2 hours since Ruby left, and 6 hours since Dean left. Sam grabbed his cell phone and called Dean.

"Dean. Where you at?"

"Sammy. You never know who I ran into…?!"

"Who?"

"Jo… You know, Ellen's Jo."

"How is she? Everything alright?"

"Yeah, yeah. We're fine, Sam. I got to hang up now."

"Kay, bye. Ow wait…"

Dean hung up.

"…when you're going to be back?"

Sam exhaled and turned on the television. Nothing was on, so he turned it off again and started to lay down on his bed in the motel they got in yesterday. Before he knew, he already fell asleep.

It was already dark outside and the moon was shining brighter than the sun did that day.

Waking up at 3 AM is the cost of falling a sleep at 7 PM, Sam opened his eyes and saw that Ruby was sitting on Dean's bed in the motel.

"Good morning, Sleeping Beauty."

Was the first thing Sam heard, and Ruby stood up and walked to Sam. She looked him in the eyes, she looked angry and irritated.

"Why are you here, Ruby?"

Sam got up and grabbed a beer and he made a gesture if she wanted too, but she shook her head as a "no". Sam sat down on a chair at the table that was placed in the corner of the room.

Ruby grabbed a chair and joined Sam at the table and grazed through her hair. She closed her eyes and did not enjoy the silence that fell between them.

"Honestly, I don't know!"

She said with her irritated voice and tried to stay on her chair but couldn't and stood up and walked across the room.

" But you said that you were tired of it and now I want to know what and why?!"

Sam tried to stay calm and drank his beer. He so hoped that she wouldn't confront him with this, because he regrets that he said that. He looked at her and Ruby looked back with a face that she wanted an answer.

"Don't you dare saying that you are tired of hunting?! I saved you a million times, and if you are now tired and not wanting to continue then I did that for NOTHING! So don't you dare…"

Sam got intimidated and he knew that it wasn't the best time to spill it but he didn't want Ruby to shout anymore so he cut her off.

"I am tired of you saving us the whole time…"

Sam said with a calm voice and wanted to drink his beer but it was already empty.

"O my God. You got to be kidding me…"

Ruby's temper is getting worse and she made fists out of her hands.

"Let me finish… I appreciate, we appreciate that you are saving our asses the whole time! But I have got to learn this on my own. Dean won't be here soon anymore and there is a big chance that you won't make it through all this alive."

Ruby's tension in her face was gone and let herself fall on Sam's bed. She did not respond and Sam did not continue. The silence became awkward until…

"Where'syour brother?"

"He ran into someone yesterday."

"Mmm, okay…"

She answered with no emotion in her voice, and if Sam did not knew better her voice actually sounded quite beautiful.

Sam walked to Dean's bed and he lay down. They both were on their backs, arms under the heads, looking at the ceiling.

Even though they did not talk, this silence was way different than the previous one. They actually were enjoying their company.

"Sam… I never said how sorry I am for you losing your mother, father and your girlfriend."

Sam turned his head and saw Ruby staring at the ceiling. He looked at her leather jacket, jeans and her brown boots. He could not believe that Ruby was actually, honestly feeling sorry for him.

"Thanks."

Ruby turned her head and they looked at each other and they exchanged a quick smile, and got back at admiring the ceiling.

"What about you?"

Sam asked politely, this time not looking at Ruby.

"What about me?"

"Is your family still alive?"

Sam hesitated and did not ask Ruby if she had a boyfriend or has a boyfriend. Ruby sighed and threw her right foot on her left foot.

She wasn't sure what was going on here, but she appreciated that someone was asking about her life. Nobody asks her.

"I don't know. I ran away when I was about 16 years old."

"Why?"

"My mother was a drug addict and my dad was never home. When he was, he always was drunk and starting hitting everything that could be hit."

Ruby's angry voice where Sam was gotten use to was now fragile. He could feel the sadness in her voice. His arms wanted to give her a big hug, he wanted to comfort her and make her feel better, because he knew she needed that and he also needed some "human" comfort.

"I'm sorry… I didn't mean to…"

"It's okay. I appreciate it that you're interested in me. You might be the only one."

She turned her body and lay down on her right side, so she was facing Sam. When Sam turned his head he saw that her face was a sort of lighting up.

"No problem."

After "their moment", Sam got up and walked to the fridge. He opened it and bend his knees because he is to tall to see what's in it when he is just standing up. Ruby was looking at him, and couldn't keep her eyes of him. After she realized what she was doing she shook her head, and couldn't understand what was going on in her head.

"You want some breakfast?"

Sam asked with a smile. Ruby got up and took place on the chair she left earlier.

"What are you serving?"

"Not much. We got beer for drink, I think we have a bag of KitKat's and since Dean isn't here, 2 old hamburgers I got yesterday."

Ruby grinned and pointed to the bag of KitKats that Sam was holding up in his right hand.

"Enjoy!"

And they both sat down and enjoyed their not so fancy breakfast.