AN: another Leddie fic for all of you HH lovers out there! Hope you enjoy! Don't worry, I'll be updating the other Leddie fic of mine soon!

Blur of the Stars

Chapter 1: Losing Yourself

"I can't believe we're having this same fight," Loren shook her head, folding her arms across her body, sighing in exasperation, "what do you want from me, Eddie?"

Eddie shook his head, throwing his hands up in the air, "I want you to be true to who you are, Loren! This isn't you, none of it is. You know that."

Loren glanced at herself in the mirror, but turned back to face Eddie. She had changed so much over the past few weeks it was ridiculous. Loren stopped talking to Melissa. She had tried to warn Loren about Kelly just using her so she could change her and make her into something she wasn't, but Loren wouldn't hear any of it. Kelly had been her manager for years, so Loren just assumed Melissa was lying. Loren cut Melissa out of her life and hadn't spoken to her since. Loren had listened to everything her manager said. She changed her sound, her look, and even let a writer into the studio with her. Now, she was starting to become exactly the person that Kelly was changing her into. She was distant from her friends, family, and even Eddie didn't get to see her as much as he used to.

"I have to do this," Loren pleaded, "you have to understand that. Kelly's my manager."

Eddie sighed, running a hand through his hair, "I do understand that, but I need you to understand that none of this...fame, fortune, success, means anything if you aren't true to yourself."

They were fighting, again. It seemed like all they ever did was fight, but Loren never truly listened to what Eddie was saying. She was changing, truly changing herself because of what Kelly was telling her. Kelly was her manager and Loren had to listen to what she said. She knew what she was doing, even if Eddie seemed to disagree.

Loren sighed, walking to the door and opening it. She angrily gestured to the door, something she had never done before. Eddie stood in the same place; a little shocked at how Loren had become such a different person. Despite what he thought, he wouldn't give up on her. Even as Loren slammed the door and began to yell at him, Eddie vowed to himself that he would never give up on her.

"You never listen to me, Eddie! This is what I want."

"Really? This whole edgy persona is what you truly want?" Eddie looked her up and down, not quite believing her as he began to gesture his hands at her new style "if it is, then I never knew you at all."

Loren groaned in frustration before starting to yell, "Then just leave! I can't do this anymore. All we ever do is fight. I'm tired of fighting, Eddie."

Neither said anything for a few seconds, both hating how this was literally the same fight they had almost everyday. Except for once, Loren had had enough. She angrily grabbed her purse off the couch and threw it over her shoulder.

"Fine. If you won't say it, then I will. I'm done." She announced, looking Eddie straight in the eye. She quickly turned away and walked right out of Eddie's door, leaving a shell-shocked Eddie in her wake.

Crying as she made her way onto the elevator, Loren couldn't help but break down. She pulled the red button that stopped the elevator and slid to the floor. She couldn't believe that it had come to this. She never thought she would be the one to walk away from Eddie. Sobbing, she let herself lose it for merely a minute before quickly pulling herself together. She fixed her makeup before pushing the button to allow the elevator to move again.

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It had been weeks since either of them had seen each other. Loren was in her dressing room, getting ready to go do another show just a little outside of town when she found an old t-shirt that belonged to Eddie. She had always kept it with her because it still smelled like him and she would wear it while she was getting ready for a show. She immediately threw it in the box that was labeled 'Eddie's stuff' before continuing what she was doing. She couldn't stop thinking about him, although she couldn't say that she didn't try. She even tried dating other guys, but they weren't like him and when she noticed that, she couldn't stand being in the same room with them. Kelly was making her focus on work, but there was an ache in her heart that wasn't there before. She missed him so badly that it made her start to think that maybe he was right.

"No," Loren exclaimed, throwing the bowl of candy on the ground "Are you an idiot? I said blue, alright? I hate the green ones. They taste like shit,"

The assistant immediately ran out of the dressing room, causing Loren to sigh. She immediately looked in the mirror, eyes curious. There was a DVD taped to the mirror with a note. Half of her hoped it was from Eddie, but the other half knew better than that.

Loren picked up the note and read, Just watch it. –Melissa

She hadn't spoken to Melissa in who knows how long, but she watched it anyway. Loren pulled out her laptop and put in the DVD. A video of Loren and her rise of fame began playing. She smiled when she saw the part where she won Eddie's song contest. Unfortunately, the happy tone of the video didn't last for long. It went straight to a video of Kelly talking to a producer about how Loren and Eddie wouldn't make it as a couple for very long, because Loren was going to become someone different. Kelly explained on the video how she was going to change Loren so much that she wouldn't even remember what her old life was like. Loren couldn't believe it. Mel had tried telling her, but she didn't listen. That had been part of the reason why she hadn't talked to her. She had trusted Kelly and now she felt like an idiot. Kelly had been playing her the entire time. Loren angrily ejected the disc from her laptop and stood up. She had to find Kelly... this had gone on way too long. Fueled by anger, she marched out of the room to find Kelly.