Disclaimer: I don't own anything Harry Potter related, and I don'town the song, which is God's Top Ten by INXS
Dedication: This is dedicated to all the people who have lost someone.
Remus sat as his table, staring at the wood grain. He felt so empty. Like nothing was inside him. He was an empty shell. The letter was right in front of him, with tear droplets shining on it, reflecting the light from the fire. The letter that told him that his friends were gone. He had only seen James yesterday. He could still see his happy face, grinning at him as he drank his butter beer.
Romance is gone, he's drifting with the stars
Lyric in his pocket, little girl in his heart
Remus felt the tears run down his face as he remembered James, and how in love he had been. He didn't think he'd ever seen someone so in love as James was with Lily. He couldn't believe James was gone. He'd spent so many years with him, and now he was just… gone.
When you hear his songs on the radio
I don't need to tell you what you already know
He's in God's top ten where heaven never ends
Slowly, as the minutes passed, the thought of it all slowly dawned on Remus. His shoulders shuddered and he put his face in his hands. This couldn't be happening. It wasn't real.
You saw the world and the world saw you on the stage
Wild, wild, wild colonial boy
He remembered all the fun times they'd had at school together, causing mischief. How passionate he had been, and how he always seemed to make everything that little bit more bearable. He thought of all the nights they'd stayed up late, plotting a new prank. He stopped. Thinking about it was painful.
Roquefort le pont
Your gypsy heart is free
Pictures on the wall of your family
His eye caught the picture on the cupboard. It was all four of them when they were at school. The only family he knew now. He bit his lip as a fresh wave of tears threatened to erupt. It didn't seam real. It wasn't fair. James didn't deserve to die. No one did. How could this happen?
He's on God's top ten
Where heaven never ends
He's on God's top ten
James's face came to Remus's mind again. How he had always been so carefree, and how he never let things get to him. Remus couldn't think of a life without him, and the reality of having to face it was too much. It was all too much.
Baby's got mama's eyes; she was always beautiful
When you hear his voice, feel his arms around you
He thought of Harry. Now parentless. A child who would never know his parents, and how wonderful they were. That shouldn't happen. None of this should be happening. Harry didn't deserve that, Lily didn't deserve that. James didn't deserve that.
You remember momma smiling a daddy's little girl
Bad weather, cold media storm
The newspaper called out the headline of a rejoice, but Remus didn't feel like rejoicing. He felt cold. One of his best friends was gone, and there was nothing he could do. He felt helpless. Like when he was transforming. And the grief was too much to bear.
He's on God's top ten
Where heaven never ends
He's on God's top ten
And Remus sat there, with no one to comfort him, his raking sobs echoing in the cold night.
A/N: For once I have nothing to say, except that I hope you'll review.