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Bella POV...
"Come on a walk with me..." Edward said unemotionally, he turned his back to me. He didn't wait for me to answer, to protest. This was bad, no. Let me rephrase that, this was very, very bad. Every part of my body screamed that something terrible was about to happen. We had only taken a few steps in the forest behind my house when he turned and looked at me with those dark hollow eyes. Some walk. Then he said it.
"Bella, we're leaving..."
"Why now, another year..."
"How long did you think we could stay in forks, Carlisle can't pass for thirty three now, people are going to start to notice that he isn't aging."
"That's okay I just need an excuse to tell Charlie" I looked at Edward he stared back coldly. I realised I had misunderstood. "When you say we..."
"I mean my family and myself..." he said each word separate to make sure I caught on.
The panic started to set in, my head was whirling, I felt dizzy, how was I supposed to live without him, he was my life, why couldn't he see that.
"Edward I'm coming with you! Wherever you go, I go" I say determined.
"No! Where we're going it isn't right for you"
"Wherever you are is right for me!"
"My world isn't right for you all your going to do is get yourself hurt!"
He walked over to a nearby tree and leaned on it his perfect chiselled face twisting into a look of guilt "What happened with Jasper can never happen again.."
"Edward it won't.." I rush as if I can't get it out quick enough
"How could you possibly know that...with us it only takes one paper cut ,one drop of blood and your life is in danger. You wouldn't need to watch yourself with your other friends. Whenever you are around me, you are in constant danger." He looks at me dead in the face with those cold eyes .
"You promised to stay here! With me!" I said desperately.
"As long as it was good for you!"
I shout at him "Is this about my soul Edward because it's yours already I don't want it if I can't be with you"
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me!" He says coldly and forcefully, looking at me to make sure I understand him. I was confused didn't he love me.
"You don't want me?" Confused by the way the words sounded together.
"No." He stared at me with no apology present in his eyes. They were Topaz , yes but they were no longer the molten liquid eyes I could melt into, they were now cold, distant, and when I looked into them they seemed to go on forever as dark and endless frozen depths.
I couldn't breathe. "Please don't...D...Don't go... please" Tears began to well up in my eyes making it hard to see. I blinked them away, trying to stay strong.
I looked into those dark eyes trying to see if he had truly made up his mind. He had. His eyes showed no evidence of backing out. My heart throbbed violently. My whole body feeling numb.
"I would like to ask one favour of you though" his eyes turning the soft molten topaz I had missed for days.
"Anything" I whispered.
"Please don't do anything stupid, or reckless" He ordered "Do you understand?"
I nodded, I didn't trust my voice. I would probably start sobbing right in front of him.
"For Charlie's sake, your all he has left." His eyes turned once again into the distant hard topaz eyes I feel haunted by.
"I will.." I whisper.
He seems to visibly relax at my words. But then he stiffens as the words come out of his mouth.
"I'll make you a promise in return, I won't come back, you won't see me again, I won't interfere with your life. I won't put you in danger anymore. It will be as if I never existed"
I must've have started shaking because the tree's seemed to be moving.
He smiles gently at me "Don't worry, your human give it time and you'll forget that all of this ever happened."
Didn't he understand that I couldn't forget he was my life now without him I'm nothing.
He takes a step away from me "I promise we won't disturb you again"
"Alice is gone?" I say my voice choking because of the emotions I'm feeling.
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her not to... it would be better if it was just me"
I'm so dizzy, it's hard to concentrate. So many things to absorb. The words bounce around my head but not really sinking in. I try to concentrate n my breathing, that's right in and out and in and out.
"Goodbye Bella" He says in a quiet voice.
NO. No ,no, no, no, no. This can't be happening, he can't leave me , he can't!
"Wait!" I manage to choke out. I reach for him but he grabs my wrists and pulls me closer. His lips touch my forehead for just a second and then he releases me.
"Take care of yourself, remember the promise" he breathes and then he is gone.
The leaves and tree's give no evidence that he ever existed, no footprints, no leaves out of place. He's gone. I repeat it to myself over and over.
I ignore my shaky legs and go after him. I walk and blunder through the trees. Nothing look's familiar. I scream out his name every so often it tears my heart even more. I trip over many logs, sticks and sometimes my own feet. My reason to live was gone he had left and he had shattered my heart. I couldn't tell how much time had passed. I finally tripped over a big log and I just stayed down and turned over and looked at the trees canopy. It was dark. Pitch black. It seemed only a minute ago hat Ed...Edw... HE had left me. I grabbed my sides as memories attacked me. Tears threaten to fall but since I'm alone I let them. I curl up into a ball as if trying to hold myself together I sob for god knows how long. I looked back up at the sky. Pitch black. I would've thought that there would have been at least the moon rays to shine though holes in the canopy, but tonight the moon was not there. I shivered, the air is cold. My teeth chatter as I try to warm myself. Ed... HE never felt the cold, so this would feel like nothing to him. Sobs rattle my body again. I heard someone shout my name, I should answer but what's the point without HIM there seems no point to do anything anymore. It was black for a long time and I finally found myself falling asleep. A while later the rain woke me up, it was light rain but it was still rain. I heard the calling again. I tried to breathe so that when I answered I at least sounded a bit normal. But as soon as I had let the breath out I heard a snuffling noise, surely there were no wild animals out here... I should let it eat for not bring good enough for HIM, poetic justice I think bitterly. The snuffling noise goes away, and I am left once again with only the rain as comfort. I saw a light approaching, I should be scared, but I'm not. The light presents itself through the bush as a lantern.
"Bella" an unfamiliar voice says. "Bella, my name is Sam Uley" It doesn't ring any bells. "Charlie sent me to look for you"
Charlie! The promise! My heart gives a violent throb.
Sam cradles me in his arms, I hang there limp. His long strong strides get us out of the forest n no time but I am surprised how far I managed to get into the forest.
"I found her!" He booms. I hear people murmuring things but the only voice I can make sense of at the moment is Sam's. "No I don't think she's hurt, She keeps repeating he's gone"
I bite my lip, did I say that?
"Bella, Honey?" a voice sounds
"Charlie?" I ask in a weak voice.
I feel myself being transferred to my dad's hold, he struggles a bit under my weight.
"Maybe I should hold her" Sam suggests
"No, I got her" Charlie manages to get out.
I feel myself being out into the car, I want to say sorry for worrying him but I can't find my voice.
"We're home honey"
I felt myself being put onto the couch "Charlie" I whisper in protest but he doesn't hear me.
"Blankets are on the top shelf" he says to Sam.
Sam lays the Quilt on top of me I grab the edge of the quilt and pull it closer to my skin and damp clothes.
"Bella?" A new voice sounds
"doc?" I ask
"Yes, are you hurt?" his voice full of concern.
"No..." I lie, my heart feels as though someone has stabbed me with a thousand knives.
"hmmmm..."he looks at me "Are you tired?"
I nod, and close my eyes.
The doc turns to Charlie "Just exhaustion, I'll be back tomorrow to check on her."
Charlie looks at the doc" Thank you and is it true , did they leave?" I didn't need to ask to know who they were referring to.
"Yes, Dr. Cullen said it was very short notice and it was an offer he couldn't refuse, he told me not to make a big deal out of it."
"A little notice would've been nice." Charlie huffs
I drift in and out of consciousness. I hear Charlie whisper thanks and goodbye to each volunteer as they leave. The phone rang a few times Charlie ran across the room to try to catch it before it woke me , Charlie usually answered with " Yes we found her, she got lost in the woods, she fine"
I heard the squealing of springs as Charlie settled himself into a chair. I look up to him.
"Did Edward leave you in the woods?" He asks with a clear undertone of anger.
"How did you know where to find me?" me voice sounded dead, it scared me.
"You left a note" He pulled a note out of his jeans, it had many creases to show it had been folded and unfolded many times. The messy writing close to mine but I knew who had really written it. It said 'Going for a walk with Edward be back in a little while –B'
"When you didn't come back I rang the Cullen's but I didn't get an answer so I rang the hospital but dr. Gerald said he had left, did they tell you where they were going?"
I shook my head.
"I want to know if Edward left you alone in the woods" he says forcefully.
I shook my head "He left me where the trail was , it was my fault I tried to follow him and I got lost" just thinking of him tore at my chest. "Dad, I can't talk about this anymore, I want to go to my room."
Before he could answer I was off the couch and up the stairs into my room. I saw the scrapbook I got for my birthday, I walked up to it and flipped to the page where I had a picture of Ed...HIM it was gone the only sign that it was there was the writing scrawled at the bottom of the page 'Edward 13 Sept' it said.
I felt the floor connect with my knees, my hands, my cheek. I let the pain take over me like a wave it consumed me, I did not resurface. The pain took me through many memories many more painful than others as it reminded I wasn't good enough for the creature that was Edward. The last memory that consumed me was him standing in the forest looking as handsome as ever then the words I had been fearing.
"I don't want you..."
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