A cool end-of-the summer wind blew across my body as I lid on top of a grassy hill over-looking the cabin and the lake. I heard light mismatched music coming from my guitar as Chance lightly swatted at the strings. I've been learning how to play to try and keep my mind off things. I stared up at the white fluffy clouds floating lazily by. I expected them to start turning into shapes of animals or something, but they all just looked like big fluffy piles of cotton. Reia disturbed my disappointment with cloud shapes by standing over me, blocking the sun from my face.

"I thought you were going to go see Severus today" Reia said with her hands on her hips.
"I changed my mind" I mumbled as I closed my eyes.
"Kate, you've been blowing this for two weeks now! You're going." She said firmly.
"Maybe tomorrow." I replied.
"Kate, stop moping around and just go see him!" Reia demanded.
"I'm not moping." I said as I crossed my arms.
"Yes you are, like a child!" Reia exclaimed.
"Well so what if I am, my dad died." I whined as I sat up.
"That was four months ago, it's time to pick yourself up." Reia said as she grabbed onto my arm and pulled me up.
"Reia, I really don't think I'm ready." I said as I pulled myself out of her grip.
"Ugh, you're fucking ready!" Reia said impatiently.
"Stop pushing me Reia!" I snapped.
"If I don't push you, who will?" Reia asked me.

I didn't reply.

"Now, are you going to go see Severus?" Reia asked me
"Tomorrow." I mumbled.
"Kate!" Reia snapped
"Please, just give me one more day Reia. I promise you I will go tomorrow." I pleaded.

I could see Reia thinking about if she should trust me or not.

"Fine. You better go tomorrow Kate Black" Reia scolded as she turned to get back down the hill to the cabin.

I sighed and looked back at the lake. I sat back down on my spot on the grass. I shooed Chance away from my guitar and placed in it my lap. I lightly plucked at the strings.

"Dust devil swept you away.
It's still not real.
Ash and Urn and silence.
Talk to me.
Dust devil swept you away.
My recollections are all that's left of you.
Swirl and sway without me."

I put my guitar down. I still wasn't ready to sing again either.

Of course, the day I decided to see Snape – the weather decided to turn from sunny with blue skies to pissing down rain.

I walked quickly threw the small town, my hood up. My heart was pounding faster than my feet. I stopped when I hit Spinner's End. The hard rain was beating down on me as I stood looking down the end of the street where Snape's house was.

Was I ready?

I was about to walk forward, when I saw Snape's door open and two women in hooded cloaks exiting his house. I quickly darted to a nearby house and pushed my body as close to the side of it as possible. I waited… the women passed me arguing.

"He made the unbreakable vow, we can trust him!" One voice said.
"There is still something off about him, Sissy. I still don't trust him." The other voice said.

Just then there was a 'pop' – and they were gone.

Unbreakable vow?

I peeked around the corner and saw no one else coming down the street. I still didn't move

Did I still want to go?

I looked up at the sky as it poured down on the earth around me. I pushed myself back into the pouring rain and walked down Spinner's End, stopping at Snape's house.

I love him.

I knocked quietly at the door.

"What did you forget, Narcissa?" A mousy looking guy smirked as he opened the door.

His smirk quickly faded when he noticed I wasn't this "Narcissa."

"Who are you?" He asked.
"I'm here looking for Professor Snape." I said to him, ignoring his question.
"You look familiar…Have we met?" He asked, his eyes squinting.
"Who is it now?" Snape said as he came to the door.

I removed my hood. I thought my heart was going to explode by how fast it was going.

What if he doesn't even want me here?

"Kate…" Snape said quietly.
"Professor Snape, I need to discuss some things with the Potions class this year." I lied.
"Of course… come in." He said as he stood aside to let me in.

I heard that mousy guy sniffing at me as I walked inside the house.

"You're services are no longer needed, Leave now." Snape said glaring at the man.
"It was a pleasure to meet you." The man smirked as he grabbed onto my hand.

I quickly withdrew my hand from his.

"Leave!" Snape snapped.

He flinched and bowed his head and he pulled up his hood and left. I turned to Snape.

"Severus… I know you might not want me here, but…"

Snape kissed me before I could finish my sentence.

"Kate, I will tell you anything you want to know. I will listen to whatever you need to say. But for right now…"

Snape swiftly picked me up in his arms.

"Severus!" I exclaimed as he started walking towards the bedroom.

He gently placed me on the bed and unbuttoned his pants. He kicked them off and climbed on top of me. His dark eyes flashed with fire. All my uncertainties suddenly felt like they just…washed away. I was weak and powerless against him.
I placed my cold, wet hands on his pale face and pushed my lips into his. He slid his hands up my sides and to the front of my robes. I slid my hands from his face and starting unfastening his robes as well. We were frantic to get each other's clothes off. I lifted myself up off the bed a few inches to pull my robes and shirt from over my head. I felt his hands slide up my back and unclasp my bra. He kissed my neck as he slowly slipped my skirt and underwear off. I ran my hands up his bare chest. He pushed his lips back into mine passionately as he pulled my knees up. I wrapped my legs around his hips. I bit into his lip as he entered me. His lips didn't leave mine as he pushed slowly inside of me. I savored the taste of his lips, how I missed them. A moan escaped from my lips as he slowly pulled out and back in again. Our lips stayed connected as he started going harder, faster. Every stroke felt so amazing. It's been so long, and it felt so incredibly good. I couldn't stop myself as I tensed up as I hit my peak in my orgasm. Snape slowly pulled his lips from mine as I tried to catch my breath.

"So soon?" He mocked as lightly kissed my neck.

I gripped my legs tightly around him and flipped him down on the bed and climbed on top of him. I didn't say a word when I lifted myself up and slowly started to lower myself on his hard dick. His gripped my hips as I slowly lifted my hips back up. He trusted into me as I lowered myself back down on him. I leaned back, sticking my breasts out. The way his cock was going in me, hit a spot that that sent shivers up and down my spine. I couldn't hold back my moans as every stroke hit just the right spot. I ran my hands up my stomach and to my sensitive breasts. I wasn't going last too much longer. I felt Snape's fingers dig a little deeper into my hips. We moved faster together, and I was getting closer.

"I'm going to again…" I moaned.
"Thank-god, because I'm going to…" Snape replied.

I moaned loudly and Snape slowed his thrusts as we both rode out our orgasm. I lowered myself on top of him, still not taking him out of me. I nuzzled against his neck. He wrapped his arms tightly around me.

It wasn't until a while later I finally sat up.

"I'm going to make some tea. Want some?" I asked as I climbed out of his bed.
"Do you want to talk about anything?" He asked me, as I sifted through our clothing to search of something to wear to the kitchen.
"Tea first." I replied and I grabbed Severus' shirt and put it on.

I walked out to the kitchen. I put the kettle on the stove and pulled to cups from the cupboard. Snape walked out in just his boxers.

"Kate, there must be something you want to talk about." Snape insisted.

I didn't say anything.

I wanted to just go back to the way things were. Before Sirius died and before Snape and I got into our argument about Lily.

Snape didn't push me into talking. He stood their quietly as I said nothing. Our silence was finally broken by the loud whistling of the kettle. Snape picked it up and poured two cups of tea. He handed one to me. I wrapped my cold fingers around the warm cup.

"Do you want to talk about Sirius?" Snape asked me.

I shook my head.

"Do you want to talk about Umbridge?"

Again, I shook my head.

"Do you want to talk about anything that happened that night?"
"Actually, I do." I replied as I took a small sip of hot tea.
"I will tell you anything and everything you need to know." Snape said.

I inhaled deeply.

"Am I fired for punching Potter?" I asked

Snape smirked

"No, but Dumbledore needs to talk to you about it. I don't think he was too keen on you assaulting his favor student." Snape replied.
"Okay." I replied.
"Anything else?" Snape asked.
"Will you tell me the truth if I ask you something?" I asked
"Of course."
"Who were those two women that were here before I arrived?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.

Snape went silent.

"You said you would tell me the truth." I reminded him.

Snape placed his tea back on the counter.

"Those two women were Narcissa Malfoy and Bellatrix LeStrange." Snape replied quietly.

Bellatrix LeStrange…. The bitch that killed Sirius.

"Why were you with her and why didn't you kill her?" I asked furiously.
"Kate… it's not that simple." Snape replied.
"Severus, she killed him." I snapped.
"Kate, if I could do that, I would have." Snape defended.
"Why were they here?" I asked, believing Snape.
"Malfoy was given a task by the Dark Lord. His mother wanted me to look out for him this year." Snape replied honestly.
"What task?" I asked.

Snape starred at me intently.

"I'm unsure. They did not inform me of what the task is." Snape replied.

I remembered they were talking about some kind that vow.

"What's with the unbreakable vow?" I asked.
"The unbreakable vow is between Malfoy's mother and me. She wanted to make sure I would watch out for Draco." Snape said.

I took another sip of tea.

"What about Voldemort?" I asked.
"The Ministry finally believes that he is back." Snape replied.

I looked out the window to the pouring rain outside.

"There is something I need to talk to you about Kate." Snape said walking towards me.

I placed my cup on the counter next to his.

"Okay." I replied.
"This thing about Lily. You need to know that yes, I did love her. I won't lie to you about that, but that was a long time ago." Snape admitted. "But I promise you that when I look at you, I see you. Not her."
"I think I just needed the reassurance." I replied quietly.

Snape wrapped his arms around me.

"I should have never even questioned it." I added.
"Well, it's out now. Hopefully now we can move forward." Snape replied.
"I would like nothing more." I smirked

Snape ran his fingers threw my hair.

"I'm done talking about these things for today." I said as I rested my head on his bare chest. "Okay. Time's up anyways." Snape replied

I looked up at him

"Time's up?" I asked

"Yeah, you've been wearing clothing for too long." Snape smirked. "I don't even know why you bothered to get dressed."

I smiled.