Misunderstood is my life,
Being turned around in circles,
Happy is but an act I play
Which hides how I feel.
Sadness, madness is me.
Surrounded by a face,
Reality I hide from
Until the time is right.
Love and care
I long to feel
From a lover,
Not my family.
In my mind
Where noone goes
Is hiding someone,
Lost and scared.
To be understood
Is all I ask.
At an easy price
This does not come.
Should I, could I
Let someone in
And allow hurt,
As a possibility.
Scared, confused,
Lost and afraid,
Are all the feelings
I know like friends.
Contagious depression
Has not yet come.
All around, where I look
Happy faces lead the way.
Will I follow,
Only time will tell,
But that is the future
And this is the present.