This idea suddenly popped up in my head during the weekend and it ended up on Word somehow :)
I didn't beta-read it too closely so there might be some grammar flaws. Anyway, I hope you like it and please tell me what you think!
"Doctor Shepherd" Addison Montgomery stepped in front of her, immediately dragging her attention from patient forms to the sublime redhead who was occupying the space in front of her.
"Doctor Montgomery" Meredith smiled, trying to sound welcoming as her legs started to trip nervously in front of the attending. "Can I help you with something?"
She cleared her throat and clutched her fingers closely around the chart she was holding. "Actually, you can" Her straight expression changed into a small, wry smile. Meredith's eyes grew large, waiting for her to take lead of the conversation. The silence followed for another minute that seemed like a lifetime for Meredith, having to spend time talking to her husband's gorgeous ex-wife.
"I was wondering…" Addison slowly gave up the chart and showed it on the desk I front of her, "If you wanted a surgery. A C-section at noon"
"Oh" Meredith breathed, relief washing through her body. Every time she spotted Addison walk through the halls of Seattle Grace, and not to mention, every time she approached her, her body tensed. There was no reason for it to happen because Derek loved her and Addison had changed from being Satan to becoming quite a bearable person to be around, and they were perfectly capable of driving a friendly conversation together and…It was just some days. Like today. Meredith felt horrible, it was one of those days when her conditioner didn't do its job and her makeup was applied in a rush and she was fed up on aspirin because of a heavy nausea hanging over her, and that's when Addison Montgomery had to represent perfection.
She finally managed to pull together and flipped the chart open. "You want me to assist on a C-section? Thank you, Doctor Montgomery" She sent her a swift, appreciatively smile.
"Actually…" Addison changed her weight on her heels, "I want you to perform the C-section"
Meredith quickly faced her. "What? You want me to do a surgery by myself?"
"By yourself" She assured her, "I know it comes on a short notice, the patient got admitted last night because of pre-term labor but she's not capable to give birth the natural way. And you've been assisting me a lot lately, you've been gaining lot of valuable skills and knowledge in my field. I'm impressed. So I'm offering you a solo surgery"
"But…I'm not prepared… and what if I do it all wrong, what if I kill them both? Or cut into the baby? I've heard some surgeons accidentally harm the baby with the scalpel and it's more common that we think and I don't want to cut a baby…" Meredith rambled along
Addison laughed softly. "You won't kill them. You won't cut in the baby because you're trained by me and I don't do mistakes" Her self-assured smile made Meredith again feel like a flaw.
"I will be there and assist you, if anything goes wrong I'm right there. But you're the surgeon on this case, and you're responsible for bringing a healthy baby to the world."
She nodded slowly.
"Good" Addison swiftly smiled and turned her shaped figure for the end of the hospital hall, "I'll see you in surgery"
"Can you believe it?" Cristina moved in between George and Izzie, taking a seat on the bench in the OR gallery. "Montgomery asked Mer to perform a c-section and she said yes?" She handed George a water bottle and a bag with chips.
"I would be grateful. She's bringing a baby to the world. A new baby. A world's new citizen. It's amazing" Izzie's hand sneaked into Cristina's chips bag, catching some snack.
"It's an insult" She snapped her food away, "We're third year residents. I've been on Hahn's service for a week. Babies and hormonal mothers are for those who have no self-respect.
"You know" George added, "We're here on the attending's permission, including Doctor Montgomery. If she has reasons to not like you, she could easily throw you out of the program. And there will be no hearts left for Cristina Yang" He hummed
She ignored his last statement, "Oh, you want to become a vagina boy?"
"Dude, vagina boy?" Alex sarcastic voice was heard from behind and the laughter spread among the crowd. George sank lower in his seat.
"Twenty she pulls the whole thing off" Izzie closed the topic to start betting over Meredith's surgery.
"Forty she cuts into the baby" A random resident beside Alex joined in to the competition.
"Fifty the mother bleeds out" Cristina replied, running her fingers through her hair, attempting to put it into a French braid.
"Yang, I take that" Alex voice was again heard.
The loud voices immediately silenced the second Derek made his presence clear and walked into the gallery, bringing coffee and a stack of charts. "You're betting money over my wife's surgery?" He turned to Cristina with a raised eyebrow.
"Uhm…Yeah?" She hesitated, seeing her chance to sneak into a hardcore procedure. "Can I scrub in on one of your surgeries? Hahn won't let me. She's a wicked witch. She's being all mean because of her Callie problems and she punish me for it. You know what?" Cristina turned in her seat, "She's unprofessional. She's mean and unprofessional. She should be grateful to teach residents like me." Izzie and Alex shrugged. Derek watched her closely. "I cleared my schedule. Unless there's an incoming trauma later I don't have any more surgeries today"
Cristina narrowed her eyes. "Why?"
Derek repositioned himself as he took a sip of his coffee, exhaling out. "Because I'm going to watch my wife bringing a baby to the world for the first time on her own. It's the miracle of life" He smiled confidentially.
"You make me sick" Cristina grumbled in her seat. "It's a c-section. It doesn't deserve to be referred to as a "surgical procedure""
"Here she is" Izzie's voice lead the crowd's attention to Meredith, who was walking into the OR, dressed in a surgical gown, mask and cap. She held out her hands for the nurse to slip her glows on before approaching Addison, who stood beside the patient to comfort her. While talking to the patient, she took the time to look up at the familiar faces that met her gaze behind the glassed wall. Izzie's wide smile was agglutinated to her face while she raised hands to cheer at her. George put up a sympathetic smile and Alex wriggled his eyebrows playfully. Cristina's expression spoke for itself. Shocked and disbelieved, she motioned for her to escape the room and leave hormones and babies behind while she was to continue climbing further up the career mountain. Meredith shook her head in amusement and she couldn't help curling her lips into a wide smile behind her surgical mask. Those were her friends. Her closest friends. And then, beside Cristina, was Derek. He was here, supporting her. Her body felt warm and her skin prickled sweetly. Her eyes met his and he stared in amazement back at her. He pulled a black velvet box out of his lab coat pocket for her to see, and she immediately recognized it. It wasn't any kind of box, it was exactly the one that held her engagement ring and wedding band. Derek kept it safely for her while she would cut into skin and reach body parts, covered in blood.
"Doctor Shepherd?" Her focus left her dear ones and switched to the Addison in her front. Her eyes narrowed and she could see she was smiling, underneath the mask. "Are you ready?"
Meredith nodded determinedly. "I'm ready" She stepped closer to the patient. "What about you, Megan?"
"I'm ready" The pregnant mother inhaled a deep and nervous breath. "I'm so excited to see my baby. I'm going to officially become a mom today"
"Yes" Meredith smiled, "In about fifteen minutes you will officially become a mom. Let's get started, shall we?"
"Yeah, bring it on" Megan let out a shaky laugh.
The scalpel was neatly placed into Meredith's palm and she clutched her fingers around the steel handle. "You might feel some pressure and some tearing when I open up your uterus but you won't feel any pain. I want you to try and relax so I can get the baby out as soon as possible so your anaesthesia doesn't get the time to affect her. Okay?"
"Okay"
Meredith placed the scalpel over the woman's lower stomach and let it penetrate her skin. Blood tripled out from the newly made scission as she placed the scalpel back on the table beside her.
"Retractor, please" Meredith ordered the staff.
"Perfect scission" She heard Addison compliment her from where she stood behind, monitoring closely.
"Thank you, Doctor Montgomery" She couldn't help but feel bits of pride bubbling up inside her veins. She reached for the scalpel again and brought it closer to the woman's uterus.
"Remember to use a more careful pressure when you reach the uterus" Addison reminded her, "And make the scission horizontal"
She nodded as she again started to cut, lowering her hand a bit for the best angle. She could hear the small noise the scalpel made as it parted the skin and she was filled with the uprising effect surgeries like this had on her as she put the scalpel aside. "I can…I can…Doctor Montgomery, I can see the baby…" She stuttered, stricken with shock and amazement.
Addison's laugh was gently behind her. "You didn't count on that, Doctor Shepherd?"
"Yes…Yes, I did, but it's so unreal, it's…I see the baby…And the baby is perfect…"
Megan looked up at her in awe and expectation and Meredith was a wide reassuring smile back. She closed her hands around the tiny human and the buzz of the scalpel was replaced with cries from a newborn baby.
"She's got well-functional lungs" Addison stated with a smirk as Meredith cut the cord with a scissor, separating mother and child before she laid the tiny baby girl on Megan's chest, letting them bond again.
"Oh my god, that's my baby. She's beautiful!" Megan eyes began to flush with happy tears. Meredith's gaze got stuck at the sight of the happy, newly twined family until Addison cleared her throat and brought her back to work. "Doctor Shepherd, are you ready to close up?"
She nodded and gripped for the suture needle. Addison laid a light hand on her shoulder as she passed. "You did great" She lowered her voice, only for Meredith to hear before pausing next to the patient. "Megan, before we take her to the nursery, the pediatrician needs to check that she's as healthy as can be. Meanwhile, Doctor Shepherd will stitch up the wound and take you to recovery, and you'll see your daughter again there, okay?"
"Okay" She nodded and dried her wet cheeks with her palm. "Thank you, Meredith." She spoke, looking at Meredith, her eyes filled with gratitude.
Meredith grabbed a paper towel and dried away the last drops of water from her hands. She curled it together and tossed it into the bin underneath the sink. On her way out of the scrub room she tugged on the back of her scrub cap, loosening the ties.
Passing the hallways, she noticed an escort of doctor's, crowding down the stairs, one by one, from the OR gallery. "Hi, Mer!" Her eyes wandered to the top of the staircase to see Izzie descenting down. She hurried to catch up with her and threw an arm around her shoulders. "Congrats! You pulled it through! The baby was so cute!" She remarked, overenthusiastically.
"I know! It was…great! I never thought I would get this high while delivering a baby, but…I did!" She exclaimed, close to match Izzie's joy.
"You did great, Mer" She pulled out her arms and wrapped her into a tight hug. Two years ago, during her first year residency, those kind of acts were still unfamiliar to Meredith, but when she realized her one-night stand at Joe's was about to become the love of her life and they let sparky and cheery Isobel Stevens plan their wedding, and Derek's overdimensioned family took her by surprise and caught her in their wide embrace she realized it could have been worse. She curled her arms around Izzie's shape and let them rest on her back. Hugging was getting a daily routine to her. Even Cristina, who used to be kept on an arm lengths distance, had been able to not freak out during shared physical contact with her best friend. Her mother would turn around in her grave. Meredith was becoming soft. As she liked it.
"You were a rockstar inside that OR" Izzie said as she took off to the destination her beeping paper would lead her to. Meredith gave her one last smile, turning towards the OR schedule, awe in her eyes. Her surgery wasn't removed yet and, unable to hide it, she showed off a satisfied grin when she spotted her name written with a black marker. SURGEON: M. SHEPHERD
"Looks like someone knows how to praise herself" A familiar voice made her turn around and into the arms of her husband. "It's you!"
"It's me" He smiled sheepishly, watching her closely. "You did great in the OR today, Doctor Shepherd"
"Thank you" Her voice softened as she looked into his piercing blue eyes. "You were there. I'm glad you were there"
He raised his shoulders casually, but pride for her was openly beaming across his face. "It was my wife's first solo surgery. It's a special moment and that's why I want to invite my gorgeous, insanely hot wife out on dinner tonight. On the Space Needle" He specified.
Meredith frowned her brows together. "Space Needle? But that's for rich and snobby people…"
"We are rich people. Rich and kind people. And I booked a table"
"Why did you book a table at the Space Needle? We're not Space Needle people"
"Meredith…" His arms circled around her waist. "You were a surgeon today. You did the surgery all by yourself. You deserve some special treatment. And I hear the lobster is wonderful up there"
"You're lying" Meredith stated after a minute. "You have some other intentions in mind, don't you?"
Derek shook his head, pretending to be purely innocent and unknowable.
"I'm your wife, Derek. I have special wife senses and I know you're lying right now" She rocked back and forth on the heels of her Converse shoes, triumphant.
"Fine" He sighed, ashamed to be busted by his wife like that. It's been a while since you last wore that black, low cut black dress. It just…hangs there…You should wear it tonight…" His naughty grin glinted across his face.
"I see" Meredith nodded understandingly. "You want to see me in that dress and you're going to stare at my boobs all during dinner and as soon as we're back home, you're finding the first excuse to get it off me"
"Right" Derek said death seriously. "Maybe I won't even wait till we get home. The Space Needle has a lot of restrooms…I'm sure they could be quite useful…"
"Derek!" Meredith whispered angrily as a pair of gossipy nurses were passing them. "Forget it. We're already been through 'girl and guy in bar'-sex, 'pre-Addison'-sex, 'Hospital prom' sex- 'Break-up'-sex, 'S&M'-sex, 'House of candles'-sex-, 'Engagement-sex', 'Post-it-wedding'-sex, 'Real-wedding'-sex, hundred times of 'on-call room'-sex, 'every-single-room-in-the-house'-sex, 'A-quicke-at-Cristina's-and-she-still-doesn't-know-we-wet-out-her-couch'-sex, 'Thanksgiving-at-you-mother's-sex. There's hardly any place that's not listed in my head. We're not having Space-Needle'-sex too" Meredith stated strictly.
"Space-Needle'-sex…" Derek tasted the words out loud…"I like it…"
"No!" Meredith slapped his arm. "Forget it"
"But you're accepting my dinner invitation, right?" Derek watched her timidly.
"I'm accepting dinner. Without perks"
"We'll see about that…" He muttered sensually under his breath. "What are you doing now? We could sneak into an on-call room or my office for some fun…We could name it 'Meredith's-first-solo-surgery'-sex…"
"In your dreams, naughty boy. I'm going to check on my baby. She's in the nursery" Meredith eased out of his arms and twirled around in the opposite direction. Derek followed and grabbed her arm. "Technically it's not your baby, Mer. It's your patient's baby."
"I delivered that baby"
"And that makes you the baby's doctor."
"I want a baby, too" She began to pout playfully and lean into Derek's chest to seek comfort.
He wrapped his arms closely around her small frame and buried her nose into her hair as a wide smile came visible. "We'll make a baby. We'll make hundreds of them"
"Forget it. Two is more than enough"
"Five"
"Seriously, Derek? Are you planning to ruin my body?"
He chuckled into her hair. "I want a big family. Me and my sisters makes a bunch of five. I always wanted a brother, but growing up with four girls was good. I guess it have kind of made me the person I am today. Our family was close. When we become a family someday, I want our kids to get the same childhood as I got"
Meredith's fond expression faded dramatically at the sound of the word 'childhood'. "Yeah…" She mumbled, her voice deflating. All the time during her adulthood she had tried to get rid of old, bitter memories that were halfway vanished away from her mind, but it always stung hearing those words when they were brought up again.
"Meredith…" Derek looked deeply into her eyes. Sometimes she believed he could just as well get glimpses of her soul. He parted strands of her loose hair away from her face, and placed each of his hands on her cheeks. "I'm sorry" He lowered his voice, "I know this is still hard for you, but you will never redo your mother's mistakes. The day we become parents, I know you will be a great mother. You're not your mother and you never was"
"I know that" She said, almost inaudible.
Derek lifted his hand to let it caress her cheek tenderly. "Are you okay?"
Meredith persuasively nodded. "I'm okay" She balanced herself impatiently around him. "I have to go. I have…work"
"Okay" He silently nodded, not wanting to let go of her. "We're still having dinner?"
"We're still having dinner" She reassured him with a smile. "But we'll see about that sexy dress" Meredith turned on her heel, throwing him a last mocking glare as she took off.
Derek laid in bed, half naked, the bedcovers draped around his waist, showing off his bare and masculine chest. He tried to focus on the notes written in the medical journals in front of him, but he couldn't help stealing glares at his wife, sexy and newly showered, only wrapped into a soft, flannel towel. The papers ended up tossed to the floor the minute his total attention was drawn to her, walking into their bedroom and scooping her figure into the bed beside him. "Thank you for spoiling me tonight" She snaked into his arms, pearls of wet drops on her body melting onto his warm skin. He laid his hand on her shoulder, lightly massaging it while sharing his kisses down her neck. "I like spoiling you. I should spoil you more often. But now…" He couldn't hold back his grin, "I want some gratitude from you…And I know exactly how to get it…"
She squirmed alluringly in his arms as his fingers tugged on the tiny towel, loosening it from her body, exposing soft, flawless parts of skin. He turned her over grabbed her around her slim waist while smothering her stomach with deep kisses from him. Meredith laid her head back, breathing rapidly. A moan escaped her lips as his mouth closed the shape of her breast. "Derek…" She whispered, "I want you now but I just need to tell you something…"
He lifted his head and attention to her in wait for her to speak. "Okay. I'm listening" He supported his weight on his elbows on each side of her.
"What if we do something different?" She suggested. "I want the sex to be different"
"Different?" He raised an eyebrow, "How can we make it different? We're already having all kinds of sex…I don't…OH!" He suddenly interrupted himself as a new thought dawned in his mind, "Seriously, Mer? You don't think we're a bit too old and settled for that?"
"Too old and settled?" She shut up her body from the slack position on the bed, sitting up, slight alarmed. "Derek, we've been talking about a lot lately!"
"What?!" Confusion was written all across his face, "What are you talking about? We never talked about it before! Why would you need someone other than me?"
"But…" Meredith bored her teeth into her lower lip so it hurt, "You told me you wanted five…"
"Meredith, I only want you. You're handful enough as it is!"
She turned away from him, covering her shocked mouth with her hand, trying to make sense of him. She felt Derek's warm palm stroking upon her skin. "Why would you tell me if you don't want kids with me? All the time I thought…Even today you said..."
"Wait!" He held up his hand, trying to gain focus. "Why do you say that? You know I want kids with you!"
"Then why did you turn me down?"
Derek widened his eyes, realizing what she had not been talking about. "I thought you wanted…" He gulped, "A threesome…"
She clashed her hand on his. "Derek!" Disbelief spread across her face, "Could you, for one second, stop thinking about sex! Of course I don't want a threesome! I want us to make a baby! I wanted us to try for a baby tonight!"
Derek only sat there, lips parting and eyes wide. Meredith quickly rolled away, slipping the cover over her body. "Crap" She mumbled, "Just forget I said it…
"Meredith" He lent over her, embracing her from behind. "Of course I want a baby with you. I want five. The next thing on my list of our life together is to knock you up" His glorifying smile met her gaze as she turned to look at him. "You do?"
"Yes. But don't you think this is happening a little too soon? You performed a c-section today, and it was successful. You delivered a baby today. But having a baby is not like surgery. Don't you think you're a bit affected? Maybe we should give it some time? I'm more than ready to have a baby with you, but I want you to be, too"
"I know having a baby is not like surgery at all" She inhaled a deep breath. "But I want this , Derek. I'm a doctor. A surgeon. In three years I will be an attending. I have a great career, a safe job and so do you. And I love you. I love you more than anything. You're the only person I want to create a life with. We're able to give a child everything. That won't change in two or three more years. I'm scared to not become a good mother, but I want to know how to become one. And I have you by my side. I want a tiny little people I can love as much as a love you. I'm ready Derek. That surgery didn't make me ready. It made me realize I am"
"You're ready" He finally replied, looking at her in awe and admiration
"I'm ready" She stated. "And it might not work on the first try, but we could try…Let's call it 'Lets-try-to-make-a-baby'-sex" A grin appeared on her lips.
Derek placed her comfortably on the bed and rolled on top of her, muttering between soft kisses, "Let's try to make a baby"