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Amanda was sitting at her desk, doing paperwork. If she didn't procrastinate so much, she probably wouldn't feel like she was drowning in paperwork. For Amanda, a single page was too much paperwork, and she was always barely turning them in on time.
Detective Fin and Detective Carisi were also sitting at their desks, doing paperwork. They weren't swamped with it like Amanda was, but they liked to stay on top of it. Lieutenant Benson was in her office. She didn't have any paperwork to do because she always tried to stay ahead. Instead, she was going over case files, looking for links to any of their opened cases.
It had been an uneventful morning, and, because they worked in sex crimes, that was a good thing. It had also been a quiet morning. Lieutenant Benson had come to work after waking up on the wrong side of the bed. She was irritable, and no one wanted to be on her bad side, so they all tried to keep quiet. Amanda came to work late, and she was yelled at by the lieutenant for about five minutes.
Amanda was frustrated with her boss. The two had never really been on good terms with each other. For reasons unknown to Amanda, Olivia resented the young blonde from her first day on the job. As Olivia ranked up, things only got worse. Olivia now acted as though she were superior to the youngest detective. Amanda tried to respect her boss. However, she still always managed to find herself in some sort of trouble.
The tension between the two women did not go unnoticed by the guys. They were well aware that the two didn't get along. Detective Carisi chose to stay out of their bickering. He preferred to stay on everybody's good side. Detective Fin would intervene if he felt the lieutenant had gone too far, and he always had his partner's back. He was respectful towards his boss, but he also made sure his partner didn't feel alone.
Olivia wasn't purposefully bitter towards Amanda. She knew she was strict, and at times, harsh, but she never found herself to be unfair. If somebody had directly pointed it out to her, she may have seen it in hindsight, but no one did point it out to her. She subconsciously had a vendetta against Amanda. Amanda had taken the place of Elliot Stabler, and, while Olivia didn't mean to, she took out her pain on the young blonde.
Around one, Amanda started to feel hungry. She wanted to go clock out for lunch, but she had to inform her lieutenant first. She did not want to do that. The lieutenant had been irritable all morning, and Amanda didn't want to deal with her attitude. She was grateful when Fin suggested the entire squad go to lunch.
"Sounds good. Who's up for Italian?" Carisi asked, his dorky smile appearing.
"No one," Fin answered.
"Pizza sounds good," Amanda chimed in.
"I'm down," Fin agreed.
"Pizza is Italian food," Carisi retorted, a bit annoyed and a bit amused.
"Yeah, but I thought you mean that Italian place you made us try last week," Fin explained.
"What was wrong with that?" Carisi wondered.
"It tasted awful!" Fin stated as though the answer was that obvious. Amanda let out a giggle, finding the guys' bickering hilarious.
"Can you two stop fighting? That's all you do," Amanda laughed.
"That's all you and Liv do," Carisi retorted.
"Hey! She starts it," Amanda grumbled like a five year old. The three of them started laughing at her tone.
"Who starts what?" A new voice asked. Amanda closed her eyes and sighed, hoping Olivia hadn't heard the conversation leading up to that sentence.
"No one. We were just thinking about clicking out for lunch. Does that pizza place down the street sound good?" Fin asked, changing the subject. Amanda was so grateful to have him as her partner.
"Yeah, that sounds good," Olivia agreed.
"Okay. I just need to stop by the bank on the way," Amanda stated.
"Go to the bank after. I'm hungry," Fin argued.
"I have to get money," Amanda explained.
"I'll cover you, and you can pay me back after. We're not waiting for you to go to a bank to eat," Fin decided.
"All right then," Amanda smiled, amused at how hungry Fin was.
Because the pizza place was only down the street, the squad walked. They were seated immediately at a booth. Amanda and Carisi sat together, and Olivia and Fin sat together. Olivia was sitting across from Amanda, and the young blonde tried to avoid the brown eyes. Olivia could be intimidating when she wanted to be, and she was still annoyed that Amanda was late to work.
Fin tried to make conversation with Olivia, but it was obvious she was still in a mood. She answered in short replies and didn't make eye contact with Fin. No one knew why she was so irritable. Carisi and Fin assumed it was probably her time of the month, but Amanda didn't think so. She was sure Olivia just woke up on the wrong side of the bed-it happens. Amanda didn't think it excused her rude remarks, but she understood what it was like to be spoken to when you really didn't want to talk.
"Lieutenant, are you all right?" Carisi asked, deciding he could no longer ignore her obvious mood.
"Of course," Olivia answered, a bit taken back.
"You just seem upset about something," Carisi explained his reason for asking.
"Well, I'm fine," Olivia said, a hint of bitterness in her tone.
If anyone had bothered to pry, they would've known that Olivia was so upset because she had a nightmare last night. It was her first one in months, and she was emotionally drained and physically exhausted due to it. It was a nightmare about Lewis. That awful time took place almost two years ago, and Olivia had since been much better. However, their most recent case seemed to have triggered a nightmare. If anyone had bothered to pry, they wouldn't have judged.
However, nobody bothered to pry. Detective Carisi was still seen as the new guy. He didn't want to cause any problems between his lieutenant and his self. He figured her moodiness was a normal thing, and, at this point, it was.
She usually directed her anger at Amanda, but today, she directed it at everybody in the squad. She was annoyed with Carisi when he accidentally called her "Liv" instead of "Lieutenant." She was annoyed with Amanda for being late, and for just about everything else, but that was usual. She was annoyed with Fin, even though he hadn't done anything.
Detective Fin didn't pry because he knew sometimes people just had bad mornings. He didn't really suspect it was anything other than that. Besides, he didn't like pulling teeth for information. If Olivia wanted to talk, she knew he had ears.
Amanda didn't bother prying. Like Fin, she didn't suspect it was anything other than a bad morning. Even if she had, she probably still wouldn't have pried. The few times Amanda had pried in the past or tried to make sure her boss was okay, Olivia had snapped at her. She dealt with Olivia's bad attitudes enough, and she wasn't about to willingly put herself in a position to be yelled at. She knew Olivia wasn't a bad person, but, for whatever reason, Olivia couldn't seem to care less about her youngest detective.
Carisi was finally able to start a light conversation, in which everyone participated. There was still obvious tension, especially between Liv and Amanda. The tension was ruining everyone's moods, but they still tried to enjoy their time together.
After they ate and paid the bill, they all felt a little better. The tension was ceasing as they rose from the table to walk back to the precinct.
"I'll meet you guys back at the precinct. I'm just gonna stop by the bank," Amanda informed them.
"Don't be late," Olivia muttered. Amanda nodded in response, slightly annoyed with the unnecessary comment.
"Why don't you go with her?" Carisi asked, not wanting to walk back to the precinct with the bitter lieutenant.
"Excuse me?" Olivia questioned.
"You two just seem a bit tensed is all. Maybe some girl time is needed," Fin explained, also not wanting to be around Olivia's angry mood right now.
"I do have to go by the bank anyway," Olivia sighed. Amanda shot her partner a death glare. She didn't want to be around her lieutenant anymore than she absolutely had to be. Olivia shared the same feeling, but neither woman voiced it.
They walked up the street together in silence. The bank was in walking distance from the pizzeria, so it didn't take them more than a few minutes. Amanda only needed to make a withdrawal, so she went to the ATM right outside the bank. Olivia had to make a deposit, so she headed inside of the bank. Both women were glad to get a break from each other for a few minutes.
Amanda had just withdrawn her money and placed it inside her purse. She was about to walk towards the entrance of the bank when two loud shots rang out. She dropped her purse on the ground, reached for the gun in her holster and her badge, and ran into the bank. Civilians were on the ground, trying to shield themselves, but it didn't look like anybody had been harmed.
"NYPD!" Amanda screamed, pointing her gun at the first suspect she saw. At first, she thought there were only two suspects.
Olivia also had her gun out, and Amanda noticed Olivia was pointing it at a different suspect. Olivia was only focused on the suspect in her from of her, as was Amanda.
"Drop the gun, or I will kill her!" The second suspect screamed at the blonde detective. Olivia tried to keep a straight face, but Amanda could read the fear in her eyes.
It was against their training to ever give their guns up. Amanda knew that. Olivia knew that. Both woman kept a tight grip on their weapons.
"We don't have to do this," Amanda said, hoping her voice didn't sound shaky.
"Drop the gun!" The first suspect demanded.
"How about if we let these people out, and you can just keep me? I'm an NYPD detective. You'd have a lot of leverage with just me," Olivia reasoned, trying to keep her voice calm.
"We could keep both detectives. I'm sure NYPD would do anything for them," the second suspect agreed.
"You don't need us both. You just need me," Olivia said, wanting to get everyone, including Amanda, out of there.
"Shut up!" The first suspect screamed.
They allowed all the civilians to leave. One suspect had a gun on Olivia, and the other had a gun on Amanda. Amanda knew if she shot one suspect, the other would hurt Olivia. They couldn't both beat the suspects' trigger pull at the same time. Finally, she lowered her gun to the ground. Olivia did the same, trusting whatever it was Amanda was doing.
The suspects smirked. The second suspect went through Olivia's purse until he found handcuffs.
"Two NYPD detectives, and two men," the first suspect smirked.
"Blondie over here looks like she'd be fun," the second suspect said. The men licked their lips as they approached the younger detective.
"I'm actually all you need. I'm a lieutenant. You can have more than enough fun with me," Olivia managed to choke out, trying to protect her youngest detective.
"Shut up!" The first suspect boomed. He stroked Amanda's hair and caressed her cheek, laughing when she flinched.
"You sure are a pretty one," he smirked.
"What do you have under those clothes?" The second suspect asked.
"You don't need to do this," Amanda shakily said, knowing where this was going. She wanted to talk them down, but they had already made up their minds. They wanted Amanda, and they knew she couldn't very well fight back.
"Oh, but I do," he whispered, a disgusting smirk still on his face.
The first suspect ripped Amanda's blouse open. She immediately pushed him away. The second suspect held her arms to her side. The first suspect took her blouse completely off. Her body started to tremble, and the suspects could tell that she was afraid. She struggled against the second suspect's grip.
"Now, now, now, don't fight. Not when we have guns, and you and your lieutenant don't," The first suspect reminded her.
The first suspect cuffed Olivia's hands behind her back with her own handcuffs. He kept his gun on Olivia, warning her not to move. The second suspect took off Amanda's jeans, leaving her in only her bra and underwear. Olivia struggled against the cuffs, even though she knew it was useless. She knew what those men were planning to do to Amanda, and she wanted to stop it.
"This doesn't have to happen. We can all walk out of here together," Olivia tried to convince the men. Her voice had a slight tremble, but she tried her best to stay calm.
Amanda was too focused on what was happening to notice, but Olivia could see through a window that a perimeter was being set up. She hoped the suspects would be taken out before they could hurt Amanda. All they needed to do was step in front of a window, and it would be over.
The second suspect began kissing Amanda. They were rough kisses, and Amanda let out a whimper she had been trying to hold back. Olivia heard the whimper, and her heart broke for the younger woman. She wanted to help Amanda, but she couldn't. Olivia looked away. She couldn't watch her own detective being assaulted.
"P-please, d-don't. Please, don't," Amanda begged as the man took off her bra and underwear. He was groping her, and he was getting off on her struggle. He forced himself of Amanda. She let out a cry of pain.
"St-stop. Stop, p-please!" she cried.
"Shut up," he growled, slapping her across the face. He continued with the disgusting act, slapping Amanda around whenever she struggled too much or cried too loud, until he was finished. Amanda cried and pleaded through the whole thing. Olivia began to cry as well, heartbroken for her youngest detective. She hated listening to her cries and pleas.
"Please, just stop it! We don't have to do this!" Olivia cried. The first suspect pistol whipped Olivia, causing her to scream out in pain. Tears spilled from her eyes. She was in physical pain, but that didn't compare to the pain of knowing what was happening to Amanda and the fact that she couldn't stop it.
When the second suspect came out of Amanda, she sat up, pulling her knees to her chest, and cried. He licked his lips, staring at the young blonde with evil eyes. Her body was trembling, and her eyes were shut tight. She was terrified.
"That was fun. You did excellent," the man smirked, satisfied with the terrible event. The first and second suspects traded places. The second suspect held a gun on Olivia, while the first suspect approached Amanda. He grabbed Amanda, and she flinched.
"P-please, d-don't. N-not ag-gain. P-please," Amanda pleaded through tears. Amanda scrambled around, trying to get away. She tried to fight him off, but he was much stronger than she was.
"Now, that wouldn't be fair. He gets a turn, and I don't? Come on," the man growled, pulling Amanda closer to him. His acts were similar to the second suspect's acts. He gave her rough kissed and groped her, laughing at her cries. He slapped her if she cried too loud or struggled too much just like the other suspect did.
He pinned her down. He forced himself inside of her, and she screamed in pain. Just like the first time, she cried and pleaded, but the suspect only got off on it. This man was stronger, which made struggling harder.
"You don't have to do this!" Olivia screamed, tears streaming down her face. She kept her eyes away from the crime taking place only feet away from her. She couldn't stand Amanda's cries. She wanted to run over there and help her, but her cuffed hands prevented her from doing so.
When the first suspect finished, he came out of Amanda. Again, Amanda pulled her knees to her chest and sobbed. The man gave her one last forceful kiss. He allowed her to put her clothes on, and it caused her a great deal of pain as she did. After her clothes were back on, she remained in the corner, rocking herself back and forth as tears streamed down her face.
Whenever either suspect came near her, she cried out and tried to scramble further into the corner. She was traumatized. She wanted to escape. She wanted to die. She wanted to be almost anywhere but that bank.
Olivia's heart shattered for the young blonde rocking herself in the corner. She wanted to comfort her. She wanted to assure her that everything would be okay. She had never seen Amanda so scared.
"Just let me go make sure she's all right," Olivia pleaded with the suspects.
"Shut up!" The second suspect demanded.
"I'm not gonna do anything stupid. I just want to make sure she's okay. We should really let her go," Olivia tried again. The first suspect slapped her across the face. The second suspect grabbed Amanda by her hair. Amanda screamed.
"P-please, n-not ag-gain!" Amanda cried.
"Shut up, or she dies," the second suspect growled at Olivia. Olivia stopped talking, and the suspect let go of Amanda. Amanda scrambled back into the corner and continued to rock herself back and forth. Tears were streaming down her face, and her breaths were shaky.
When the hostage negotiator finally showed up, the suspects spoke with him through the phone. They spoke for an hour, making ridiculous and unreasonable demands. At one point, they even threatened to rape Amanda again. That sent her into a panic attack, but Olivia managed to talk her down. As time went on, the suspects seemed to only grow agitated, and finally, the S.W.A.T team had to barge into the bank and kill the two suspects. Carisi and Fin rushed in, and they helped Olivia out of the handcuffs. Carisi and Fin then ran to Amanda's aid, but Amanda screamed in fear.
"No more! Please, no more!" She begged through sobs.
"Guys, go. I got this. I'll meet you at the hospital," Olivia declared. Giving the young blonde sympathetic looks, the two male detectives went back outside. Paramedics tried to get to Amanda, but they only seemed to scare her more. She was hugging herself tight and sobbed loudly.
"Hey, hey, it's okay. It's okay. It's over. You did great. It's over now," Olivia tried to soothe her.
"I-I d-didn't w-want... I-I didn't... I d-didn't," Amanda sobbed.
"Sshhh. I know you didn't want it. I know. I'm so sorry. We need to get you to the hospital, Amanda," Olivia explained. Amanda continued to sob as the paramedics put her on the gurney. They tried to get Olivia on one too, but she insisted that she wasn't hurt.
Olivia got in the ambulance to ride with Amanda, who wouldn't let anyone touch her. Olivia had tears spilling from her eyes, wishing she could've prevented this. Amanda was hysterical, and nothing Olivia said seemed to help her.
When they arrived at the hospital, Amanda had another panic attack because she saw a male doctor coming towards her. She was crying loudly and tightly gripping the handles on the gurney. She was begging for him to leave her alone. She was having trouble breathing. The nurse had to sedate Amanda because they couldn't get anything done with her panicking.
It was almost four hours before a nurse finally came to the waiting room, asking for the family of Amanda Rollins.