Before there was Kylo Ren, there was Anakin Skywalker. He was my first ever movie crush and damn, even though he fell to the dark side I still missed him for the man he was.

This story is just letting some of my inner fangirl loose in the words of Padme. May the Skywalker rest in peace.

I don't own the characters.

Anakin,

When I first met you on the desert planet of Tatooine, I thought of what a sweet interesting little boy you were. When you won the podrace, my heart screamed with joy as you were held up by Master Qui-Gonn. I felt so proud of you like an older sister to her younger brother and then you had to leave for your training to be a Jedi. When you returned, you were all grown up, a handsome dark man whose heart I felt had changed towards everything.

You were so kind yet so brave, Ani. You made me happy when I was stressed with my mission to bring peace to the Republic. Only you were there when I was in times of need, escorting me to Naboo and staying with me in the villa. There I realized what I thought was something that couldn't happen; we fell in love.

I had felt it the first time we ever met but knowing our age differences and our different commitments drew me away from the idea of us being together. I wanted to push you away for your own sake and not forsake your future, although I might be willing to throw away mine. But you stole my heart every time we met and after the battle where the Clone Wars began, we wed on my home planet.

I love you so much as your wife. So fierce on the outside but such a kind man inside. Your love towards Obi Wan as a master and friend made me wonder how you can form such a tight bond where so many people have failed. When I found out I had our children, I couldn't imagine you being more proud of being a father. I was glad to be able to carry our children and even more excited to tell you we were expecting twins.

Btu then the day came when the Republic fell and the Jedi were no more. As I stood watching the Jedi temple burn in the distance, my heart cracked as I prayed for your safety. Even when Obi Wan came to tell me you had fallen to the dark side, I wanted it to be wrong. My sweet Ani falling to the dark side, it was such a ridiculous idea. But it was turned out to be true when I saw you on Mustafar, watching the world burn around you.

No matter what I tried to tell you, how much I begged for you to return to me, to our children, you refused, saying that we could rule the galaxy together. I didn't become a Senator to rule, I wanted to help make the galaxy a better place. Your words tore through me as though they were pierced by your own blade and when you finally chose to kill me, I thought I could at least be spared from what was left of you.

When I finally awoke, I was in labour. The pain of bringing our children into such dark times made me want to cry out for you, wishing you were by my side to see our children being born. When they came out, oh, how beautiful they looked. I could imagine your face as you stared down on them, seeing how they looked like us. So innocent to the world of war we brought them into.

Ani, you know that I will always love you. No matter what may happen, I will never stop praying for you to return to the light. You will always be my Anakin, my husband I met on Tatooine as a child and married as a Jedi. I will always love you. Come back to m, Ani. I miss you. We all do.

With love,

Padme Amidala

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May the Force be with everyone and Merry Christmas!