Don't text Maggie. Don't text Maggie. Don't text Maggie. Seriously Alex you're sitting in a bar full of gorgeous women, you don't need to text her. I swirl around the brown liquid in my glass before I chug the rest of my scotch in one swallow. It's not that I want her back I don't want her back. It's been over a year. We are different people from when we met. We still don't want the same things. But tonight? Tonight, I'm lonely and slightly drunk so texting her seems like a good idea.

I take out my phone in search of her contact when I see a familiar figure out of the corner of my eye take the seat next to me. I look up to see a very stressed out Lena Luthor. No not stressed. She keeps rummaging through her purse and checking her phone every ten seconds; she's nervous close to panicking I would say if this wasn't Lena Luthor. She keeps rummaging through her purse

"Hi Alex." She nods in my direction without meeting my gaze.

"Hey Luthor. Come to Lesbian bars often?" If I was sober I would have been gentler with my words. Way to go Danvers. I curse myself when I see the deep red blush cover her face and she gets up to leave.

I reach out to stop her my worry increasing as I make contact with her sweaty wrist. Okay, she's really freaking out. You need to sober up and not be a drunk idiot Alex.

"Lena, wait it was a stupid joke. I'm kind of drunk. I'm not exactly thinking straight right now."

The corners of her mouth turn upward in a slight smile. "I'm pretty sure not thinking straight is the whole point of a place like this."

"Now who's the one making bad jokes Luthor." I smile at her and she smiles back her dark features softening a bit. Her smile is pretty. Now that I look at her Lena Luthor, the woman standing in front of me, not Kara's best friend. She is really beautiful.

"Lena, what are you doing herereally?" My tone gentler but more serious this time.

She looks at the empty stool she just left, and then at the crowd of women around us she checks her phone one last time before reoccupying her seat and meeting my gaze.

I know why she is here I recognize the battle going on inside her head. I remember that battle very well. I remember having to take the first charge into this battle on my own. So, I just sit next to her with a warm, hopefully not to tipsy smile, waiting for her to answer in her own words.

"James and I broke up a couple weeks ago. It's no one's fault we just felt like we were holding each other back in a way. We found that we were no longer moving down the same path towards one mutual future together. We still saw two separate futures."

I nod as I order a glass of water for myself while Lena orders a glass of red wine for herself. "Put her water and anything else she may order tonight on my tab" Lena instructs the bartender before she goes off to fill our orders.

"You didn't have to do that" I tell her." She waves me off with a smirk that I enjoy maybe a little too much.

"We're friends Alex, besides it's the least I can do if you're going to sit here and listen to attempt to knock down a wall that has been cemented in place since I was a teenager."

As the bartender comes back with our drinks I take a sip of my water; grateful for the giddy grin on my face. Happy that my hunch was right and that my Gaydar is improving!

Lena takes a long drink of her wine as I do with my water hoping to sober up a little before she finishes her story; because Lena Luthor is far too pretty and I'm far too drunk for this conversation.

"Not many people know about the breakup yet, except for Kara. James and I weren't ready to make things awkward within the group just yet.

"What's changed then? Why were you ready to tell me tonight about the breakup? Why are you here of all the bars in the city you could have gone to?" I prompt her sensing she may need a little encouragement to continue.

She takes another drink emptying the glass in front of her signaling the bartender for another one.

"Growing up as a Luthor. I was never really able to think about myself. It was always about trying to live up to the family name, or in my case to live above it. There wasn't any room to question things like sexuality." She gladly drains half of the red liquid in the glass the bartender has just placed in front of her. "Now that I'm out of the very dark shadow my family casts on me. I am finally doing things for myself. I have a solid support system of people who love and care about ME, not my last name. I think it's finally safe for me to admit to myself that I've always been curious when it comes to women in a romantic sense. I figured now that I'm single it's time I get to know myself a little bit better." She pauses, downing the last of her wine.

I hold up my hand to let the bartender know not to bring her another one yet. I take her hand and give it a gentle squeeze. I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do at first, but the warm smile she gives me reaffirms my actions. She squeezes my hand back before continuing.

"I came here tonight to see what it's like. When I walked in and saw everyone being so free I kind of panicked. In a good way but panic none the less. Then I saw you sitting here, and it was very calming to see a familiar face. Thank you for this fore calming me down. Now I see why you're Kara's rock." Her smile is more relaxed now natural even her emerald eyes are glowing with new found excitement. "Any advice for me?"

"Be who you are, don't let what other people may think hold you back. Do what you think is best for you! Do what feels right for yourself!"

Maggie's words to play on repeat in my head. We should kiss the girls' we want to kiss.

Lena nods in understanding, "if tonight is about what I honestly feel. I've always thought you're gorgeous Alex.'' Before I can stop her, she leans in and her lips are on mine.

AN I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS, BUT I THINK I'M GOING TO CONTINUE IT. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK PLEASE REVIEW! HAVE A GOODNIGHT LOVELIES!

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