Characters are not mine (sadly), they're property of JKRowling.

I'm only using them with my imagination to write this crazy history.

Some people say true love only happen once in a lifetime, but what happen if your true love is not for you? What would you do? Smile or cry…?

Smiling & Crying

Everyday is a dying day, every moment I get tired and bored with my routine, but what could I do? This is how my life is, now and forever.

Sadly, my life is sadly and lonely… and painful… did I mention is sad?

People say "time always kills the pain" but I think and I feel that this is a lie. I used to believe in the old love story's phrase: "love is the most beautiful and pure feeling, it comes from the heart", but an heartbreak changes everything.

I don't know why I'm still alive, my heart is gone or worst, broken.

I still can't believe that I fell in love with 'him', it wasn't my intention or my fault, it was an 'accident', I didn't want this, I didn't ask for this.

My dear friend, Luna, told me that it's okay to be in love 'cause it's amazing to feel someone loves you and thinks and tells you're special.

But I think love's not amazing when the person you love is with someone else and he doesn't even know you love him.

Some people would tell that's not the worst thing in the world, and maybe, only maybe, they're right.

But what do they know? They don't die everyday and every night just thinking in the person who broke your heart.

I see him with 'her' every moment of my day and everybody's talking about them and I just can't handle this kind of 'test' that life put in my way, it's impossible to not care…

I know when he knows something's not right, it seems like he can see through me, through my heart. He always asks the same

"Are you okay Hermione? Is everything okay?"

And my answer is always the same

"Yes, I'm okay Harry. Everything's just right"

In those moments the question is: to smile or to cry? If you ask me, I prefer to smile en front of him, so he can see I'm happy for him and he will smile me back just to demonstrate me he's happy 'cause I'm happy.

But late, I the night, when nobody can see that I'm in love, I prefer to cry, cry for my lost love, cry for him, cry for knowing he will never see me like he sees his girlfriend, Ginny.

But I'm okay…

I'm okay…

I don't like it too much LOL but, idk I wanted to post it.

first fic.. KK I'm too bad for this, sorry LMAO