Author's Note: Not beta read. Any spelling or grammatical errors are solely because I am a flawed human being. Can be considered Post-'Say You Like Me,' if you're reading my other Bonkai fics.

Despite Bonnie's initial enthusiasm about her relationship with Kai Parker, she was now wondering if they had made mistake. They had been dating for several months and the tension between them had increased with each passing day as Bonnie's patience wore thin. The strain on their budding relationship was due to Kai's reluctance to open up. It was Friday night and Bonnie had awoken at 2 in the morning to find she was alone in bed. Kai wasn't draped over her as usual. Instead she was able to roll over freely to find the space beside her empty and cool to the touch. Bonnie sat up blinking and squinted in the darkened bedroom. She looked back at the clock and frowned.

The Bennett witch threw back the sheet and quilt that blanketed her. She swung her legs over the side of the bed and rubbed her eyes. After sitting for a moment, she tentatively reached a foot forward and searched for her slippers. After locating them, Bonnie pulled them on and stood for a moment. Once she was a little more awake, she walked through the dimly lit hallway towards her living room with her slippers whispering across the wooden floors. When she got to the living room, it was dark save a few burning candles scattered around the room. She heard Kai before she saw him.

"Bon?"

Bonnie moved to the couch as she saw Kai's shadowy figure sit up. She sat on the arm of the couch.

"More nightmares?" she asked, eyeing the man clad in black sweatpants. Kai had his elbows resting on his knees, his head down with his fingers interlaced on the back of his neck. Bonnie watched him turned his head left then right, cracking his neck. He then sat up and turned to look at her. He met Bonnie's eyes briefly then looked down at his hands and replied curtly, "Same stuff. I'm just shaking it off. You can go back to bed."

Bonnie sighed, "I know I can go back to bed. Whether I will is to be determined."

Kai let out a humorless laugh and said, "Bon-"

"What was the nightmare about?" Bonnie said cutting him off. She watched him stiffen.

"Bonnie, we've talked about this…"

"Hmmm," Bonnie hummed bobbing her head, "No, we didn't."

"I told you-"

"You told me to leave it alone. That wasn't a conversation. That was you brushing me off."

Kai groaned, digging his hands into his hair, and pulled it.

"Bonnie, I can't do this right now."

Ignoring him, Bonnie asked again, "So what are the dreams about?"

Kai was silent for a long moment. Bonnie moved from the arm of the couch to the cushion next to the coven leader.

"I just…" he began.

"I don't think…"

Kai inhaled deeply and let out a gusty exhale, saying, "I'm not talking about this with you."

Bonnie felt a pang of hurt in her chest but managed to keep her face impassive. She quickly stood up and turned to leave the living room. She hesitated and turned back to look at Kai. He was looking up at her with an indiscernible look on his face. She took a deep breath to steady her voice for her final question.

"Are you ever going to really talk to me or am I not worthy of knowing the true Kai Parker?" Bonnie asked tersely. She searched his face. When he looked back at is dangling hands in silence, Bonnie shifted her jaw and nodded to herself.

"Go to bed, Bonnie."

She stiffly turned and exited the living room, letting out a burst of magic extinguishing all of the candles lighting the room.

Bonnie shut the bedroom door behind her and walked quickly to the bed in the darkened room. She felt a tear run down her face. She bumped her thigh against the bed then felt her way to the top of the mattress. Kicking off her slippers and slipping under the sheet and quilt, Bonnie wiped tears from her face. She buried her face in her pillow and wondered what she had done that might have brought this to a head. Kai had always glossed over or completely omitted details about his childhood. Bonnie never pushed before they were dating but as their relationship progressed, she felt that she was the only one opening up.

Kai always shifted the focus back to her when intimate topics came up. Despite Bonnie sharing her motherless childhood and the pandemonium of her life after her discovery of magic, Kai gave the bare minimum in reciprocating. Trying a direct route, Bonnie had asked him about never talking about himself or the nightmares he seemed to be having. After deflecting for a while under Bonnie's insist questioning, Kai's characteristic smirk disappeared and he had said, "Leave it alone, Bonnie."

Bonnie dropped the topic but continued providing openings for Kai to share thereafter. At first Bonnie began to think maybe he just didn't trust people in general and it would take time. After a few months of dating and nudges for him to share even minute details, Bonnie began to think maybe it was her. She was friends with supernatural beings who weren't fond of the Gemini coven leader. Maybe he was afraid to reveal something to her that she'd innocuously let her friends in on.

Now Bonnie lay in her bed alone. Though, her cheeks were no longer wet with tears, the other side of her pillow was too damp to comfortably sleep on. She was slipping back into sleep, determined to resolve the situation in the morning. As soon as Bonnie's eyelids drooped shut, she felt warmth at her side. She grumbled and moved to blindly pull her pillow over her head, when she heard Kai softly say behind her, "I'm sorry."

Bonnie was lying on her stomach facing away from Kai with her arms folded above her head. She opened her eyes but didn't respond. She didn't know how to respond to the apology. She was pretty sure she had never heard him say that phrase before. In their past tiffs, she tended to tease him a bit when he tried to show his remorse. He would then make a joke about his screw up and they would make up. This time was different. This time she remained silent.

"I know you're awake, Bon."

Bonnie continued to not reply. After a few moments, she heard him sigh and give a small laugh, "My…my childhood wasn't a picnic."

He hesitated and continued, "And I know yours wasn't exactly picture perfect and the last few years…"

"I spent all of my life with no one to confide in about my dad aside from my twin," Kai said.

"Jo, who despite her fear, did occasionally stand up to the asshole after Mom died."

He laughed again and said, "I haven't told you about Mom."

Bonnie realized she was holding her breath and tried to quietly exhale. She wanted to roll over and comfort him but held back. Maybe he needed the darkness to use as a security blanket. Speaking into the darkened room as if no one was listening. Exposing the weaknesses in his carefully crafted armor without hostile or judgmental eyes he was so familiar with growing up in the Gemini Coven. Seemingly talking to an empty room, thinking out loud to himself. As he spent so many years, Bonnie frowned and thought sadly.

"Mom would've loved you," Kai said.

"We can talk about Mom sometime. If you want."

"Anyway," Kai sighed, "I've always had a hard time letting people in."

"After a while, I even shut myself off from Jo. Not quite trusting her intentions to be close as we got older."

As Bonnie felt the bed shift, Kai said, "As soon as I try to get close, I move on."

"I mean the girlfriends I had before my imprisonment didn't stand a chance. And not just with mundanes either."

"I tried to date a witch or two in the coven but never quite allowed myself to be myself, to be really honest, to be…"

"I dunno," he trailed off.

"Vulnerable?" Bonnie offered breaking her silence.

There was a pause before he said, "Yeah. Vulnerable."

"Something I promised myself I never would be when I realized where I fell in the hierarchy of my family. Of the coven."

Bonnie didn't speak again.

"Bonster," Kai said, "I know we are still getting to know each other and we don't know each other all that well or… or anything."

Laughing nervously, Kai said, "Well, I haven't given you the chance to learn much about me anyway."

"I want to change that."

"We're dating, so getting close comes with the territory. You know?"

"And I want that!" he quickly added. Bonnie bit her lip.

"I just…"

Bonnie held her breath and waited for him to continue. Kai cleared his throat and said, "So…So don't let me run."

Both were silent for a few moments before Bonnie replied softly, "Ok."

"Ok?" Kai repeated.

Bonnie then smiled, still not facing him. She rolled onto her side and reached behind her for his arm. When she found it, she tugged him towards her and wrapped his arm around her.

As she relaxed against Kai and began drifting off again, Bonnie contentedly sighed in reply, "Ok."