Need
Your movements are fluid. You dodge my attacks and meet my sword without hesitation. It seems like a dance instead of a battle. We are partners in this sword dance. I match every swing. Every step you take, I take another. You steps are graceful and I cannot help but follow.
I'm reluctant to kill you, but it is what I must do. Thats how it is suppose to be. Mortal enemies trying to kill each other, only one will live in the end. Which one of us will it be?
Sometimes I wonder, what if we met in another lifetime. A lifetime where we would not be enemies. A lifetime where we could live side by side. This is a lifetime that a fool like me wishes for. It doesn't matter though, I can wonder all I want and it won't change a thing.
You got stronger. I can feel it. Not only physically but also mentally. You must of trained a lot in preparation to kill the arrancars, to kill me. Why do I feel proud that your stronger now? So you don't have to depend on him? Maybe so that it is you who would end my empty existents?
I still feel that sweet feeling. I know what it is. Need. Its so different from Want, yet it is almost the same. It feels more pure. It doesn't control the heart, it guides it. Need. I need you? No, I don't have to question that. I know that I need you. Need course through my veins.
Can you feel my need? It pulses off my very being. It replaces my emptiness. You replace my emptiness. I feel like basking in your warmth, your kindness. You are the fire that lights my essences.
I'm a mess. If I never met you, I would have been Aizen's best warrior. Ruthless, cold, and manipulating. I thought there was no meaning in my empty existents other then serving Aizen. Than you came and ruined it...But I'm not angry. I feel relieved sometimes. I feel more human? Though I doubt I count as one.
I can't. I can't fight you anymore. It feels like my insides are ripping. This is the most unbearable thing I every felt. I throw down my sword. My knees seem to give out with a life time of weariness. My eyes are closed. I am waiting for my only blessing. Your cold sword against my neck.
"Why...."
Why, do you ask? I thought I explained it with my kiss.
"Fight."
Why fight?
"I said fight, get up."
No....
Wind touches my face with it gentle hands. A cold metal object is placed in my hand. My sword. I open my eyes. Your staring at me, Our gaze unblinking. Why don't you kill me now?
"Fight."
"No."
"Why?"
I don't answer. I cannot explain it with words. Did my lips not tell yours earlier?
"Why?" You ask again.
"Words cannot express it."
"Then show me."
I search your eyes. Do you trust me enough to do so? I let the sword in my hand fall to the ground. You drop yours next to mine. I stand. You do not move, your eyes stay on me. I move toward you and hold my arms around your small body.
We stay that way for awhile. Our eyes are closed. The only sound I can hear is your soft breathing. I can feel your chest rise and fall. Do you hear my heart beat? Something I haven't felt in ages. I can feel yours.
Slowly your eyes open. "I understand."
Ha. You thought one of them were going to die. I am sorry if there is any grammar/spelling mistakes. Reviews are greatly encouraged.
Steel - I did think of adding it as a chapter to Want but some may not like this ending, so I would rather them imagine their own.