Being free of who you really are.

This my continuation of what happened to emily after burying her memory and letting go of ali.

Chapter 1

While walking back to her car from the graveyard of ali, she explain to herself that whatever she did is the right thing to do. Yes, ali hurt her a lot but still she loved her. Maybe a little too much. Even though ali hides many of her secret not to mention tries to kill them twice, she cant stop herself from thinking that she have her reason. And she's not in love with the person who tries to kill them and cause them insurmountable pain, ali, she's in love with courtney. ali's twin sister. It's a little confusing when you think about it but somehow her feeling makes sense. Yes, her love is not returned but still they all felt they were special, especially emily. Thinking about it now she's been too blinded to see who is kissing her just a few days ago, if its ali or courtney. Heaving a deep sigh, she now accepted the fact that whoever that person that they spend time those entire sixth and seventh grade, made them feel special and the person who tries to kill them is a different person, now she can really let go of her feelings after explaining this to herself. She loved ali/courtney. That's it. And now she's letting it go. Man, it's a great feeling to be free. Suddenly she thought about the persons she have forgotten while having this "A" problem. Persons she thinks she lost, Maya, toby and isaac. The thought struck her heart like a million thorn. maya. Maybe she's hallucinating. maya cant be in front of her car here in the cemetery. Her mind is just playing with her because she misses her. The only person who believed in her and let her be who she is and told her she will wait. The person that makes her forget about everything and not think about what everyone will say. She remebered all the times they are together, saying they love each other in mona's party. Even though she also thought she loved isaac, thinking back, it is very different with maya. She blinked, the maya image is still there, and then it talked.

"Hi" maya said.

"Why are you here? How did you know im here? Are you still angry with me?" she has thousands of questions right now in her mind. But maya just looks back at her with those sincere black eyes.

"How are you?" Maya asked. Emily is taken aback by her question. As she looks at those eyes she only sees concern. And it's the most comforting thing she see's in days. Someone that is really concern at you.

"You don't have to answer. im just glad that I saw you and know that somehow you're ok. im really worried about you. The media still airs your story and im not satisfied when you say you're ok on all of those interviews you have with them. I have to see you personally to keep me calm. That's why ive been wandering and going to places where I might see you. Then I found you here." she said this all without breathing. Then she continues, "I should go now. I just want to see if you are ok." taking a step back and preparing to run away from emily.

"Why are you here?" emily ask again. "Please answer me first." she begs.

"I told you, I just wanted to be sure you're ok."

"Why?"

"Because, I still care about you, remember when I told you I will wait? I know today is not the right time to talk about this so I will wait." maya said without taking her eyes off emily.

Emily doesn't know what to say. She just stare right back to maya. Wondering if her thoughts are correct, if it is, why. She caused her enough pain. Enough reason for maya not to talk to her ever again but still she is here staring at her with concern etched in every part of
her face.

"You look like you can't believe what I just said. Just believe it. I still care for you and will wait for you." with that said maya turns her back and jogged and leave emily with his thoughts. After a minute of looking at maya's back, she started crying. Mixed tears of joy and guilt. Guilt because of what she did to her and joy because even though ali/courtney left her, at least someone she truly cared and even like stayed with her. Even in a far, at least she still cared. And that's what matter to emily the most. As she gets inside her volvo and drive back to her house. Smiling, and a felt a million times better.