Enterra, the desert:
The hot sun was not a great hostess in this wasteland, the wind barely welcomed anyone, and the night never failed to be filled with mystery and uncertainty.
But, though everything about this place was not very appealing, still, one non-inhabitant traveled through it, on a mission. A silvery puddle of liquid, moving fast across the sand, searching hard for its goal.
And he may soon have it.
Back on earth:
Ok, stay quiet, don't let anyone know you're here or moving. You'll be tortured or worse if they catch you!
I snuck down the hall, as quiet as possible. I checked the next room, my heart pounding. No one there. I kept going until I made it to the door. My hand shaking, I took the handle and slowly turned it, making minimal noise. I carefully opened the door and looked around. No one. I jumped out the door and ran, hoping to get to the trees before anyone saw me, but then-
"Ooof!" I exclaimed as I was tackled to the ground. Dang, I'd almost gotten to the trees!
There was laughing from on top of me, and I rolled a little bit to see who had gotten me.
"I found you, sissy!" Ookami exclaimed in his hyper form, licking my face.
"Ok, ok, yeah, you found me!" I said, laughing and trying to cover my face.
"Can we play again, please?!!" he asked as I stood up, dusting myself off. "Ray and Sen and Estee wanna keep playing, and me too!!!"
"No, no. I told you that was the last time. I gotta go see the others now, ok?" he gave me puppy-dog like wolf eyes, putting his lower lip. "Ookami, I said no."
Then he changed to his normal form, so small you could easily hold him in your hand, and continue doing the puppy dog pout in his normal form. "Pleeeeeeaaaaaaaassssseee, Jaden?!!!!"
I groaned. "Ookami, I said not right now, ok? Later. And I'll get mommy and winter to come, too, but I gotta go see the others. Play with the kittens for now, ok?"
He crossed his arms and pouted. "Hmph! Fine…."
"Thank you." I said and kissed his forehead, rubbed is untidy brown hair and hurried into the trees.
I walked around in the trees, pass the old and crumbling tree house that had many memories, pass some trees, to an old tree, missing a branch with a bush in front of it. I pushed it aside and saw the swirling circle that hid behind it and, taking a breath, I jumped in, staying in an upright position.
As I came through the bright light, I landed on rough ground. The grass had been faded yellow, dying lately. I sighed. The earth knew something bad was going to happen soon.
I hurried down the hill and headed straight to the new building in the city. It had been created for secret, important discussions. It looked like a high-tec thing, and I knew why, because some of my new robot friends had created it.
After gazing at the tall, transparent blue/green shield that stood miles away, surrounding the city, I placed my hand on a scanner and after it realized who I was, it opened the doors and I hurried in.
Well, if you're sitting there, wondering what the heck's going on, I'll tell you. I'll begin where it all really started…
Me, my sister and my best friend always liked the same things. And the one thing we all liked the most, was an anime called Shinzo. It's supposed to be set in the future, most humans had died off in one dimension of it because of a war between them and enterrans, and the beings the humans had created (enterrans) where the only things left, along with a few robots who had created a city to take refuge in when the humans disappeared. But in a different dimension, humans and enterrans never had war, never tried to kill each other. They were just normal. Luckily, that's the dimension we entered, though the main characters from the show and well known warriors, had memories of everything that had happened to them in those two dimensions, just in case they needed that knowledge for later.
Well, one day, we found a portal to that world, which is called Enterra. And boy, did we go crazy when we found out! Anyways, we became close with the warriors and characters from the show. Me and heather, a friend that was almost closer to me then my sister, fell for two of the guys. And then there was a crazy date that went on between me, the guy I liked, heather, the guy she liked, and winter, and the guy she'd gotten together with, who wasn't really part of the show, but had recently become friends with the warriors. Well, the date went partly well, until the next day. One of the people the warriors had defeat, named Ryuma (a gay-ish prince of reptile enterrans in that world), had decided he wanted to choose between me, heather and winter for his new bride (since it didn't go so well with Yakumo, the human warrior…long story, and not really necessary right now). Well, the guys didn't like that too much. They fought for us, were caught, their powers were taking away and they were young. Their powers had been transferred to us, because Ryuma just couldn't choose between us girls and decided we should kill each other. Who ever was left standing, he would marry. Well, after sneaky planning and help from one of his not so loyal servants, we kicked his sorry butt.
And we were finally happily together with the boys of our dreams, though when our parents found out how good of friends we were now, they decided to put restrictions on what we were able to do, when we could hang out. And for a while, I just dealt with it. But when my cousin came (she liked the show too, but didn't know it was real), everything became tense and annoying. I got in a short fight with my parents (me just yelling at them) and we headed off to Enterra to spend time with our friends. But then we discovered that there was evil alive again and they decided they'd take my parents for bait, because they needed us, and Ryuma was one of them, wanting us again, and my cousin. Well, that was a long, crazy, emotional journey, and we finally killed Ryuma again, found out the other bad guy (Daku was his name) was killed by the first bad guy, Eilis. And then, we found out, before we could destroy him, that he was bringing back the worst possible bad guy ever.
A celestial guardian (they watch over worlds and realms, keeping them safe) gone bad, named Lanuncurus. Well, in the show, he wanted to take over the universe, but the other guardians didn't like that. They trapped him away in a meteorite, one of them having to give up their life just to do so (and that happened to be one of the enterran warriors, Mushra, who heather loves. He was guardian who gave up his immortality…he doesn't remember that life, just his enterran one), and it landed on earth. Well, years after it crashed, he was trying to break out again, but after a really long battle, the warriors stopped him, throwing him I front of a meteor he had sent to earth. And they thought everything was better and happy, and once they all found each other again, they lived happily (until they met us, hehehe……that was a joke).
But they were wrong. His card survived, landed back on Enterra, and is waiting for his last living servant to retrieve him and take the power we all have to bring him back, because it would take a lot of power to revive him.
And we're the ones who have that power. The warriors and us humans. We are the ones he needs to use, the ones he wants. And the ones he will not have, if we have anything to do with it!
"Well, we may need Yakumo's power, but she's doesn't need to be near him, or he'll be able to hurt her….if he comes back. She needs to just stay here and use her power to keep him in his card or, if we're too late, keep him weak…" Sago was saying as I came in through the last doors, leaning against the wall and listening in.
Everyone nodded.
"So, who's power does he need?" Shadow asked all of a sudden, all the way across the room from me. He was sitting with Carly, of course.
"Well, the last time, he stole our gems to become more powerful, but that was just because our powers came from him." Sago started explaining. "So, I'm not sure if he needs just ours," he waved to his self, Mushra and Kutaal. "Or all of ours. It's confusing. But, I think since Eilis went so far as to steal the girls' parents, he probably needs the girls' powers."
"But that doesn't make any sense." I told him, coming up beside him and sitting in a chair at the table with everyone else. I looked at him. "We don't have any actual power, Sago. The first time, we got power from your gems. The second time we fought, Zen gave us some of his power, which we gave back. What power do we have left?"
Sago face, surprisingly, was not as confused and troubled as mine and everyone else's (why does he have to be the smart one?!). "I think I have an answer to that, though, its only a theory."
"What is it?" Heather asked all of a sudden, two seats away from me, Mushra separating us as he sat by her and me.
"Well, you remember when you burnt that picture?"
"Yup." She said and I remembered her short rampage at her house when she found out Ryuma had taken her parents, too. She had burnt a picture with her dark powers….yet, they're dark power, not fire. Zen can't do that, and we've been questioning this the whole time.
"Well, I've been thinking about that ever since Zen got his powers back and showed he couldn't do that….I was thinking, maybe ya'll still have an inch of power that had been transferred from us the first time…but then I think, maybe…maybe there's something up with you girls…."
"What does that mean?!" heather asked. "You think we're weird?!"
"No!" he said. "I mean….I'm not sure I believe completely and totally in fate and destiny and all that, but…..since I met Yakumo, and we began that long journey, and all that happened, and then we met ya'll and all this happened….I'm starting to become a big believer that things happen for a reason and there is great powers at work, trying to help the world….and I think, you four may have hidden powers….you four must be meant to help us, that's why ya'll met us, and why we're doing all this…….." he was quiet as everyone stared. "Like I said, it's just a theory…."
"Well, whether your theory is true or not, I'm not worrying about that right now. As long as we have some sort of powers, I'm good." Winter, Heather and Carly nodded.
"So, what about me and Shadow?" Irayna asked. Her hair had changed a bit, and I wasn't sure how. It couldn't be because she was getting older. Anyways, instead of her hair being just blue, it was blue with silver streaks now. I liked it, I thought it was cool^^.
"Well, I'm still not sure about you two…but I'm sure you're supposed to help us, either way…" Sago said.
She nodded.
There was silence for a little so, being the one who had been occupying kids, I broke that silence, asking, "So, what's the big plan?"
"We're going after him." Sago said simply. "For now, we have to follow him and, hopefully, get to the card before him. That's all we can do for now, and we can only hope we may be lucky enough to get the card before him. We're still not sure where it is he could have landed."
"Ok."
I looked around at everyone. Mushra and heather sitting beside me on my right, both their legs crossed and their hands on their knees (they spend too much time on Mushra's hover board….). Winter and Zen sat beside them, closets to the end of the table, closets to Shadow (oh, and his hair was different, too. It was no longer dark red, but dark red with black streaks! So cool!^^). They were hugging each other close, of course (Winter and Zen. They hadn't let each other out of each others sight for more then a few minutes, much less one hour). Carly was beside them, Shadow on her other side. They were kinda like Heather and Mushra, not the kind of couple that hugs each other every second, but they do kiss more then Mushra and Heather, always looking at each other with that amused, happy look. To the right of Shadow was Irayna of course, laying back comfortably, her chair tilting back. Yakumo would watch her and would get worried, since she sat right beside her. Binka sat beside her, just listening, and beside her was Clip, then Bolt, who was beside Sago. Kutaal was in the back of the room (doing what else?!) cooking, while Hakuba charged himself (it had took a little toll on him, being away from his whole body, and he has to be attached to it to charge). And of course, the kittens and Ookami are back at home, playing hide and seek or tag, my parents watching them.
Ah, my parents. My phone was beeping already….
Yeah, they're still trying in any way to get us to come home and stay home, but it's not happening. We told them that, for now, we'll visit either every few days, once a day, to show them we're ok. They got a little mad at that, but when we said we'd just stay on Enterra if they didn't like the first possibility, they agreed. And then we had to arrange the whole, 'when we go off' thing. Since we won't be close enough to go visit and show them we're fine, we're taking our phones so we can tell them we're ok…they've already started texting me, though I just left….
I texted back that we were fine, just talking and then put my phone back in my pocket, thinking the next time they texted, I'd ignore it for a little while and then tell them I accidently muted it.
"Are you sure I'm supposed to help? I mean, I was just here for a visit." Carly asked sago.
"Yes, I'm sure."
And about her parents. They called a few days ago, wondering why she wasn't at the airport. We got my parents to lie and tell them she was staying a little longer, since she hadn't seen us in years. They gave her a maximum of two weeks. So, for her, that meant two weeks of looking for Eilis before her parents told her it was time to come home. Sucks that our phones actually work here…..
Well, after a few more things asked, like what strategy we could use (we thought we could fake battle him and get Zen and Ookami to sneak behind him or close by, to use the dark, purple like power), who needed to stay behind (first, we said Yakumo, and she was fine with that. We said the kittens, of course, and they protested, but of course they were going to stay. We said Binka should stay and she protested BIG time, saying she'd shoot us if she couldn't go, so we let her (she had a bazooka aimed at us, bite me!). and then we tried to tell Ookami he should stay, but then he hyper formed into ultra hyper form and growled in protest, then gave us wolf eyes in his little form, so we said yes (like you'd do anything else).), and then the boys started bugging Kutaal, asking him if he was done cooking. He simply said (yelled, while pushing them), "Perfection takes time!"
After we were done, we finally headed out of there, going back to the little camp at the top of the hill. Binka took the young ones to hers and Yakumo's house in the city, since they were tired and she was, too. Yakumo followed after her after hugging everyone. Kutaal had gotten tired also, after a while, and just crawled into the old tint, snoring and cuddling a pot. Bolt and clip had stayed back at the headquarters…thing, with Hakuba.
We were all just lying on the ground, tired as heck, yet alert as ever, just because everything that had passed.
"Those stars look like me kicking ryuma's butt." Mushra announced, lying beside heather and shadow. We were making a circle.
"You sure it aint me, 'cause I'm the one who kicked his butt." Shadow said smiling his smug smile.
"Naw, it's me." Mushra said, then pointed up at the stars. "See, the face looks handsome. And everyone knows I'm handsome!" he tried to smile a charming smile that didn't really work.
"Yeah, ok. You may be handsome, kid, but I'm hot!" Shadow said, making everyone giggle.
"What?!" they both asked defensively.
"Nothing." We all said.
"It's just funny you guys think you're the cutest…" Zen laughed.
"Oh, and ya think you are?" Mushra asked, sitting up with a disbelieving look on his face.
Zen simply nodded.
"All of you guys are crazy." Sago said, and they all sat up and looked at him, him sitting up also, just in case he needed to defend himself.
"Wow, you really think you've got the best looks?" Mushra asked, really amused.
"Uh, yeah." He said, making it seem obvious, the way he said it. "Why, you think I'm lying?"
"Uh, yeah!"
"You're just jealous…."
"Jealous?!!" all three of the boys, other then sago, almost screamed, making Kutaal twitch in the tent a little bit.
"Yeah!"
"Your crazy, man." Shadow said.
"I think I know a way to settle this." Zen offered. The boys waited, listening. "Lets ask the girls what they think. That's the perfect answer."
They nodded and turned to us, Mushra saying, "Just tell'em girls, its better to let them know sooner then later." Shadow laughed, saying, "Just go ahead and let him off easy, ok?"
We all lay there on the grass, quiet. We didn't want to get into this, none of us, I could tell that about them. But when the guys got really pushy, we all gathered together, huddling and talking in low voices that they couldn't hear. It took us a minute to decide, and then we turned to them.
"We think," winter started. "That all four of you are very good looking and we are not choosing."
"Aw, come on!!!" they complained, not wanting to take that trash as an answer, but if we told them our real answer, the three who were unlucky would probably be mad for a while, so we just weren't doing that right now.
"Just tell us!!" Mushra said.
"Come on, Carly, tell me…" Shadow said in his trance inducing, soft voice (well, trance inducing for Carly, it was like how a smooth, silent guy would talk). It took her a few seconds, like always, before she snapped out of it and shook her head, saying no. "Dang it!" he said and sat back down, frustrated.
"Well, in my opinion…" Irayna began, up in a tree, trying to sleep. "I don't really give a flip about what you dogs look like, I just want you to shut up."
"Hey, I'm not a dog!" Shadow exclaimed, offended.
"Well, shut up and I won't call you one." She said with a smile towards him, though her eyes were shut.
He gave her a glare she couldn't see as she situated herself back on her back on the tree.
"Ok, I hate to break up this four person tug-of-war about who's the most good-looking, but it's getting late now, and my parents are gonna kill me, Winter and Carly if we're not home soon, ok? So we'll see you guys tomorrow." I said, standing up and stretching as Sago stood with me, one arm on my waist.
"Fine." Mushra said, then muttered, "Party pooper…." as Irayna exclaimed, "Finally! Now I can have peace and quiet!"
Zen kissed Winter and hugged her tight before she walked through the portal, then he headed to his tent. Mushra kissed heather on the cheek, they hit each other playfully a few times, then hugged, said good-bye and she headed after Winter. Shadow and Carly talked a little before she left, but I didn't listen in (no matter how much I wanted to….what can I say, I'm curious….).
"Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow." Sago said in an annoyed, yet playful tone as he smiled a little. I smiled a little, too.
"Yeah, see you tomorrow." I said, and we kissed, hugged, kissed one more time and then said good-bye and headed through the portal, Carly coming behind me soon enough.
As we landed back on earth, I turned to her as she landed beside me and asked, while walking, "So, is something up?" she looked a little worried, but at least it wasn't as bad as while we were traveling a month ago. And then I realized something that was looming on the end of this month, March. Amazingly, the four of us were born on the same day. Heather was born early, like at nine something a.m. Carly was born at twelve something. Winter was born at five something p.m. and I was born almost too late, meaning I was almost an April fools girl (a reason for my sarcasm, I'm sure), I was born at eleven fifty-five, p.m. So, soon, we'd all be seventeen.
"Huh?" she said, surprised at how good I was. "No, nothings wrong. Why would you say that?" she had a fake look of surprise and curiosity on her face, before it faded and she knew I wasn't catching on. "Ok, well….Shadow…was asking me…what we were going to do about me and where I'm staying…"
"What do you mean? You're staying with us…well, technically, your staying in Enterra, but your parents think your at our house, so…."
"No, he means after all this is over…If I'm going to find a way to stay near ya'll, or just stay in Enterra. Jaden, after this is over, I'll have to go back to my parents, who know nothing, especially nothing about my boyfriend. I'll have to act like he never existed…" she looked at the ground, not liking the thought, and I did also, feeling bad for her and not liking the thought of that ever possibly happening to me and Sago.
"Well, Carly, I don't really know what to say except…well, like before and now…I think you just need to fight for what you want. You may have to tell them in the end…if we're able to beat this…."
"We will." She said, to herself and me. "We have to."
I nodded.
"And, Jaden?"
"Hmm?"
"I just wanted to say thanks…for all the help you gave me with the whole Shadow thing." She smiled a small but very thankful smile at me.
"Carly, all I did was talk, I didn't really do too much."
"No matter how you help, its nice you tried, put effort into helping me be happier. And the talking helped a lot."
I smiled shyly, amazed I was that helpful. "No problem."
And then we headed in my house, ready for sleep, since twilight had faded and it was now night. We walked in my house and I saw heather making a pallet on the floor. I was surprised; you woulda thought that, after the fuss her mom and dad made, they'd want her near by.
"Hey, not saying I don't like you being here, but….why are you here?" I said.
She laughed a little as she lay on her pallet. "Well, I wanted to stay here for three reasons. One, and the reason I told my parents, was that there may be an emergency and your house is closest to the portal. And the other two are kinda linked. Two, I want to be close by so I can go to the portal, and I want to be here so my parents can't stop me and I can go earlier, and with less annoyance, than I can when I'm home."
"Ah." Me and Carly said.
"Where's everyone else?" I asked her.
"Your parents went to sleep, telling me and Winter that we better make sure you two come back and, if you do, that its only you, no boys or other visitors at this time." She told us, now lying down. "And Winter already went to bed, so I came in here to make a pallet. Carly, you'll have the couch, it's more comfy, and I'm fine here, so don't protest."
"Oh, ok…"
"Actually, Carly, you can take my room." I said. "I wanna sleep in here. Unless you want to."
"Actually, I hope this doesn't sound bad, but since we've been sleeping on the ground and other crap for a while, I'm going to take you up on that offer before you change you mind. Night!" she said and headed off. In the distance, we heard a tiny, happy squeal, the plop of someone landed on my bed, then happy sighing. We knew, she was in heaven.
The reason I had wanted to sleep in here was because, I'd gotten used to it lately, the whole non-bed thing and I think it best to keep away from the temptation of comfy-ness until I was sure I could sleep in my own bed without worry of an evil alien from another realm trying to take over. And also, I really missed my best friend that I always thought could be mine and Winters long-lost sister. I mean, yeah, we've been around each other a lot lately, but, though those times were depressing, I miss how we'd always be together before the boys got together with us. It was just me and her, the two amigos, three amigos, before Xavier came into the picture. But still, I just missed it, so I hoped we could talk and stuff, a little, before we went to bed.
We left the TV on, watching a little bit of it as we became really sleepy.
"So, um….." I tried to say something, to start a conversation, but couldn't think of anything other then lamely and stupidly asking, "Uh, have you been?"
"Uh…good. Not perfect. You should know, you've been with me most of the time." She laughed.
I laughed nervously. "Yeah, I know. I mean…like, how are you feeling? I don't know why, I just all of a sudden began to miss the days where me and you were always together, always hanging out, best friends. Even though it was when we were hurting, I miss it…and everything's just gotten so crazy. I wish me and you had time to just sit and veg and watch Shinzo, instead of journeying around on Enterra, trying to save our parents AND keep ourselves alive..."
She took a moment to think, but the nodded. "Yeah, I do miss it. The three musketeers, me, you and Winter. Well now it's…" she took only a few seconds to count. "Like, the nine musketeers, plus whoever else comes along."
I laughed, saying, "Yeah." Though I'm glad we're making new friends, its more people we have to keep track of, who we have to worry about-who we'll make ties with most likely, and who knows if those ties will stay together or be broken in the near future…
"So, what do you think about Sago's fate/destiny theory? You think is was a coincidence that we met, or that we're supposed to do this, supposed to help?" I said, staring out the window that was by the couch and just watching the stars as I wondered what MY answer was to my question.
"Well…I'm not sure. I mean, I've always been kind of neutral when it came to stuff like that. I just didn't think about stuff enough to really care about that. But, lately…well, I guess I kinda do believe it, yet I'm still unsure…You get what I mean?"
"Uh, kinda?" I said, but laughed, a big smile on my face. I don't know, that laugh just felt good.
She laughed, too. "So what about you?"
"Well, if I understand you correctly…" I said and we laughed a little. "I agree with you. I never really thought about it much either…" and then, as I wanted to keep talking, I thought of something else to ask. "I'm kind of wondering about something else…"
"How many things are you wondering about? I can tell there's more than one thing on your mind."
"Well, what I was thinking of right now, was what's up with Clip and Bolt? I mean, yeah, they were friends with the guys and stuff, but that was in the first season-or, well, in the first time-line. What's up with that?"
"Well, I think Mushra said something like, they were friends in this timeline, too. He said there meeting was kind of the same as before."
"In what way?" I asked, really curious.
"You know how they were competitive on the first time line." It wasn't a question. We'd always laugh as we watched Bolt and Mushra talk about how the other was better.
"Yeah?"
"Well, when they met, Clip and bolt had been looking for parts for Daigo. He still wasn't repaired, so they were looking around Mechano City for parts and the gang had been heading there to check it out, wondering how different it was from the first season-I mean, time-line. And they bumped into each other. Well, the gang remembered them fine, but Bolt and Clip and them didn't know the gang, so they tried to get to know each other again. It kinda happened the same as when they first met, like them fixing him up, Mushra messing with it. But anyways, after fights and competitions between Mushra and Bolt, they become friends. Or, to Mushra, aquatints. So, yeah, now they're all friends!" she smiled.
"Oh…" I said, still a bit confused, mostly because I hate trying to think about the past and the future. It hurts my head sometimes.
"so, anything else you're wondering?" she asked me, saving me from a headache from trying again (stupidly) to think of the past, present and future.
Just then, I don't know if it just really sunk in, or if I had just been keeping myself from really thinking about it, but then I thought about what we were doing. We weren't go after some gay snake prince who can't protect himself worth a crap. Not a bug king (who we actual didn't have to fight). We weren't even after enterrans anymore, we were going after Kadrians! A very powerful Kadrian who was now looking for the one enemy that the gang almost wasn't able to defeat. He was going after freaking Lanuncurus!
"What are we thinking, heather?" I asked and I hated that there was fear and doubt in my voice.
"What do you mean?" she said, hearing how I sounded and sitting up.
I sat up to and said, "Heather, we're going after Lanuncurus. You remember how hard they fought and how long it took them to defeat him, don't you? If it wasn't for the guardians giving Mushra his old guardian powers, then enterra would have been either taking over and in ruins, or destroyed along with every other freaking planet!!! Do we really believe we'll be able to do this?!"
Heather watched me for a moment, but then said, "Jaden, we just have to…stay positive. Ok?"
"It's really hard to stay positive when you know that you may have to fight a freaking three stories tall, purple guy who use to be a freaking guardian and has plenty of powers! AND! He could steal the guys powers again, remember?! Their powers came from him!"
"Ok, stop, Jaden." She told me with an annoyed look on her face. "Look, I know that what we're trying to do seems so impossible, but you know what? If we keep faith in each other and just believe we can do this, we will! So stop!"
"How can I stay calm knowing what we're doing?!"
"Jaden, calm down!"
"No! I can't calm down knowing everything I love may be destroyed soon!!!" I finally let that out, hating my negative-ness, but no one else was seeing right and I just couldn't find anything to blind me of reality. I couldn't keep myself from thinking about it now and I hated how I was the one who was always thinking about the bad things. "I wish this wasn't happening, heather, I wish it all just went away!"
She got up and sat on the couch with me and rubbed my shoulder, like the friend she was. "That's exactly the reason why we've gotta do this, Jaden. Or else we'll loose everything. I hate to sound like a cheesy TV show, but, if we keep fighting and don't give up or doubt ourselves, we can do this. We have to. Ok?"
I looked at her and nodded, knowing she was right, but knowing that there were plenty of things to doubt. I shut my eyes and tried not to think about them.
We went to sleep then, and I wished I hadn't broken down like that. I wish I could either keep my mouth shut for the rest of this journey, or I could completely wipe my mind of my doubts.
We had to do this, no matter what. If it came to Eilis succeeding in bringing him back in whatever way he planned….then we had to fight. There was no other way. We had to.