Please Don't Let Me Go

He's the love of my life. I met him over 2 years ago. Just before he became famous, he asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes and we have been happy ever since.

But I've been avoiding him for the last week. Since I found out. I panicked. I'm moving in with him and his band soon. How would he react? Would he stick by me? We're both only 18. He's in a boy band. He wouldn't have the time to help. Oh god. I don't know what to do anymore. To be honest, I'm scaring myself more than I need to. No one knows yet. Not him. Not my family. Not my friends. No one. No one except myself and it drives me crazy but I'm too scared to tell anyone. He should know.

I took a deep breath before opening the door to his house with my key. I had tears in my eyes and was slightly shaking. Oh god. I hope nobody notices.

"He's upstairs" Said a voice. I didn't bother to acknowledge who it was. I just nodded and took the first step.

Climbing upstairs seemed to take forever as I thought through in my head what I was going to say to him. I was just going to be upfront with him. He had the right to know.

I walked into his bedroom and just stood there. Staring at him. He stood up and wrapped his arms around me. I inhaled his scent. I couldn't live without it.

"You okay babe?" He said in a worried voice.

This is it. I'm going to tell him. I led him over to the bed and he sat beside me. I grabbed his hand and our finger locked together

"Nathan..." I took a deep breath "I'm pregnant"

He just stared at me for a while. I could see in his eyes that he had around a million things running through his mind. Honestly, I didn't blame him. I wouldn't even blame him if he never wanted to see me again. We should have been more careful.

After a while is mouth moved but no words came out.

"Please say something Nath" I begged

"You're... Pregnant?" He whispered.

"What do you mean your pregnant?" He sounded angry. I didn't blame him

Being the baby of the band I suppose this is the last thing he was expecting.

"I'm so sorry Nath..." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"You have nothing to be sorry for" I could barley hear him, he was talking so quietly

"Who else knows?"

"No one" I said

We hear a cheer from downstairs. Football most likely.

"We need to tell them" He said, standing up.

My eyes went wide "Now?"

He nodded and held out his hand. I took it and stood up as he guided me downstairs into the living room.

"Guys" He said "We- we need to tell you something"

Tom, Max, Jay and Siva all sat down and nodded, signalling us to continue.

Nathan looked at me. I took a deep breath.

"I'm pregnant" I said, closing my eyes and squeezing Nath's hand.

"Whoa" Said Siva's strong Irish accent.

"Since when?" Asked Tom

Nathan looked at me. "A week?" He asked more than answered.

I nodded and added "and 5 days"

Jay came and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek "You guys aren't gonna be alone in this"

"Thanks" I said, honestly grateful that he would be willing to help us.

"You need to tell Jayne" Max said, giving me a hug.

"We know" Nathan said "It's gonna be the death of me."

He let go of my hand and walked into the kitchen "Wanna cuppa tea babe?" He asked

"I'm alright thanks"

I sat down on the sofa and brought my knees up to my chest. Tom came and sat next to me and put an arm around me.

"It's gonna be alright" He said

"I don't even know if I want to keep it yet though"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, I'm 18, Nathan's 18, we're not ready to be parents and he's not gonna have time to help anyway and" I just stopped. Things were going through my mind but I couldn't find the words to say.

Nathan walked back into the room and sat the other side of me and Tom went upstairs. I rested my head on Nath's shoulder and sighed. He put and arm around me and kissed the top of my head.

"I love you babe" He said softly

"I love you too Nath"