Ode to you
By: MM2005
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN CHRNO CRUSADE! I WISH I DID! THAT WOULD BE…"JAKE"! EHEHEHEHEHEHHE "DUCK SOUP!" "APPLESAUCE!" EEHHEHEHEHEHEHE JELLO! (wait…..) DON'T MIND ME….I'M ON CRACK!
Why did you have to die?
This question plagues me every minute of everyday. I let the one thing that made sense in my life fall right through my fingers. I wish you were here with me.
How did I survive? I was suppose to die with you. I woke up as they were carting my body from the house. I screamed your name, but you didn't answer.
I killed you.
How could I have let you throw your life away? Why did you die? I would've gladly died so you could've lived, but why am I living and you dead?
The clock ran out…your clock of happiness stopped. You didn't get to live your life and fulfill your dream of being an explorer. I wish I could give you your life back. I want you to know that I loved you with all my heart. I still love you…even after death.
My world is cold now. Azmaria contacts me from time to time. I know she is just trying to be a good person, but she reminds me of you too much. You would be proud of her. She has become just like you. She takes cases like you and even has taken some of your more redeeming qualities, but…she will never be you.
No one can replace you.
When the rain falls, I feel like it is your tears and they are trying to comfort me, but the thunder booms and I know only of the heartache that I endure for days on end.
Why?
I loved you. You loved me. I saw it in your eyes…I heard it in your voice. Whenever my name crossed your sweet lips, I could feel your love. I miss your voice and how your eyes held me. I would give anything for you to speak once more.
But no more…
I will never see you…I will live all of eternity alone because…I am a devil. Devils are meant to be alone and you were my grace from God. You were my only reason for living and now…I will see these generations fly by like leaves in the wind. Alone.
I am without you.
The darkness draws into me again and I deny it. I can't let myself be tainted ever again. I need to keep your memory and your reason for life alive inside of me.
Your life was so short, yet meant so much to the lives you touched.
How can I ever hope to go on? I am lost without you…I am lost in the abyss of loneliness. I am lost within myself.
Is life worth living this way…?
A.n: what do you think? I might turn this into a story…idk. PLEASE REVIEW! Or will return and ensue evil upon you all….MWHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!