Strange Relationship

Written By: Yashshii-Soshite-Mujaki


Disclamer: Gravitaion belongs to Maki Murakami, not me. The song

'Strange Relationship" belongs to Darren Hayes, off of the CD Spin.

(It's really good BTW)


Lyrics are in ~~blah blah~~ thingys. The story part is in -- thingys.


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~~Do you love me?

Or am I just another trip?

In this strange relatinship

you push and pull me

'Til I'm about to lose my mind

Is this just a waste of time?~~


--Eiri Yuki. My boyfriend, confidant, my lover. I wonder if he really

does love me. I know I'm in his way alot, and he doesn't like to show

affection in public. Or really anywhere else, except in

bed. I know he thinks the music I like is noisy sometimes, and he

doesn't like to be glomped, either.


~~Keep acting likeyou own me

I keep running

watch me walkin' out that door

I hear you behind me~~


--Maybe I'll hang out with Hiro more ofter. That way Yuki will have more

time to write his novels. I wish he didn't smoke so much. It's really

bad for his health nad he might end up with lung cancer or something.

God, I hope he never does, I don't know what i'd do if he died. Maybe I

should leave so I wouldn't have to find out.


~~Gimme that strame relationship

Never felt pleasure and pain like this

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong

I keep holding on~~


--Yuki is my first boyfriend. he acts so mature and I've never seen him

act childish. Does he think I'm too childish? I don't think he minds,

because he said it was cute once. But, then again, he was drunk then.

So, who knows if that really true or not?


~~Gimme that strange relationship

One of us gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I'm already gone~~


--Wouldn't he have told me to leave if he didn't want me? He's not

exactly shy to saying things bluntly. I guess averyone has second

thoughts or concerns like these when they're is relationsips.

So, why do I think he's tired of me?


~Do you love me?

We break up and back together

And I swear myself never

But, oh, how you do me

you strip me of my honor

And I don't think I'm gonna~~


--Has he ever said 'I love you'? I can remember his saying he cherished

me, but not loved. Do I love him? I think so, but he makes me feel

inferior. When we talk, I always feel like I'm a five-year-old and he's

some worldly adult.


~~Break free of these mind games

All I'm trying to do is modify my plan

Cause I can't cantain you~~


--I wonder if he has me planned in his future. I know I do, at least

until tomorrow. I'm not planning out my future, I'd rather live each day

as it comes by. I wonder if I'm in his future? Probably not.


~~Gimme that strange relationship

Never felt pleasure and pain like this

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong

I keep holding on

Gimme that strange relationship

One of us gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I'm already gone~~


--It would be best if I left him. Neither of us would have to suffer any

longer and we both can concentrate on other things more. I won't have to

put up with him controlling me and he won't have me bugging him all the

time.


~~You keep acting like you own me

Like you control me

You said you never really wanted me back

Well, maybe that's a fact~~


--After all, Yuki is very private. Maybe he's seeing someone else on the

other side. He's hardly ever home any more, and sometimes when I call

him, he doesn't answer to phone. That would absolutly break me, to find

that out. But, still, I can't see anyone else he would date, probably

because they wouldn't understand him. Hell, I barely understand him.

Maybe that's how he's always been.


~~May I suggest a brand new plan of attack

And in defense to that

You're hard to crack

You're way off track

I want you back

I want you gone

Maybe I'm sick of holding on~~


--I defintly am going to leave him. The more I think about us, the

better that option seems. I can't let him destroy me and I won't destroy

him. I couldn't handle being responsible for that. I would never be able

to forgive myself if I did. oh, Yuki...


~~Do you love me?

Or am I just another trip?

In this strange relationship

Gimme that strange relationship

One of us has gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I keep holding on~~


--When he gets home i'll ask him. The one thing that will determine

whether I stay or leave. Then I can be totally sure about us. Wait, I

hear the door.


"Yuki? Do you love me," I asked, my eyes filling with hope and

determination.


"Shuuichi, you know what you are to me. Just like a passing dream. One

day it will be gone, and I won't really notice."


~~ Gimme that strange relationship

One of us has gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I'm already gone.~~


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Author's Notes: Sorry about that!!! I ment to write a happy story. But,

evidently, it didn't work. Next time I'll get it right. This is my first

Gravitation fic, BTW. I've never seen the anime, only read parts of the

manga, but I hope i got the general idea. Anyway, please send comments

to:

rina_rose1x2@hotmail.com

or write a review.

Thanks!!