This is my least nice fic, you have been warned. Yes I know this is AU!

I laugh with them.

I cry with them.

I bleed with them.

I love with them.

But I am not them.

I have never been them.

I will never be them.

But I cannot,

must not,

tell them I am not them.

I cannot tell Him, that I not Her.

What would he do? Scream? Go insane? Kill himself? Kill me? I don't know. None of the outcomes are pleasant.

I look like her. I talk like her. I feel like her, or rather, how she did before . . . before . . .

Oh Takato how can tell you? It would destroy you! You would roll over and die!

Not after everything you've gone through, after everything you've lost, after everything you sacrificed for her.

How could I tell you the horrible, evil, nightmarish truth?

It would kill you.

I am certain of that more than anything I have been in my short life.

Shorter than you know. More then God permitting, than you'll even know.

I might kill myself if you knew Takato, to spare you anymore pain.

I am the true clone Takato, the real Jeri was killed in the last battle with the D-reaper.

You should know. You killed her.

Jeri had embraced the darkness, embraced the D-Reaper's vision.

She had become one with it. She WAS the D-Reaper. She WAS the chaos.

For a time after my 'birth' I was convinced that I was indeed the true Jeri Kato.

The reality hit me soon enough. Even Calumon didn't know, couldn't know.

I was everything Jeri no longer wanted. Her emotions. Her memories. Her regrets. Her pain. Her love. The D-Reaper wanted to observe this weak side of humanity, and thus kept it.

I finally remember last night Takato.

'Daddy' asked me why I had been crying.

I made up some lame brain excuse I don't even recall.

I will not tell you.

I cannot tell you.

I must not tell you.

But if it means anything Takato, I do love you. As much as that can mean, from an imposter.

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