My Own Person Chapter 1
Haruka Lin The New Me
A/N: I picked the name Haruka Lin randomly and I think it doesn't really suit Cyborg in my opinion. I'm new to the story writing thing however. JAIO IS NOT AN OC JUST A RANDOM CHARACTER AND I HATE OC'S!
Disclaimer: I own nothing this is for entertainment only the Gorillaz belong to Jamie Hewlett and Damon Albarn.
Plot: Cyborg is tired of being 'secondary' so she decides to start a new identity as Haruka Lin. She then realizes what she really wants…to be human and to be loved. Since the greatest thing is to love and to be loved in return. Rated T for language
It was an average day on the floating island of filth called Plastic Beach. Murdoc was in the recording studio with 2D, Russel, and the real Noodle. The real Noodle had just returned the band seemed to be normal despite having a more woman like Noodle with them. In the engine room Cyborg Noodle was being feed oil with millions of chords with various colors hooked up to her back her ears and head. She snarled and coughed it disgusted her that the real Noodle was back and Murdoc was going to dispose her. She looked down sadly no one understood that she was more human than she appears to be, if she had a heart it would be broken as if stomped on and ripped apart. She would be no more and no one would remember her as if she never existed.
She sat up and pulled the chords from her ears. Her shoulders sagged and black tears filled her synthetic eyes. A new feeling rose a feeling of fire and hatred. She snarled her neck snapped and her body twitched repeatedly. She had now gone insane from the anger burning her body she furiously threw the tools of the shelf and screamed she continued ripping things from the shelves. She threw down the shelves and kicked the walls still screaming desperately. She pushed herself on to the wall putting a dent in the wall.
She grabbed handfuls of her synthetic hair and ripped strands from her head. "I'LL BE MY OWN PERSON AND NO IMPOSTER!" she screamed to herself taking knives and jabbing them into the wall. She then stomped on the floor and pulled more strands of her hair. The cyborg collapsed to the floor in exhaustion black tears fell from her eyes to the floor. "Who am I?" She asked the air softly burying her face in her hands. She then threw a fist through the wall "I would run away but I can't swim" the cyborg put her fingers in the oil on her eyes and painted a cat mask on the wall. She stared blankly and sobbed "Why did you have to come back?"
Of course the painting didn't respond Cyborg didn't expect it to. She then painted her face next to the mask with black oozing from her face and a horrifying sad expression. She placed her forehead on the wall her eyes continued to ooze black tears. She then heard footsteps and her head dropped after hearing the door open the cyborg turned around and saw 2D standing wide-eyed looking at the room.
"Wot the hell happened here?" he asked her and the cyborg simply shrugged and turned away
"Are you here to tell me how much of an imposter I am?" she asked calmly glaring at him with her black eyes
"No, I heard noises and I came here to check it out…" 2D said putting his fingers to his temple "Um you do realize that Murdoc is going to get rid of y-,"
"I'M NOT STUPID!" she roared and stood up "Tell me something I don't know now should you be spending time with your 'little love'? If you came to annoy me I will kill you right now on this spot with that hammer over there. I am NOT in the mood for being told off Stuart Pot! So if you want to live or be able to sing again you will stop saying this bull about me! You see those nails over there I will hang you to the wall and kill you very slowly. Now do you understand me?" she now had him pressed to the wall poor 2D had almost wet his pants.
"I-I-I-I y-yes p-please don't kill me!" he begged and tears came out of his eyes the Cyborg started feeling sympathy for him oddly.
"Alright I won't kill you because that would be useless and I don't want to kill you…because Murdoc is going to do that for me one of these days" Cyborg Noodle walked past 2D and angrily shot him a glare. She needed to plan an escape somehow she would be able to get the submarine and ride of somewhere perhaps her systems could detect a nearby island. She decided the time she would plan an escape 12:00 when everyone is asleep she had it planned out in her mind everything seemed perfect and nothing could get in her way. 2D walked out the room but was stopped halfway when Cyborg tugged his arm and brought him back in the room. "Bring me a suitcase" she said and 2D nodded. He returned 6 minutes later prior according to the timer implanted on Cyborgs arm he handed her the suitcase and ran out of the room quickly. Cyborg packed some guns in the suitcase and military clothes she had lying around she decided to have a new identity but she had to back a lot of stuff….she sneaked up to Noodles room and got some black, blue, red, and pink lipstick she stuffed them in the suitcase. She took some eyeliner and colored contact lenses…she wondered why Noodle had these in her room…
She made her way to the bathroom she got black hair dye and a hairbrush she went back to Noodles room and got some regular clothes. she made her way to the engine room where she got tons of oil cans. Next she waited anxiously till everyone was asleep. Once her systems scanned that everyone was asleep she made her way outside and jumped into a submarine she looked at the control system and got the submarine running she reapeated to herself 'Theres no turning back now'
Cyborg's POV next day
The submarine rode smoothly against the water. I deeply wondered how water felt since I didn't dare to touch water. I decided a name for myself Haruka Lin it had a nice ring to it and it was Japanese. No one had to know I was a robot no one since I wouldn't tell them it would be my secret. This is a new beginning for me a chance to start over and show the world or at least some people that I'm not an imposter. I got up quickly and took out black lipstick from the suitcase
"Alright, Haruka Lin a girl from Japan punk rock chick loves vocaliod and is here to start again" I looked at myself in the glass window reflection and applied the lipstick "I am Haruka Lin" I said to myself quietly and kept an eye on the ocean water in case something crossed the submarines path. I put eyeliner on and reached for the suit case. I grabbed a black and blue stripped tang top and put it on afterwards I put on black shorts and black and white knee socks. I looked at myself in the reflection again I grabbed a pair of scissors and cut the fake blue locks my hair was now only covering my eyes. Lastly to complete my transformation I put blue contact lenses I looked…nothing like Noodle- my goal was finally reached.
I sat down again and started monitoring the surface with my program there was an island nearby. I drove the submarine up to the surface it docked on land finally I will be able to feel the new beginning and smell the new air. I got out of the submarine and looked around near was a beach with people in bathing suits I decided to go to the beach and blend in with the crowd. Once I was there I sat down on a towel lying there in the sand I figured it would be fine if I just sat here and mind my own business.
"Hey! That's my towel you're sitting on get off!" A girl said and startled me she got the towel and threw me off…it sent me tumbling on my back I glared at her she obviously doesn't know whose she's messing with "Who are you looking at?" she hissed and flipped her blonde silk hair.
"I'm sorry" I said looking at her green eyes. Maybe she would tell me where I am…. "If you don't mind me asking where am I?"
"You're in Hawaii beauty queen. What's wrong did you manage to cross the Japanese boarder and somehow ended up in a mysterious land?" She said standing up tall and straight showing off her obnoxious curves. She was really starting to piss me off.
"Shut up blonde" I said and she shoved me once more this time I felt someone catch me I looked behind and saw a girl with long black wavy hair and piercing brown eyes she was wearing a two piece bikini she had milky tanned skin her eyes where slanted like mine however my systems indicated she was Chinese not Japanese like Noodle and I.
"Stop being racist Natalie! She didn't do anything to you so leave her alone" she said she had a sharp Chinese accent and seemed to tumble over each word she had said. "Come with me" She said to me and helped me up. She grabbed my wrist and pulled me toward a house near the beach I watched her legs as she moved …I wish I had real flesh and bones like Noodle and her. She walked through the backdoor of a house and closed the door behind me and grabbed a coat she wrapped it around herself I wondered what the hell she was doing with me… she let go of my hand and lead me to the kitchen were we sat down on the kitchen table.
"Hi" she said shyly smiling her milky teeth showing
"Hello" I said slightly annoyed with my static voice however it sounded a little bit normal. She seemed to notice my voice however she smiled a little bit wider.
"My name is Jiao what's yours?" She asked eagerly giving me her attention.
"It's Cy- Haruka" I said a little bit embarrassed since I almost called myself Cyborg she didn't seem to question my mistake however.
"That's Japanese right? Are you Japanese? I'm from China I just came here to visit my grandmother Rin" Jiao said leaning into her chair "Are you lost? You seem lost…"
"Yeah I'm Japanese and um" I thought quickly "Oh I have a little memory loss however but I remember little fragments of things…I was on a boat and uh the boat crashed and I hit my head on something that's how I got memory loss I found this submarine on a shore and took off on it that's how I ended up here…" I lied and she seemed to believe it completely I felt sorry for her lack of attention. A frown came to her lips she felt sympathy for me I could feel it in my emotion detector.
"Would you like to stay here with me? I'm sure Grandma will let you. I saw the submarine. You can get your stuff from there I'll be waiting here and remember this house number is 764 in case you get lost again." I nodded and headed out the front door. When I got my things I returned back to her grandmother's house now she was sitting on the living room couch with headphones on. She must be to engaged in music she didn't notice me I took this opportunity to hide my guns and oil cans within some sort of abandoned cabinet that wouldn't budge open until I managed to yanked it open. I put my guns and oils in there and shut the cabinet the cabinet seem to stay shut tightly again so that I couldn't open it. There must have been some sort of glue or something holding the cabinet closed..? I walked up to the couch and sat next to her then she noticed me.
"Hey" she greeted and fingered her I-Pod suddenly I could hear 2D's voice coming from the headphones. She was playing empire ants I recognized the tune.
"You like the Gorillaz?" I asked raising my fake eyebrows
"Yeah they rock! And I love Plastic beach that's their second best album in my opinion. I can't believe the real Noodle had to come back I feel sorry for Cyborg. You have no idea what I'm talking about do you?" She asked me I slightly shook my head.
"I know what you're talking about…though I heard Cyborg ran away from plastic beach she got tired of being treated like an imposter. I'm pretty sure they'll show it on the news."
"You mean she's not gonna sing anymore? Though she will be in the public's eyes I know that for sure. Do you think she'll be okay?" she asked me in a small voice pressing the stop button on her I-pod to listen to me.
"I don't know. But what I do know is that no one will be missing her"
"But I will miss her" she paused for a moment and looked at me "You look A LOT like her…" she said without suspicion in her voice it made me chuckle.
"I know I do" I said ending the conversation.
Night
Jiao led me to my own room it had its own small bed and had a lot of Chinese writing on the walls that I couldn't read nor could my systems scan. I grabbed an oil can from the kitchen when Jiao was asleep and gulped it down suddenly I wished that Murdoc had not gave me the sense of taste. It was horrid tasting but I gulped it down anyways my body felt more flexible now and able to move. I took the last gulp and threw the can outside. I boredly wondered what to do…then I saw a noticed an X-Box connected to the TV- YES! I looked through a pile of games next to the council I found what seemed entertaining to play Rock Band I turned on the X-Box and turned the TV on I put the volume on the lowest it could go. I put Rock Band on the tray and closed it. I saw the guitar next to the TV and the microphone grabbed them both and hit play on rock band.
Jiao must have downloaded songs on here since there where tons of Gorillaz songs on there …so I decided to sing DARE or at least try. When the music started I felt it coursing through my robot body I couldn't help but to dance to it
"You've got to press it on you! You just think it that's what you do baby hold it down DARE!" I sang and it surprised me because I hit the notes perfectly not missing anything perhaps I do have Noodle's voice. I started doing Noodle's butt shake move and I started laughing at myself I feel like Murdoc! After the song was over I was satisfied with my vocals and wanted to try another song on guitar. I chose Murdoc Is God on high level I seemed to smoke right through
"Murdoc is GOOOODDDD!" I sang and silently oopsed when I realized there are people sleeping in this town. I sighed and finished the song to easily … I missed Plastic Beach suddenly but there was nothing I could do I promised myself I will not go back never. I picked up the guitar again and played Ghost Train
Next day Morning
Jiao woke up early and luckily I put all the X-Box stuff away before she gotten up. She offered me breakfast but I lied and said I already eaten. Because eating would damage my system I couldn't let that happen. Jiao sang while she was eating she seemed to be obsessed with my last band…she had a T-Shirt on of me and 2D I remember when I took that photo. And while she ate she sang El Manana sadly she had a good voice it was soft and smooth I like that perhaps she'll become a singer one day. She hit the notes perfectly and the chorus was fine but a little shaky at the end however I felt that neither of us could sing El Manana. 2D's Vocals were perfect on that song it had mix of perfect sadness in it no one can match 2D's pain…he must have been upset when he heard that Noodle was dead- even if that meant Murdoc was lying.
"Any time you want to be mine" she sang while lifting her spoon up with cereal in it.
"Any time you want to be mine" I sang softly enough so that she wouldn't hear me.
"Hey Haruka do you think 2D loves Noodle?" she asked me whilst tapping the counter with her fingertips.
"I don't know" I said honestly but when I looked back it did seem they had a connection but I couldn't tell if it was a brotherly sisterly bond "I think so"
"So if he does than that would mean he loves Cyborg to?" she asked curiously leaning back in her chair and putting her elbows on the table.
"No he doesn't. He's convinced that she is cold and calculating and he once told her that she is nothing just an imposter a piece of junk. He hates her and wished she was never created he knows he cannot love something fake" I explained
"Oh" she said and frowned at me "Your eyeliner is smearing… your crying…I'm sorry" she said and put out her hand to wipe away the oil coming from my eyes I stopped her though by rubbing the oil away with my sleeve. I was glad she was convinced it was my eyeliner.
Now I wish Murdoc hadn't put me with these human emotions I'm so confused…I'm a robot for god's sake! A stupid left over robot…I sadly made my way to the couch Jiao turned on the TV for me it was the news…
"Gorillaz Cyborg singer missing last seen one day ago malfunctioning in the plastic beach engine room Murdoc Niccal's the bands bass player states 'ay she was afraid that I was going to shut the lad down that wat it is'" The TV stated I turned away and sighed I wish I could tell someone I was Cyborg but I don't want to break my promise to myself
Jiao had no idea that I was Cyborg…so end for now I suppose.