What I thought wasn't mine in the light,
Wasn't one of a kind a precious pearl
When I wanted to cry I couldn't 'cause I wasn't allowed
I would have been severely chastised for such tears but what did it matter? You were gone and I didn't stop you. I had the words and had I spoken them, that night it rained, you would have been mine and your debt wouldn't matter anymore.
Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end; I never needed a friend like I do now
I opened the window to let the rain come in and wash away my tears but they couldn't take away the pain I felt in my heart. Rumors said that you weren't happy anymore, that the light was gone from your eyes. I must confess that I've been down and out ever since you left. Do you miss me like I miss you?
What I thought wasn't all so innocent
Was a delicate doll of porcelain
When I wanted to call you and ask you for help I stopped myself
I could have emailed you, called you, written to you, anything to let you know that I missed you, needed you and wanted you here with me. I know you would have gotten it and come right away; that's just how you are. So many letters, all of them unsent, lie here on my desk beside the last photograph I have of you.
Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end; I never needed a friend like I do now
Would it have meant anything to you, if I had tried to win your love? Would you have blessed me with it? Your smiles would be my sun and your eyes are the stars. I would give anything to have you here with me now.
What I thought was a dream, a mirage
Was as real as it seemed, a privilege
When I wanted to tell you, I made a mistake I walked away
Every day, I live with regret and the pain of a broken heart.
Gomenasai, for everything, Gomenasai, Gomenasai
Gomenasai, I never needed a friend, like I do now
Gomenasai, I let you down, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai, Gomenasai till the end, I never needed a friend like I do now
Haruhi…