A/N: Another new story from yours truly! Enjoy and please review!

Jude plopped the mail on the kitchen table and went to make herself a cup of coffee. She sat at the table, mug in hand, and rifled through the mail with a yawn.

"Junk mail, junk mail, junk mail…hmm…what's this?" A big beige envelope had caught her eye. It was addressed to Jude Harrison. "It's been five years since someone has called me by that name," she said softly. Since she had moved out to California when she was 18 she had officially changed her name to Lauren Johansen. She looked for the return address, and found there wasn't one. Curiously, she opened it and a CD fell out. She picked it up and went to put it in her CD player above the sink. A familiar voice rang out.

Where does it hurt?
Tell me cause I understand
The words of a heart
Beating like wings in…

It was her own voice. The sound of it brought tears to her eyes. It was the last song she had ever recorded. The last time she had seen…him. She never got the chance to here the finished product, or to say goodbye. The longer she listened to it the harder it became to hold back the tears. She could still picture G-Major as if she had been there yesterday. She could still see the studios and the busy people that she cared about around her. Still picture Karma, Spied, and the rest of the SME boys messing around while Sadie tried to maintain order. And Kwest would be in the kitchen making a huge sandwich while watching Sadie trying to run everything all by herself. Then Jamie could be found trying to convince Darius into another record deal. But lastly, there was him. Tommy, the best producer she ever had. It was entirely his fault she had left in the first place. Well, maybe not entirely his fault. But close enough.

Where does it hurt?

The song ended and she was just about to stop the player when a second song started to play. The moment she heard his voice a huge smile spread across her face.

And why do I need?
Why do I need someone else?
Cause you comfort me
You show me how to be myself

Another late night and a radio
Turn the dial to another sad song

And all I need is a day inside
Inside your mind to see what it's like
And all I'm missing in you I see
Am I who you want? Am I what you need?

Why do you see?
Why do you see someone else?
Cause I'm losing sleep
I feel like time is running out

If you had called an hour ago
This basement might not be so cold

And all I need is a day inside
Inside your mind to see what it's like
And all I'm missing in you I see
Am I who you want? Am I what you need?

Whoa…Whoa…

And why do I need…
Why do I need someone else?

When all I need is a day inside
Inside your mind to see what it's like
And all I'm missing in you I see
Am I who you want? Am I what you need?

Whoa…Whoa…

Am I what you need?

The song ended and Jude, still smiling, took the CD out and went back to sit at the table. She was impressed. She had never heard a song by him that sounded so beautiful, that had so much depth. The doorbell rang and Jude jumped knocking her coffee all over her shirt.

"My favorite shirt!" she cried as she grabbed a towel and went to get the door.

"Good morning Lauren," said Sean as she opened the door while still trying to save her shirt.

"Oh hey," she said looking up as she let him in. Sean had been her boyfriend for the last two months. She had finally thought that she was ready to move on from him. But from her reaction to his song now she wasn't quite so sure anymore. "I spilled coffee all over my favorite shirt," she said as she followed him into the kitchen.

"Yeah well, you always were a little bit clumsy," he said as he poured himself a cup of coffee. Jude glared at him until he looked up. "Just kidding," he said with a smile. "You know I love you."

"Yeah, right," she said as they both sat at the table.

"Why do you always do that?" he asked as she was still trying to clean off her shirt.

"Do what?" she said looking up.

"Every time I say I love you think I'm joking."

"I didn't say…"

"You didn't say that but you never say it back," he said staring at her. She knew he was right. She really did like Sean, but love him? She wasn't sure.

"You know that I do though," she said staring back at him with her big eyes.

"Then say it, tell me that you love me," he said looking into her eyes.

"I…I…," he looked at her intently. "I love you," she said finally.

"You're lying."

"What?!"

"You're flat out lying; I can see it in your eyes."

'Sean I…"

"Just tell me, is there someone else?"

"There's no one else Sean I…"

"Then what's wrong why can't you love me?"

"I do love you it's just that…"

"It's just that what? You're too caught up with Tom Quincy still?"

"I…what?" she said in shock. "How do you know about Tommy?"

"I, he's my cousin."

"And you didn't tell me? What else do you know?" she said as she stood up.

"All I know is that you and Tommy were really close, you're name used to be Jude, and you used to have blonde hair." Jude was speechless.

"I…I…"

"You don't have to say anything. But I think it's obvious that Tommy really likes you, and maybe you really like him?"

"Sean, you have to understand…that was five years ago. I am so…"

"Don't lie to me again. I know you too well." He paused. "I know that you still like him, probably love him. I've seen the pictures you have of him in your room."

"Under my bed," she said innocently.

"Still, I get the point." He stood up as well.

"Are you leaving?" she asked as he walked toward the door.

"I have plans for today."

"But I thought we had plans…" He turned and looked at her.

"We did," he said as he opened the door.

"So what is this goodbye for now or…?"

"This is just…goodbye," he said as he left.

"But Sean I…" but he just kept on walking. "Great," she said as she closed the door. "It's been five whole years and I still have feelings for the guy that made me come out here in the first place!"

Jude went back to the kitchen and picked up the envelope. A letter fell out. She picked it up, along with the CD, and took it to her room. She opened it as she closed the door.

Dear Jude,

Or should I say dear Lauren? I really don't know what to say. The last
time I saw you was 5 years ago when your name was still Jude and you
had blonde hair.

'How did he know I dyed my hair brown?' she thought for a moment. 'Well duh, Sean must have sent him pictures and Tommy must have sent some to him.'

I still can't believe you just left like that. I just…I don't know. So anyway
how's Sean treating you? Yes I know Sean; he sent me pictures of his new
'girlfriend'.

'So he knows that I have, or at least had, a boyfriend. That's awkward,' she thought as she tried to imagine his reaction. 'Yes, very awkward.'

Sean's the one who told me that you changed your name and dyed your
hair. Of course he didn't know that until I told him.

"You also told him that we were very close," she said out loud.

I really just wrote to tell you that…well that I miss you. I really, really do.
Anyhow, hope you liked the CD, you sound amazing in it. And just so you
know…I wrote that song especially for you.

Jude let out a small gasp.

Because remember Jude…I still love you.

Jude's eyes watered up.

Love Always,
Tommy Q.

Jude finished reading the letter and then just started crying. She missed him too. But most importantly, he still loved her. Well what if she still loved him too? 'No,' she thought to herself. 'You can't still love him. He'll just hurt you again. But what if I don't care?' Jude let out a sigh. It didn't matter anyway, she was never going back.

A/N: Okay so please tell me what you think. Thanks!