I swore to myself I would never fall for someone as I knew I'd end up getting hurt not only would I probably never find someone who accepted me for me but I definitely wouldn't find someone who accepted me being able to read minds, however when Blaine came along I may have broken that rule. He was so sweet and charming and to dapper to be real and my head just screamed 'he's perfect!'

Oh how wrong my stupid mind was.

When it came to February I'd known him almost 6 months and had been in love with him since Christmas. I had been sure that he returned my feelings, we went on coffee 'dates' and he knew my order and paid for me and we held hands and had movie weekends. I was sure that he at least liked me back. But then a week before valentine's day he held an emergency meeting for the warblers to help serenade someone for valentine's day, this didn't add up in my head as he said he wanted it to be a surprise for them and if I had been invited to the meeting then it wasn't going to be...me. My face had visibly fallen when he said it was for some
Guy at the gap! Not only did he work at the freaking GAP of all places but he had Blaine's heart. The one thing in the world I wished was mine.

So I being the amazing 'sigh'... friend I was, went to the gap and helped him sing to this horribly dressed surfer guy, who was nowhere near good enough for Blaine. I'm not saying that I'm good enough as Blaine is just so amazing but this guy definitely wasn't right for Blaine at all... If only Blaine could've seen that. I wasn't going to pry into his head and see what he saw in this Jeremiah character as that would probably hurt me more than it would help me but my patience was wearing thin. So as I waited outside the store with Blaine waiting for the blond haired man and watched Blaine's heart break when Jeremiah turned him down, I got mad. Why would Blaine want someone like that? He wasn't even out of the closet yet.

Things got worse as time went on. A day later Blaine and I were back in the Lima bean ordering coffee when I'd finally had enough.
"Blaine Can I say something, because we've always been honest with each other? I thought the person you were going to sing to at Valentine's Day was me. I mean we sing flirty duets together and you know my coffee order and we hold hands like a lot. Was I supposed to think that was nothing?" I felt so relieved, like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, but as soon as it had been taken off, a whole new weight had been put on due to waiting what Blaine would say. I wanted more than anything to just peak inside his he's to know what he was thinking but I'd never done that to Blaine before, it didn't feel right but now could be the time I would make an exception.
"Kurt I had no idea... Man I am so clueless sometimes, as you and about 50 mortified shoppers saw I am no good at romance and I don't want to screw this up" That speech made by Blaine was truly touching but I needed to know if it was the truth so I cleared my head and prepared myself for what I was about to hear. 'Kurt likes me? Damn I feel bad now, I don't even know if I could ever like him like that, I mean I might as well go Out with a girl if I went out with him, he is pretty feminine and I am gay for the reason that I like guys and not girls so why date one that acts like one.' Ok I definitely preferred what he had said out loud it definitely hurt less. My chest constricted and I was holding back tears, but being the amazing future Broadway star I was, you could never tell by looking at my face. I had to leave there as soon as possible. I was seething anger. I couldn't believe Blaine actually thought that about me and I didn't want to be near him anymore.
"Right Blaine thanks but no thanks, I don't need you lying to my face and if you can't say the truth to me then I don't want to talk to you." With that final statement I turned and left the Lima bean. I could faintly hear Blaine following behind me, trying to catch up and find out what I meant but I couldn't even look at his face at the moment. This is why I tried to never listen into people's thoughts, it only ever hurt people when I did and this time was no exception.

"Kurt would you stop for a second? What do you mean? What makes you think I'm lying?" Blaine was running behind me but I had already slid into my car and slammed the door. It didn't stop him though, he tapped on the window and I couldn't move while he was there. I rolled down the window and sighed to myself. This was it.
"Just admit it Blaine, you're too polite and dapper to say the real reason but it's that I'm too feminine for you, isn't it?" Blaine looked down at his shoes with a guilty expression on his face. "Exactly, now if you would so kindly move so that I can go back to Dalton?" Blaine stayed where he was.
"Kurt you can't leave me here! You were my ride!" He tried his puppy dog eyes but I already knew he'd ignore me for the whole ride. When you had gotten into someone's head it was extremely difficult to get out.
"Blaine there's a bus in five minutes, you can get that." the hazel eyed boy took a step back in shock and that was all the time I needed to drive away. When I checked my rear view mirror I noticed that he was looking at me, surprise and hurt written all over his face.