What am I to do? I'm stuck here in this deep, dark abyss. The years left of my life stuck here in the depths of hell. Oh how I miss my father so much. The one man that is supportive of all I have done. The one man that has taken care of me for decades. Oh Mercedes. Mercedes, my sweet love of my life. It is torture to man to know that you are just yet a few miles away. I am just a few miles away from your touch, your kiss, your heart.

I shall die from knowing that I can never be with you again. All I have is my companion Faria and my spirit. I still love you so. I love you so much that I would go to the end of the universe just to pick a grand of sand for you. I would go to another world to pick a leaf with crisp morning dew on it. I owe this misfortune to three men that have deceived me.
Three men that I hate. Yes, hate is such a strong word, but only this can describe the fury I hold within.

I have done no harm to Fernand. That wretched man is the one to keep me from you. Danglars is after my title of Captain and all I had. That Villefort kept me stuck here after giving me his word of freedom. One day, I shall take the lives of these men and make them scream mercy in the eyes of God and Satan. I shall make them suffer just as I have.

Vengeance is with me and will help me seek peace again. How I want to see you bad Mercedes. If you only knew the deep emotions I have kept in my heart still. My love is stronger and stronger each day I wait for freedom to call.
The only thing keeping me alive is my determination for revenge and my love for you. All I hope is that through all of the events that has happened I would still think you would love me the way I love you. I can't live without you in my mind.

How could I have been such a fool to believe that everyone befriended me? I was such a vulnerable man. So oblivious to the enemies that surrounds me. And to believe they were respectable men. There is no way to describe the feelings that pass through me. The feelings that make me weak and ache for so long. Justice will be served even if I have to sacrifice my own life to get it.