This is so random, retarded and weird it's ridiculous XDD Oh well it's shit, I know, I don't care. 8D
I wanted to try something in 1st person, and I wanted to try something angsty 'n' stuff XDD That's all I need to explain this random little one-shot ;P
Gaara's POV, around the time of the Chuunin exams...not much else to say, so enjoy~!
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Pain.
Suffering.
Torture.
My whole life, all I've known is those three things. Pain. Suffering. Torture. I have known nothing but these. Along with the heart-wrenching pain of losing someone you love? I can't live with this. But no matter what I do, I cannot die. I scream, I beg, I threaten, I thrash against the bonds holding me, but the deaths keep coming. I watch from the deepest recess of my mind, unable to fully control my body, watching as I mercilessly kill hundreds, watching their fear-filled eyes fading into nothing.
I can't lie, I fear this demon, the very same demon that my father sealed into me, the very same demon that caused the death of my mother. And he hates me for it. He blames me, for something that was clearly his fault...I despise my father.
And I despise this demon...
He is the reason every fears me, the reason I'm hated, unloved, the reason everyone runs away...
I'm so alone...
I should add that to my list...
Pain, suffering, torture, loneliness.
I don't hate anyone...aside from my father...I don't blame them from fearing me...this demon, Shukaku, is ruthless, he loves to kill, kill, kill...he has to kill at least one per day - human or animal, he doesn't care - to stay happy...he's as bloodthirsty as a demon can get...
I fear for Konoha...that village...have I mentioned, my village, along with Oto, are supposed to invade and destroy Konoha. The invasion is today...I don't want to kill, I can't take it anymore...Shukaku is happy about it, he's practically throwing a party...hundreds of citizens, innocent bystanders, will most probably die by my - no, Shukaku's hand, today.
"I DON'T WANT THIS!!"
"Stop your whining, you undesireable little runt. Ohhhh today is going to be so much fun!"
"YOU CAN'T DO THIS, YOU CAN'T!"
"Ohoho, I can, and I will, and there isn't anything you can do about it...why do you constantly fight me? No one loves you anyway...give in to the hate...the loathing...the power..."
"Maybe...I will...no one loves me...you're right...but that's...your fault...not mine..."
"Your father's fault...give in to the hate, Gaara, give in, hate his guts, despise him, avenge your mother, give in to the hatred..."
"..."
......
Maybe he's right...
"That's it...give in...take out your anger on them all..."
After all...what have they ever done for me...? Nothing...
"Embrace it...use the hatred..."
And I sit here...I pity them...I fear for them...for what? For them to hate me? And my father...it was his fault...if he hadn't sealed Shukaku inside me...
"...You're right..."
There's nothing for me. I hate them all, hate them. They do not love me, therefore I shall not love them...I can only love myself.
"HAHAHA! YES! I'M FREE!!"
It's so...dark...
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....................................God.
Y'know, I kinda hate this, it's so random...and really shitty, with absolutely no plot...seriously...
But I kinda liked wriitng it, I had fun with that, so, oh well!
Yeah, kinda didn't exactly finish with a "OH MY GOD AWESOMENESS!!" kinda ending, but oh well.
None of it really radiatied that awesomeness.
Eh, well, I hope y'all liked it!
...And it's really short...