Chapter 1

~Hikaru~

I was trembling as Haruhi lay dying in my arms. Her blood coated my hands. Her eyes looked up at me. "I-I'll always l-love you… Kaoru." And with that sentence, her heart stopped.
"K-Kaoru?" I squeaked.
I heard an intake of breath behind me. I turned my head to see my mirror image.
"Hikaru…" He started.
"Save it." My eyes went cold.
I brushed Haruhi's hair out of her dead eyes and kissed her forehead, one last time.
I carefully lifted her in my arms and let my tears trickle across my face.
Kaoru was watching me with huge eyes, "I'm sorry…"

…

~Kaoru~
I heard the gunshot echo down the stairs, "Haruhi!"
I tripped as I tried to run up the stairs.
"HARUHI!" Hikaru's scream rang in my ears.
"No…"
I skidded to a halt as soon as I reached the top.
Hikaru was leaning over Haruhi.
"I-I'll always l-love you… Kaoru." I heard Haruhi say.
I gasped.
Hikaru turned to me.
"Hikaru…" I started.
"Save it." I felt a spear of ice shoot into my heart as Hikaru's eyes went cold.
He took her up into his arms and buried his face in her neck.
"I'm sorry." I said.
…

~Hikaru~
The funeral was in the rain.
Haruhi's coffin was lifted onto the alter.
I felt tears dripping down my face.
Kaoru was in a suit across the aisle.
I glared at him tearfully.
He looked at me, regret clear in his eyes.
It's too late for that.
I turned back to the front. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him look sadly down.
Good. Blame yourself.
The priest said some things about Haruhi's life, and how brilliant she was.
I looked down, and screamed.
I felt all eyes on me.
I screamed again.
"SHE CAN'T BE GONE! SHE CAN'T! NO!" I broke down into sobs.
I fell onto my side, not caring about the wet grass.
"Haruhi!" Everyone heard my whimper.
Kaoru peered at me.
I leapt to my feet, "YOU TRAITOR!" I yelled, pointing at him.
Hurt flashed across his face.
"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!?"
He reached out, "Hikaru, please—"
"NO YOU FUCKING LIAR!" I screamed and ran out of the park.
I heard footsteps running behind me.
"Hikaru!" Kaoru called.
I span around, "WHAT?!"
"Y-you don't understand…" Kaoru got quieter.
"I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT?! THAT YOU SECRETLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE?!" My yells were tearing at my throat now.
Kaoru gasped. I realised what I had just said. The most important person in my life.
Kaoru's tears splattered against the ground, "Fine then. If that's what she was to you, then I no longer want to be your brother."
He turned around and walked back to the funeral.
I growled, "I NEVER WANTED TO BE YOURS!"
Kaoru looked over his shoulder. I saw his eyes. Horror mixed with pain and regret.
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!"

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~Kaoru~
Pain tore through my chest again.
The most important person in my life.
I shoved the bathroom door open, knife tight in my hand.
I ripped the knife through my arm.
Blood splashed on the tiles.
The pain was almost relieving.
Hikaru was right, this was all my fault.
Haruhi was dead.
My vision blurred and I collapsed in my own blood.

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Okay, so that's the first chapter. It is pretty depressing... Please no flames! First properly sad fanfic!